#if i died tomorrow i'd be quite okay w it tbh

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does anyone else ever feel like their heart is gonna explode from how much they hate themselves and feel lonely or am i the most fucked up person ever

#i mean. if i am lonely it must be bc i isolate myself but i isolate myself bc i hate everything about myself #and whenever i attempt to make friends it's stupid attempts and i seem weird and annoying and clingy etc #and i bet i make people uncomfortable #and i bet everyone especially irl thinks i am just the weirdest worst person #and so then i feel like dying and i isolate myself even more even online #i just. can't do it this week. i juwt cant. it's so awful. i feel so bad. i wanna disappear. #i am the worst. i suck and i get why ppl don't wanna be my friends. i wanna cry. i hate myself. #sorry. i know. this most makes thints worse. this post doesn't help. i don't even fucking know. i just neee to vent. sorry #i am so so s9 so lonely i feel like my heart is gonna stop beating from how much it's aching #if i died tomorrow i'd be quite okay w it tbh #i don't even wanna talk about my cat. hes gonna die.soon. im gonna feel so fucking sad and devastated it'll rip my heart to shreds #what a fucking pathetic life lol #delete later