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#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened
8rujaa
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7 months
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to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?
#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened
#i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close
#and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way
#i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao
#now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest
#and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell
#i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop
#but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again
#i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier
#it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men
#and i find myself unable to connect with anyone…
#i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed
#i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it
#i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly.
#i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad
#i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so
#i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized…
#when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was
#like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u
#i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function.
#plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized
#how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone…
#i went thru all that for nothing…
#and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why
#brain vomit
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