#in fact when chase started to mention caspian as something more than a cute guy thats when finnley started to act jealous

[malkaviian]

i never talk about the effects the "breakup" with finnley had on chase so im going to do it now

#oc talk #he pretends it didnt affected him at all but it did. to this day he still misses him a lot but thats not something hes going to admit #maybe his attachment wasnt healthy but he was the only person (alongside dalila) that stayed by his side even when hes a piece of shit #and he isnt that much of a bad person not to be grateful for it; even when he wonders why he didnt go away sometimes. #he treated him way better than everyone else in the world but even then there were times his anger issues got the best of him #and lashed out; mostly without a real reason. and yet he stayed forgiving him every time and not taking it personally. #because he loved (platonically) him and he also did. but they had to basically fuck around and find out and it ruined it kdjsfnjsd #i mean; they still stayed as good friends while it happened and no romantic feelings were involved at all. to this day nothing is romantic #but then caspian had to appear and neither of them are of an open relationship type of guys so they couldnt stay as fwbs anymore #in fact when chase started to mention caspian as something more than a cute guy thats when finnley started to act jealous #because he never talked about someone else other than him like that. he hated it. and chase was also quite hurt with his obvious disgust #why isnt his best friend supporting him when he finally found someone else? isnt that what best friends are supposed to do? #but he tried to ignore the growing friction between two and even made finnley and caspian meet each other in hopes they would get along #but it just made it worse. and it was maddening. it made him even more frustrated with life than he already is #and could literally spend nearly the whole day smoking. fighting for minimal things with anyone was a must. he was way more easily provoked #and thats saying a lot. and then he started dating caspian and everything just. collapsed. finnley solely blames chase for the 'breakup' #and now chase solely blames finnley for being a capricious child who cant take a 'no' for an answer and not have everything go his way #even if he deep down knows finnley is not like that. they have been friends since they were 14 y/o they *know* how the other is #however as i said he still misses him a lot. he wishes his efforts to make his bf and him get along got the desired effect #thats why when they see each other chase just looks away or pretend hes unaffected; maybe a little bit bothered. but actually #he feels really uncomfortable. and tries to mask that with anger because he feels like he would do something he will regret otherwise #not in an aggressive way he would never lay a finger on him. or purposefully hurt his feelings (again) #but in a very depressive; pathetic; kinda guilt-tripping way of asking him to return. as we all knows hes not the best #when it comes to impulse control. mostly if hes drunk which is basically the only time they see each other during parties #donnarose isnt the biggest place there isnt a really big selection of places to have fun. #so they inevitably run into each other more often than they would like. they try to ignore the fact theyre still kinda connected #because caspian and alex are mostly-internet friends. man y'all have the worst luck huh. #so yeah theyre a whole mess.