#if i am ill just add it in a rb later lol

[acircusfullofdemons]

a list of things I've bought because they reminded me of my paras/paracosms

feel free to add ur own! I wanna know about ur irresponsible /terrible money choices lol. also a lot of this is merch of my fictparas bc they're, well, canon characters and thus easy to find stuff for.

Fingerless gloves (Vincent)

Goggles (Vincent)

Numerous different Funko Pops of my fictparas (there's around 9 in total, and that's just the ones of my fictparas. I have more funko pops yes its a problem)

Shirts relating to the source my fictparas are from (I have like...4)

NUMEROUS different pins of my fictparas (there are. 16 pins. and i have more that are just pins i liked!!!)

A cup, bag, choker, a magnet, 3 postcards, a tarot deck, 4 rings, a bow, a lapdesk (that also came with a journal), and keychain that's (official) merch of my fictparas

A pocketwatch, ring of keys, tights, and arm warmers that give me the vibes of my fict-paracosm (or fanta-paracosm, if you wanna get technical)

A Calico Critter (Calypso)

Demon horns (Vincent, Rowan, literally any of my demon paras tbh)

Another hair bow (Jasper)

A coat that's the same style Vincent wears

A poster of a fictpara (granted, I got this one for free bc he's sort of an underrated character and the lady was just happy I was also a fan of him lmao)

A space themed shawl (Elliott)

Stickers (Calypso & Phineas)

A sparkly purple crop top (Calypso)

Stockings [a pair with crosses on them, a black pair, a pair with lacy bows] (Vincent)

Garter belts with pentagrams on them [the ones to hold up stockings not the sexy lingerie kind] (Vincent)

Rabbit ears (Charlotte)

#paraportal #maladaptive daydreaming #immersive dayadreaming #madd problems #actuallymadd #madd thoughts #actually madd #maladaptive behaviors #luka.txt #my love for collecting things does NOT help my bank account #i have. SO MUCH aiw merch its unreal #i feel like im forgetting some stuff #if i am ill just add it in a rb later lol #i finally gave in and bought the rabbit ears from my workplace today (i work at a craft store) and was like #''wow. i buy so much random shit bc of my madd'' which inspired this post lol #this was hard bc vinny and i have similar styles (he is my paraself after all) so. like half the time i can't tell if i buy something bc #its For Me of Because of Vincent #my interest is demons and vinny is a demon. do u see the problem.

[szayelapowo]

hey. call me talon. im aroace, agender, and autistic. my pronouns are it/they. this is my personal/main blog. im technically part of the self-shipping community but i am not actually a self shipper. what i do is a lot more serious and involved than what you typically see with self shipping. labels i most commonly use are fictoromantic and 2dist. my husband/soulmate is szayelaporro granz from the anime/manga bleach. hes my whole world and reason for living, my beautiful perfect angel and also my horrible pink parasitic sea creature cryptid bastard demon man lmao

my ship tag is ♾🤍 say you'll haunt me 🤍♾ and my pfp art was made by @hokage . im okay with sharing bc multiverse n whatnot so feel free to talk to me about him :3

⚠️ pls dont follow me if youre a minor, i will block you if you do. nothing personal its just for comfort. im 30+ and occasionally rb spicy stuff so minors especially pls dont interact with those posts (tags to block are just 'spicy' and 'nsft' for now but if anyone would like me to tag with something else pls lmk). also if youre a minor and i accidentally follow you lmk so i can unfollow (or you can just block me lol). i have a longer dni list linked at the top/side of my blog depending if youre viewing it from the mobile app or desktop. ill add it to this pinned post eventually when i have the energy. sorry for any confusion. ⚠️

also if you see me say anything offensive PLEASE lmk and dont assume i did it on purpose (i promise i didnt). i have uncontrollably severe anxiety as well as cptsd + ocd and im terrified of accidentally upsetting or inconveniencing anyone but im also extremely stupid and have trouble understanding most things or i just forget a lot of stuff. im sorry.

⚠️ sometimes i post/reblog possibly triggering content involving trauma, delusions, hallucinations, paranoia, psychosis, dereality/unreality, religion, and suicidal ideation, so if any of that is uncomfortable for you, you might wanna stay away. ⚠️

oh and im psychological alterhuman/otherkin/endel maybe? (shapeshifting demonic entity usually in the form of a lanky black german shepherd, occasionally a red+black wyvern-type dragon or a hybrid of the two. these used to be separate identities but i recently figured out that theyre actually one. though i cant tell if its real or a delusion caused by my trauma and autism so if you see me calling myself an endel thats why.) so ill post/reblog abt that sometimes too.

jsyk i dont always respond to messages bc either my anxiety/pain/aggravation at humanity is too bad or i cant think of what to say so i leave it for later and then forget. pls dont think im ignoring you on purpose im just. a coward and a dumbass 💀

#self shipping #fictosexual #fictoromantic #alterhumanity #info post #♾🤍 say you'll haunt me 🤍♾