#in a way i dont usually let myself feel abt this even though i rmr as a kid first learning about all the extra fucking bullshit that comes

[taminogenvy]

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#all the news i see these days is like . abortion n healthcare n baby formula n now tampon shortage #and that combined w this whole Sleeping With A Cishet Boy situation and the needing to find bc that goes along with that #is sending my gender dysphoria skyrocketing and i do NOT love that for me . #and im like . well i should go n look up permanent options for bc cos if i ever get pr*gnant im gonna kms no cap but then every article #is like #WoMEn miGht ChOSe TuBaL LiTiGAtiOn fOr AnY nUMbEr Of REasOns BuT sHe ShuOULd rEmEMbEr iTs nOT eaSiLY reVErSiblE #and for some rsn the fact that like . getting a vasectomy is a quick n easy 2 second thing where you can go home the same day #but getting ur fucking tubes tied is a whole physical and psychological ordeal cos everyones gonna try to talk you out of it #is just the icing on the cake #like i cant think about this for too long cos its making me feel absolutely enraged #in a way i dont usually let myself feel abt this even though i rmr as a kid first learning about all the extra fucking bullshit that comes #with BeiNg a WomNa and being so absolutely filled with anger and frustration #and thats all coming back these days #and i dont know what to do about that #im back in my taminogenvy oversharing era 😌

[armsdealing]

NAME: alex NICKNAME: alex AGE: fucken old FACE CLAIM: idk. i use icons from whichever icon folder i have nearest. usually just marcelo icons. sometimes alfonso herrera. PRONOUNS: he. HEIGHT: five eleven... last time i checked. BIRTHDAY: december 21.

AESTHETIC: urban magical realism. criminal urban fantasy. idk, i could say more but those terms sum it pretty well. a mix of nitty gritty realistic criminal themes with some magic, ranging from maybe-magic-maybe-mundane vague fantastic elements to some definitely-magic stuff.

LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO: i honestly dont rmr

FAVORITE MUSE ( S ) YOU’VE WRITTEN: honestly i have many fav muses that ive written though like ive been doing this for years and if i still write a character it means i love them, straight up, im not gonna let em go. i suppose i could just say that charles is my fav because of how old he is and marcelo is my current fave because of how much i enjoy developing him, but i’ve cycled through phases where ive developed some characters more than others, to the point i stop talking abt “characters” and start talking about their families. i developed the deranes and then the becketts and then the klaus-kovac and then the burakgazis and right now i’m developing the reyes. but i also really love other characters not necessarily affiliated to any family like red and janus. and some characters whose families are also significant but not as developed like jerome and margo’s. idk, i really love them all but sure my favs will always be charles and marcelo because they’ve helped me understand parts of myself and express them as i’ve grown. 

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO TAKE ON YOUR CURRENT MUSE ( THAT YOU ARE POSTING THIS ON ): what inspired me to write these characters is diverse and not tied to a single reason. it might just be something i read or watched or listened sprinkled with something ive lived. i pour out a lot of my experiences into my characters but not all of them have my experiences, some of them are drastically different from me but still to some degree click with me. marcelo right now for example was just a joke character at first, but i started adding to it to the point i wanted him to be a whole thing. i wanted to make the antithesis to other characters i had until that point including charles. i wanted someone who was not afraid to love or want love and who was completely open about that.

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE ASPECTS OF YOUR CURRENT MUSE: definitely the last thing i just mentioned. it’s kind of refreshing. ive written all kinds of characters and ive definitely written loving, open, affectionate characters before but not the degree marcelo is, or quite the same as marcelo. 

WHAT’S YOUR BIGGEST INSPIRATION WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING: sometimes it can be as simple as looking at my ocs fc, sometimes its a song or something i watch or read. sometimes its just going back and forth and talking about them with people. a lot of the shit i come up with i didnt come up with on the spot, i might have vaguely mentioned it to someone and then gone like “huh, that’d be cool” and proceeded to actually make something out of it!

right now for marce im just inspired by “latinidad” and everything it represents. same for all my latin characters in general. everything about what means to be latino on every level is something that’s very inspiring for me. how different it is to be latino than to be european and american or whatever else and the culture, the music, the general way to go about things, the way they think and things they’ve lived through. just the identity, really. it’s something i hope is noticeable in these characters, the reyes and all my other latino characters. 

FAVORITE TYPES OF THREADS: all threads are good with me. i especially love threads with a purpose though, whatever that purpose is. something that will be looked back on and possibly referenced in the future. things that break from the norm -- like if a dynamic is mostly happy, a tense or dramatic thread; similarly if a dynamic is mostly tense, something light-hearted as well. threads where characters genuinely talk and express their feelings or act on them. you know, any kind of interaction where you feel like you ended up not the same as how you started them, in terms of the relationship or even with the character themselves.

BIGGEST STRUGGLE IN REGARDS TO YOUR CURRENT MUSE: i’m always learning and finding out new things about these characters and there’s still plenty of things to develop and research, which is both good and bad, but more good than bad imho.

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