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#if i ever put my parents through that shit i would have to kms sorry
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Every other aspect of Jesse’s trauma makes me go oh no poor blorbo :( but his relationship w his parents and thinking ab it in the context of the series aftermath actually makes me unwell… they never even knew him they only ever saw the worst in him and now they’ve had that validated by his own actions and they’ll never know how sorry he is and that he was a good kid at heart and they didn’t imagine it and they still love him but how can they have loved him if they never even knew him and only ever saw the worst in him *flatlines*
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aftermathdb · 4 years
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DEATH BATTLE review: All Might vs. Might Guy
First Atlantis^2, then Widow^2, then Marvel^2, then ONE^2, and now Might^2.
(Holy Hell! I have exactly 100 screenshots for this episode!)
All Might′s Preview.
We open on a world where superpowers are common.
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A world where schools are everywhere so that people can harness their powers.
These “Quirks” are varied, and some are… not that great.
But one aspiring hero would rise up to be the greatest hero around. Toshinori Yagi, who was given the greatest Quirk of all: One for All.
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The hosts go over how badass this Quirk is. But more specifically how it’s the Quirk that can be passed down to other users.
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Toshinori got his from Nana Shimura, and he became the ever-smiling All Might.
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All Might keeps that smile on his face to ensure that everyone around him feels safe.
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Thanks to All Might’s Quirk, he’s got everything from Super Strength, speed, stamina, and durability.
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Aside from Boomstick’s apparent ability to manifest seafood, the hosts go over All Might‘s main powerset.
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Interestingly enough, All Might’s tendency to name his moves after the US is kinda accurate.
For example, the Texas Smash and Oklahoma Smash both create forms of tornadoes. And guess what states are smack-dab in the way of those things?
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But All Might can combine those States together in one extremely powerful attack: The United States of Smash. PLUS ULTRA!
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The power of the USoS is actually quantifiable. Given the size of the storm compared to the buildings around it, the force would be over 11,000 tons of TNT.
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All Might can also move at speed around Mach 29.
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Now, here’s the thing: All Might’s doing a lot of this with a handicap. So these moves are still impressive. Since DEATH BATTLE takes a look at these characters in their prime, those are the stats that would be used. In his hayday, All Might would be 60 times more powerful.
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He’s on par with many a fighter, like Nomu, whom he had punched 300 times in ten seconds.
Even when crippled, All Might’s proven exactly why he’s been the number one hero for years.
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Might Guy′s Preview.
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In the world of Naruto, there exists schools that train the best Ninjas around. These schools would essentially teach Ninjutsu and Genjutsu, or in Boomstick’s terms, Ninja Magic.
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But one ninja doesn’t really have that. Rock Lee was never really that good at the whole “Ninja Magic” thing, so when he found a mentor, it was a good thing for him.
Enter: Might Guy.
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Despite not having that great of skill when compared to the other guys, Might Guy and his dad opted to focus on one thing and become the undisputed master of it:
Punching people (Thanks for the description there, Boomstick).
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Strong Fist is a subset of Taijutsu, or hand-to-hand combat. A hard martial art that is focused on breaking the bones of the opponent.
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Only the toughest people can really use Strong Fist according to the hosts, and it comes with it’s own set of skills.
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But it’s a really big double-edged sword.
And we get more into that double-edged sword by an animated segment.
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Regardless, the technique Guy and Duy developed was the Eight Gates.
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With these Gates, they can unlock a whole slew of crazy abilities by way of removing limits on the body. From mental inhibitions, to physical limitations.
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Some of these Gates are safe to use. Numbers 1-3 are good to go, but once you go past that, you’re in trouble.
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At Gate numero six, Guy moves so fast that his fists ignite the air around him and can be used as projectiles.
In order to ignite the Hydrogen in the air, Guy’s swinging at speeds at 40000 km/h.
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For reference, that’s nearly five times as fast as the X-15 Rocket Jet, the fastest man-made jet that has been made so far.
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Gate Seven is still relatively safe for Guy, according to the hosts, but the final Gate is a fatal attack.
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That’s not some sort of “Battle Aura” you’re seeing around Guy, that’s his blood burning. With this, he can use… “Night Guy.”
Yeah, I’m a little unimpressed too.
This form was able to decimate Madara. You should know that guy by now. He’s the deadly villain that could take on Naruto and easily defeat him in base mode.
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Naruto’s super modes are definately better that Guy’s best mode, but it’s also way better than Jiraya’s best move.
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Guy is also a match for Kakashi, who could catch lightning.
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Kakashi’s speed clocks in at around 763000 m/s, so Guy is definitely in that ballpark.
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And with all the feats he has, he’s proven to be a badass through and through. It takes a lot to bring down this Mighty Guy.
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… Yeah, the end quote doesn’t exactly inspire greatness, but eh, it’s probably iconic (Really sorry, not a Naruto fan).
The Battle Itself.
Torrian is back to head this project, All Might will be voiced by Kaiji Tang, while All Might was voiced by a guy named “Dick Splitter” (No, I’m not making that up). "Mighty” by both Brandon Yates and Therewolf sprite artist (If there are any), and audio lead by Chris Kokkinos.
Our fight starts with Guy sitting in a park, reading a bit of Manga. For those eagle-eyed viewers, you’ll notiice that he’s reading a My Hero Academia book. I’ve circled it for you.
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Anyways, All Might drops in and does his dramatic enterance. After geeking out, Guy challenges him to…
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An ARM WRESTLING CONTEST!
Which All Might readily accepts.
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I want to go on record and say that this initial explosion is in essence, them just starting.
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And can I also point out the absurdity in the ground being cratered before the table? Like what is that table made of?- Adamantium?
Well, my accusation is unlikely. The table breaks, and then the two duke it out. Not out of jealousy or because one of them accused the other of sabotaging the contest, but because they’re just that hammy.
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So with the fight underway, these two go at it. It’s readily clear that All Might has the edge up in strength over Base Guy, but Guy is certainly faster  given how often he dodges the attacks that All Might dishes out.
He even gets a perfect 10 on his dodging!
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I want it to be known that Might Guy actually dodged this attack. He clearly has the speed advantage.
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And these two just keep complimenting each other! Like, come on! Who am I supposed to root for here?
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Anyways, Guy opens his Sixth Gate, which gives him an edge up over All Might.
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And you want to know what’s better than a beam struggle?- A Barrage attack struggle.
What’s better than that?
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When the barrages are fire vs wind!
They make an explosion that brings Guy to the ground, and he opens the Seventh Gate.
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He unleashes his Daytime Tiger, and actually puts All Might on the defensive.
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Here’s my question: How is it that all that power is being condensed in that one park? Those buildings should have destableized by now!
Anyways, Finishing Blow in
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Might Guy gets impaled! Well, it was a good run, and he certainly put up quite the fight…
And he’s also not done yet. We still have one more Gate.
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REAL finishing blow iin
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You gotta wonder what the report by the  authorities and news is going to be like.
Verdict + Explanation.
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So, right off the bat, this fight actually is close. Guy’s Gates were really the big thing that was letting him keep up with All Might and his  speed was certainly nothing to sneeze at.
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Now, As for All Might, since DEATH BATTLE was looking at him in his prime, they had to scale accordingly.
All Might himself claimed that a fight he finished in 300 punches could have been done in 5. So that means that the All Might that is being used is 60 times stronger.
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Take this feat for example, All Might’s foe Gigantomachia, once blew a hole through the mountain. Adding in the X60 multiplier, and All Might’s batting in the 154.8 Gigaton range.
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However, Guy is still way faster, add in his better training and more versatile arsenal, Might Guy just needed to hit All Might harder than All Might could hit him.
All Might’s feat of changing the weather clocks in at about 1462 Gigatons of TNT.
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Now, that’s impressive and all, but Guy hasn’t really shown his full power.
So we have to compare him to another person that we’ve seen all too many times before: Naruto.
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Now remember: Base Naruto < Madara, and Night Guy > Madara.
As we’ve seen all too many times before, Naruto’s Base Chakra was enough to blow a hole through the moon.
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How much force is that?
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About 480 Petatons of TNT.
How much is a Petaton?
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A million Gigatons. Simply put All Might > Might Guy, but Night Guy > All Might. Sure, Guy goes down not too long after using the attack, but he wins in the moment, and that’s what matters.
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The winner is Might Guy.
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Overall impression.
I came into this thinking “This feels more like season premiere material.” Something to hype up the crowd for the upcoming season. And I was right in the absolute most wrong sense of the word. The fight is spectacular, and it makes me want to read up on MHA. In all honesty, if this were a season premiere,  everything after it would feel boring in comparison.
Now, admittedly, this was basically just a fistfight. A battle of who could punch harder than the other guy. Which isn’t very exciting on it’s own, but is still interesting given the characters.
Plus, given that no sane parent would ever give their kid the name “Richard” if their  last name was “Splitter”  I’m going to take a shot in the dark and say that this is the official VA for Guy.
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I’m not going to link to his twitter, I’d rather he not get in trouble, but it’s still pretty cool.
Then again, my dad knew a guy named “Richard Head” so I guess the name “Dick Splitter” isn’t that farfetched. Who knows, maybe this is a real name.
Tangent aside, this battle was epic in all sense of the word. I’m sure there are a lot of references that I missed because of my lack of knowledge on these two, but it was a joy to see, and the music is awesome. Definitely looking forward to downloading it.
9.6/10.
Next Time…
I’m calling…
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… Well shit. I don’t know what to call. But I recognize Miles Morales, Beerus,  and Danny Phantom, so who knows?
Though the end colors for the start of Season 7 makes me think of… Harley Quinn.
Is there a fight that you want me to review? - Send an ask/request, and I’ll look into it!
Do you want to read my fanfic based around DEATH BATTLE itself? click here!
Thank you for reading, and I hope to see you next time for…
A DEATH BATTLE.
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conflictedrabbit · 7 years
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2* the AvPD
Conversation w/ my friend I mentioned earlier. With their name / identifying characteristics edited out and some chopping here and there. 
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I made a post abt avod once tho and it got like A few rbs and I thought "if this isn't irony idk what is" Trje
66ccff: ekjal;kdjd;
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me: why do, so many avoidants want to pay for being alive avpd Tumblr: hm . I relate
66ccff: ekleja;ejdl;k
___: me: I'm glad to know people relate but are we fucking ok
66ccff: 
LOL i mean mood tbh
___: HINESTLT like I noticed i do it cuz of you NFBNSBDKSBDKSS
66ccff: though do you mean pay as in like. pay the medical system or pay as in guilt
___: Guilt
66ccff: 
kejk;ldj;L yes ok that is definitely me me: i breathed 5 gallons of air within 3 hours i am so sorry world
___:
me: [realizes it's not entirely religious trauma and also probably just Guilt over taking up space and needing to help ppl otherwise Why Live?} 
Oh god me
66ccff: (this is not even ironic i get like this multiple times a week)
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hdjhdjsd I've been having a bad ep lately actually and like I think I failed to look 5-6 people in the eyes today CUZ IM JUST [WALKS AROHND] WOW . TERRIBLE
66ccff: 
omg it's ok i nearly cried in class today b/c i didn't have a good eng translation for this jp sentence
i was like.... no.... don't....
i stabilized cuz the teacher went on a tangent for a second but like forcing myself to look in his eyes and act normal was so hard i looked away so many times i wa slike. oog my god. end m i love it when walking around where there's other people makes me really nervous and irritable agoraphobia is great!
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GOD yea It's so awkward for me I'm fine if I have a safe person or I'm walking to class but like
66ccff: i came back from class today and took a 6 hr nap cuz of my shame and agoraphobia
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Rip Wish I could do that...
66ccff: well i haven't done my homework so
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I just. Cry a lot NDKSJDJDNSKDNS rip me: I'm strong Me: spent the last 5 days like crying over nothing
66ccff: 
dkjle;ajd i mean... i used to cry but then i got mad at myself for crying so now i just Repress (tm) and sleep and then. the joke is that sometimes it doesn't work self harms... oops... that didn't work either better nap again
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zz Pillows keep u safe Idk what I've been doing lately but I thought I was getting better til I realized I was like Abstaining from feeding myself BFBJSBFSJJFD
66ccff: o h my god
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And I was like "oh fuck I'm a terrible person bc someone told me I should eat and j Didn't Do It I Failed Them"
66ccff: 
ahahahahaahahaha i thought i was getting better too but it was actually because i was just forcing myself to study to give myself an illusion of doing my part and then i went to school and my actual performance is like bad b/c i avoid so many activities that would make me better and i just
___: samd
66ccff: 
Wow i want to die!
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hdjsjdjs
I think I only managed to eat cuz my brother was expecting me to
66ccff: tavpdfw you want to be punished constantly so you don't have to have anxiety about existing
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Cuz he bought me dinner like 6 hours ago but I didn't touch it til now BFJDJD MEEEEE
66ccff: dkja;eljd;
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GOD me: ah I feel good today Me like 3 hours later: oh my God I shouldn't feel good abt myself that's so Selfish ? I am trash
66ccff: oh Mood
___: Avpd solidarity
66ccff: 
honestly i love my environmental soicology class but liek it talks about how we're all consuming and putting things back into the environment
___: Idk how I manage to have avpd and __pd but that's how it is on ths bitch of an earth
66ccff: and i was literally contemplating if death was the only way to take myself out from the cycle
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Me Bhhjsfjd
66ccff: 
i was like holy shit. it's not just consumption i forgot i also put bad gases into the air with everything i breathe i am Bad
___: 
All day today I was hearing abt what happened in Vegas and we were like. Talking in my apologetics class abt the Nature of Evil
66ccff: the true environmentalist take is death
___: And I was just thinking "why must I, exist if all I am is bad"
66ccff: 
oh my god same! i looked over my abt page and i was like this looks fake tumblerina
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apologetics: so mankind is basically evil Me: great! I'll die so there's less evil in the world
66ccff: 
me ME
MEMEMMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEME
___: HHDHSBDJSHD
66ccff: 
sometimes i have fantasies of like going backwards and apologizing to everyone i've ever talked to and to everyone who ever had to work to produce what i've consumed
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M. E
m
66ccff: 
and then hoping that they forget about me and then like disappearing forever i jsut can't see how some people can be like oh yeah factories in china and mexico earn less than 2 dollars an hour to make our stuff and not jus twant to kill themselves
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I'm just pathetic and compulsive if I feel bad about stuff I apologize til like 2 weeks after God. Yea
66ccff: 
the joke is that people hate if you overapologize so you jsut damned if you do damned if you dont :upside_down:
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me: uh sorry for being sad People: don't apologize for that Me: Avpd:.  They are mad that I am apologizing also that I am sad Hhhfjjejd
Me: 
ME WKJD;LKD "can you stop saying sorry" "sorry"
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me: oh God I'm so miserable Someone: oh im sorry Me: I wish I could accept this but Pity is too much for a lowly worm like me
66ccff: "what did i just say"
___: MMSNDNBHHHHHHGGGGG
66ccff: 
:smile: :gun:
MOOD
___: avpd feel when you don't deserve to be pitied ?
66ccff: pity is too much kindness ___: 
God yea
LIKE probably just a conflicted feel but I prefer ppl being active than pitying me but then I'm like
"that's selfish I don't deserve that ?"
66ccff: 
someone tells you to watch where you're going feel like you're unable to go outside for the rest of the day
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m. mebdbdhdhdjs
66ccff: oh yeah the joke is that i want people to like. be kind to me but also i don't
___: hell brain
66ccff: so i can't say what i want
___: GGG YEAH
66ccff: 
be kind to me except don't because i'll feel invalid either way so maybe just don't talk to me >feels worse anyway
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Hhhhhhhhhhh me Me: talk to me ? But I don't know what to talk abt ? But I am also not good enough for pity you could just sit there maybe But then the presence of another person will overwhlem me and I'll go cry again/s
66ccff: feel free to entertain yourself, and forget about me, ___: 
Mebdndmdkskdjsja god [looks at all cluster c disorders] you are all bitches and I hate tou
66ccff: 
tavpdfw u gotta depersonalize to make it through the day of talking to other people and acting like ur a normal human bean MOOD
___: GOD yea
66ccff: 
i have a question though if im depersonalizing why do i still feel terrible even if i feel ilke im fake smh
___: God me
66ccff: 
me: i'm not real so heres me acting like i am chill and cool person that is interesting maybe or maybe not me, inside: this sucks and i hate this but im not real so it shouldnt affect me but damn i hate this when u feel separate from your auto-pilot but you still experience all the shame you would without it :thinking: avpd is stupid and contradictory and evolutionarily useless
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__pd isnkind of the same but like if you manage it well you can get stuff done but you still breakdown over the TINIEST DETAIL I hate it And I waste more time thinking abt what I'm gonna do and not actully DOING MT SHIT
66ccff: cripes
___: LIKE A NORMAL PERSON
66ccff:
me in high school UGH i'm ahving that problem right now dude in high school i used to just waste my days reading manga and thnking i should do my homeworka
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me: I'll spend this hour scheduling [2hours later] Me: [stressed nbdjdjjsjdjsjdks
66ccff: and then i'd like. start at 10pm and fuck myself over ___: rip 66ccff: have a crying session at 4am every time an essay is due the next day ___: I actually didn't do one of my assignments tonight 66ccff: bad coping habits ___: Rip me I got discouraged over something lame JFJSNFKSNFD 66ccff: oh mood
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relationship issues: occur Me: well, I can't, do anything ever again
66ccff: 
i shouldn't even be discouraged abt my classes bc i'm here to learn and i'm just like. i know nothing i deserve to die kejd;kakejd friend, disagrees with you on something you feel unsure about: WELL I GUESS I AM BAD AND THEY HATE ME NOW time to ghost them
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me: [perceives someone not caring for me] me: and Now...what is Mine Purpose...what do I live for...my Friends....have all abandoned m MEEEEEE avpd sounds super dramatic when you separate it from yourself but like In the moment I'm always just [jdut starts Fucking Crying
66ccff: 
i just want to manage to some kind of social work, give my wealth to some impoverished family, and then kms before 30
yeah my therapists in the past are like why... so soon
___: Jfjdjfjdf 66ccff: and i'm just like "why not i need to minimize all my ills on the world and also on the emotions of my family" ___: That reminds me of like. One of my mutuals talking abt how early he sleeps and he was just 66ccff: this is the optimal time look my life plan
___: 
"why be awake longer than necessary"
Hdhdhfjsjfdjdjdband. I was just . Me
66ccff:
because you hate yourself too much sleep :^)
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God yea That's true. Me rn
I should've been asleep like an hour ago but [plays secret of Mana and then mopes]
66ccff:
dude i used to have bouts of insomnia b4 i got drugs that knock me out (and help me w/ anxiety) like.... i would lay awake and every second of being awake was just making the situation worse
___: I feel like I should get meds to balance out my bipolar eps but
66ccff: but then i couldn't sleep anyway so it was a damned situation ___: my parents r so anti meds 66ccff: rrghbh
___: 
also like Internalized ableism That I don't Needthem and So Many people don't need them
66ccff: oh yeah, why do my essay when i can read an hour of garbage romo manga and feel slightly less bad during that time and then hate myself more
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So I Can do it cuz I'm like Everyone Else and not like Those "crazy" people Rifp
66ccff: 
man i don't wanna encourage meds if your side effects r bad but honestly how did i get the fuck through high school other than triggering intense anxiety about all assignments
like... i was so nonfunctional i shouldn't have even been in school
.....
66ccff: 
all accessibility problems are solvable humans are so bad
___: caring ? About others ? What a concept 66ccff: except sometimes they are good but that is definitely not me
___: 
Me
Ok I try to overcompensate w good to make up for inherent badness THANKS RELIGION
66ccff: 
the US is like: here's a pricetag for your life pay up
___: AAAA
66ccff: 
yeah i can see how christainity wouldn't help there w/ the "original sin" and stuff that doesn't quite exist in other abrahamic religions iirc judaism doesn't even have hell
___:  it's really weird
66ccff: 
i'm guessing its bc of jesus like.... y'all binches killed him so now this is life - christainity
___: 
Like. Christianity makes the most sense to me probably cuz I grew up w it but fuck Man
66ccff:  o yeah i grew up w/ some christianity too ___: It's FUCKED!!!!!! 66ccff:  i actually have agoraphobia issues w/ going inside of churches ___: Oh same 66ccff:  :^) ___: I'm actually fairly anti-church just because the current state of them is very bsd 66ccff:  oh yeah
....
66ccff: 
how can someone like me, who is literally not deserving of life, raise someone else
scrumbles
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Me Hdjehdsk
66ccff:  ___ we are so fucked ___: 
It's true Life is fucked We, are fucked
66ccff: existence is violence
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travellingthoughts · 6 years
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Wednesday 20th of June 2018
The very highly anticipated blog post is here...and it’s brutally honest. This is what happened when I took a chance with a guy on the other side of the world.
Let’s get straight to it. The entire time was filled with spritzer (which is wine with sparkling water and sometimes lemonade), chicken or pork schnitzel with a side of parsley potatoes, and a fuck load of alcohol. Like all day, every day. Add that with really good company and it was a fabulous time. It’s fair to say I left pudgier then I came in which was the only down side but I’ll just get back on my feet when I’m home.
Day 1 consisted of meeting up with Alex and i was so fucking nervous honestly... I rung my best friend and needed her to console me and tell me to calm the fuck down. I don’t know why I was so nervous it’s not like I love the guy. I’m sure he was feeling the same. It had been over a year since we had seen each other and I think I was just nervous that this whole thing was going to be one big regret. I was feeling hungover as fuck because I made the mistake of partying the night before I had to catch a 6am flight (my friends on snapchat are well aware that this is a common occurrence and if you want to be apart of the snapfam add me using elenipilafas) #didjusttakethatopportunity. I had barely any sleep and had a terrible flight. Add that all together and I wasn’t in a great state when I saw him. He took me back to his apartment where I had the chance to freshen myself up and catch some zzz’s all whilst he went back to work. At about 4pm he came home and we waited for his housemate to come home also. I met his friend Berni last year when I met Alex in Madrid. Then we all went for drinks at a shipwreck and went to a fake beach on the Danube to drink some more. Yes... I did just say fake beach and it literally had sand on concrete and, yes this constituted as a “beach” ����🏽‍♀️ I guess you do what you have to do when you don’t have a coastline 😂
Day 2 was really chilled. We slept in and rolled around until like 4pm with no regrets. Then we finally got up and went to Stephanplatz and strolled around the city to the Mayors house (which looked like a church tbh however Alex didn’t think so). We went and got schnitzel for dinner #shockhorror1 and then had wine back at the house #shockhorror2. I met his housemates girlfriend and she was lovely but there was a definite language barrier. She barely speaks English and I speak a few basic words of German. She was still gorg though and did make an effort which was lovely of her.
Day 3 was huge and very interesting. We woke up early and strolled around endlessly. 19,500 steps later and my feet were jelly. We went to Shunbrun palace and ate apple strudel and an ice coffee on the hill. It’s a massive palace and with beautiful gardens and a hill with a waterfall. It felt like we walked the entire thing 😂 Then we went out for dinner with some friends of his that I met in Madrid and had lots of laughs. Alex and I continued the night at the Danube river, where there was this massive party with pop-up bars food stalls for kms. We walked all along it, and had cocktails at several bars along the way home. The most interesting part about the whole night was we got into quite possibly the deepest conversation I think we’ve ever had. We spoke about us being together. We discussed every aspect of our love lives but the most intriguing thing he said was that if I was to ever get married he would make sure i would never go through with it. His exact words were “if you ever got married I would run through the back doors and object”. I explained to him that by then, he would had missed his opportunity and that he should have grown some balls way before it got to the actual wedding #savage. It was in this moment that I realised he actually does feel something because he wouldn’t have said anything if this wasn’t the case. I also realised that he isn’t ready to settle anytime soon and neither am I. He’s 26 and I’m 21. Fuck I’ve got so much I want to do in my life, and getting into a relationship anytime soon isn’t on the agenda 😂
The next few days were filled with great memories. We caught a train to Hollern, which is a village where he is from. His entire family is from there and his friends are all there. They are a community of 200 people which was amazing because it’s always refreshing to leave the city and catch some greenery on the countryside. I met his parents and they’re lovely but damn I was nervous. I don’t know why. I guess I just didn’t want them to think that we were together and I didn’t want that kind of pressure on us. I met pretty much his entire village in the two days we stayed there. The minute we arrived we went to the fire station (which honestly should just be called a bar because every time we went there we drank an endless supply of alcohol😂). I was introduced to spritzer and we had a couple of glasses before we jumped in the fire truck for a drive to a field for the boys to practice their drills. The Hollern firefighter department were competing in a competition where they do their drills. Several villages close by participate and it’s this huge opportunity to get drunk. Whilst the firefighter boys were hard at work, I ate fries and schnitzel sandwiches and drank wine all day long in the sun with his friends. I got really burnt whilst doing so and it was great 😂 Then for the sole purpose of getting slaughtered, his entire village/friendship group went to a party in the next village ever called Pachfurth (not pronounced Patch fourth apparently 🤷🏽‍♀️). We laughed all day long and they wouldn’t let me drink water. I literally secretly tried to fill my glass with water and someone caught me and was like “Eleni what’s in your glass?” and I not only was caught red handed, but was made to skull a drink to make up for my sins *secretly loved every minute of it*. It was just a jolly good time tbh and his friends were telling Alex that I fit into the group and village really well and that made me happy that they felt the way I did. They were also calling his father over and telling him that his going to be my father-in-law and honestly all I could do was laugh because by this stage I was at least 6 glasses of wine and an uncountable amount of spritzer in. The gin and tonic right at the end put me in a state far beyond sober. Couldn’t tell you how we got home but I woke up at Alex’s parents house and Alex was feeling as shit as I was. This brings me to day 5. I was certainly hungover but functioning after the previous day of craziness. His mum had made this amazing cherry sponge cake thing and she made me a coffee and we all sat outside in the sun drinking coffee and reminiscing on the day before. Then his mum made us lunch all whilst Alex and I went for a bike ride along Hollern which was beautiful. The bike was too big for me and I swear Alex laughed the entire time at me and my shakiness. That afternoon, we went back to the firefighters department to drink more spritzer (told you...should just be a bar 😷🤷🏽‍♀️) and then made our way to a few villages over called Hainburg or something where we had dessert and went to the top of a mountain where you could see Bratislava in Slovakia. In this village there is a street called “blood street” (not its name in German) where there are slashes of knives on the walls that mark where Turkish soldiers slaughtered civilians trying to escape hundreds of years ago. Then we made our way back to the fire department for Schnapps testing and then to dinner in a village close by. I said goodbye to all of his amazing friends and we caught a train back to his apartment in Vienna.
On day 6 I woke up fresh as a daisy and went to the gym. Alex went to work in the morning but came back from work to take me to the train station and see me off. He told me he hates goodbyes but I said to him that it’s not a goodbye, it’s a “I’ll see you again”.
He looked after me really well, always making sure I was okay and happy. However in terms of emotions, they were non-existent in both ends and I’m happy with that. There weren’t sparks if that’s a good way to put it. To begin with, the whole experience felt confusing because one minute he was being cute and then the next minute wasn’t. By about day 3 I had shut off emotionally because I don’t deal well with not knowing where I stand. The chat on the beach that night also did it for me. I guess that’s why I haven’t written about it yet, because I actually didn’t know what to write. I called my best friend at the airport when I left Vienna and was literally speechless like how the fuck am I meant to feel?! It’s taken some time of reflection and realisation to get some words together to actually put my feelings on paper. I’m sorry to say, but there is no love story or a never-coming-home-from-Europe kind of plot twist. I think this whole experience has made me realise that I don’t want with anyone but myself right now and I’m more then fine with that. It also taught me that you may as well take chances and risks in life because it will always teach you something in the end. And for me personally, it was a really positive experience and outcome. I had an absolute blast and the highlight was definitely his village and all the beautiful people I met there. They loved me and I loved them. I feel very warm towards the entire experience, from meeting him and his friends last year to creating more memories this year. I got the opportunity to get to know him really well and spend quality time together for a solid 6 days. I’m so very lucky to have Alex and his friends as my friends on the other side of the world. And just like that, I’m signing off.
Until the next post,
Len x
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