#irl im too anxious to get a job and idk what to do abt tht. my anxiety hasnt been this bad in years

[hoshiyoshis]

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#daisy.txt #being hit w tht ‘u dont rly belong anywhere’ feeling again #both irl and online tbh like #irl im too anxious to get a job and idk what to do abt tht. my anxiety hasnt been this bad in years #but the last time i got an interview i ended up canceling bc my anxiety spiked rly fucking badly to the point i was crying #and tht was before i ever graduated #snd idk online im terrified of crossing a line by accident n making ppl hate me #and even then one part of my brain is like ppl are just tolerating u idk what u expect #just this stupid feeling of being left out and tht no one likes me and tht im just wasting all my time #even when i think its not true #ive just always been /too much/ or /not enough/ for ppl and i dont know where tht healthy middle is…. #it doesnt rly help tht ppl just. disappear out of my life w/o warning sometimes #thats the part tht hurts the most yknow? and im a dumb bitch whos like ok GOOD then GO #and idk i can trace tht back to ex bestie dumping me entirely bc he got a bf #and me trying to give him space to navigate tht relationship only for him to just… never come back #ifs just a shitty situation and i feel so lost now