#both irl and online tbh like

[hoshiyoshis]

hhh

#daisy.txt #being hit w tht ‘u dont rly belong anywhere’ feeling again #both irl and online tbh like #irl im too anxious to get a job and idk what to do abt tht. my anxiety hasnt been this bad in years #but the last time i got an interview i ended up canceling bc my anxiety spiked rly fucking badly to the point i was crying #and tht was before i ever graduated #snd idk online im terrified of crossing a line by accident n making ppl hate me #and even then one part of my brain is like ppl are just tolerating u idk what u expect #just this stupid feeling of being left out and tht no one likes me and tht im just wasting all my time #even when i think its not true #ive just always been /too much/ or /not enough/ for ppl and i dont know where tht healthy middle is…. #it doesnt rly help tht ppl just. disappear out of my life w/o warning sometimes #thats the part tht hurts the most yknow? and im a dumb bitch whos like ok GOOD then GO #and idk i can trace tht back to ex bestie dumping me entirely bc he got a bf #and me trying to give him space to navigate tht relationship only for him to just… never come back #ifs just a shitty situation and i feel so lost now

[sensazioneultra]

not to like complain all the time and on more than one blog lmao but god being trans can be so lonely like. everywhere

#irl. online. it's like damn so many ppl hate us? #cause why have i been getting transphobic anons on both blogs AND in both languages i speak #do y'all have nothing better to do #does it make you happy to be a fucking dick? just wondering #i've been thinking of moving blogs bc i just feel uncomfortable and like this happens every couple of years it's so #not JUST bc of transphobia i'm also just like that. i feel suffocated after a while on the same blog. too many ppl etc #but also tbh i don't think i'd want to remake rn if i didn't feel like transphobes keep coming after me #it makes me feel uncomfortable and unsafe and i've even gotten anons about personal shit i post like questioning me on my trauma #which isn't fun and i use my tumblr as personal blogs but now every time i post anything i feel like i'm being watched? which doesn't like #feel great bc i already deal w paranoid thoughts about being watched and this feeds into them and fucks up w my brain! not fun #sorry for the rant but i'm tired of this

[mrsmiroir]

i don’t actually care abt people wearing fake glasses for the fit, but i do find it funny that so many are genuinely embarrassed to admit that they’re fake. like yeah it is a little embarrassing im ngl but the look is fire.

#the only problem is that now people thing that my superspec 2000s mega microscope ass lenses are fake #like i have gotten asked this both irl and online #which isn’t a real issue but irl u can see my thick ass lenses sticking out of the frames like why would i put #bulletproof glass in fake frames and shit #i take it as a compliment tho bc that means my frames r too cute <3 #anyway back to my opinion on the matter #i dont think it’s a big deal bc if i did it would be purely out of resentment and bitterness #and that’s not a valid reason to get all uppity tbh #blayne #delete later

[behind-the-sc3ne]

sometimes i think about trying dating apps/online dating in general but i don't think i'll be able to attach to a real person again

#cw vent #oversharing #shoutout to the people who ruined it for everyone #like don't get me wrong i want (and probably need) relationships with real people #but how am i supposed to do that when i don't even have the courage to message first #at a glance i seem pretty open and honest about who i am and what i've experienced #but there's a lot of things i'll never talk about. not online or irl. #i can't open up fully to my therapist (who i've had for two or three years at this point) #so how am i ever going to have normal relationships? #there's people both online and irl actively trying to befriend me but i don't know how to react #how can i trust them? #i feel like they don't know me well enough to want to be my friend but how are they supposed to know me if i never talk to them #i think the biggest problem is i don't know what's appropriate to discuss. (<- autistic) #i always accidentally overshare or talk too much and become annoying or make them uncomfortable etc #and i can't talk about my interests over and over because it'll get repetitive and annoying #and no one cares anyway. #about any of it tbh. i'll be honest and say that humans are very self-centered. #we want relationships to make OURSELVES feel better #i'm convinced no one actually cares about me and they just want to talk to me because i'm cool #they're not looking for anything mutually fulfilling. they're not looking for anything meaningful or long-term. #they just want short term pleasure #and i'll be honest. so do i. i'm not going to be around for much longer so it's all i can get. #i'll likely kill myself before next year is over and no one's going to miss me #can't say i blame them. i don't think i'd miss anything.

[aeide-thea]

anyway totally apropos of nothing i'm just thinking abt like. i really hate DNIs that are—i mean, i could've stopped there, i really hate DNIs period, i think they're performative and useless and naive, but. i really hate DNIs that use identity as a shorthand for the (mis)behavior the poster expects from people of that identity

like there's a Respected Butch Blogger on here who years ago posted something about a man at a bus stop, idk, attempting to strike up a conversation/hit on her*, something in that line, and made some comment to the effect of like, look at me, i'm obviously a butch dyke, he should've known i wasn't available to him! and i thought at the time, and still think now—the problem here was the creepiness/entitlement of this man's behavior! nobody should be chatting anyone up at a bus stop or grocery store (real example from a past stage of my own life 😞) or other practical public venue where like‚ they're just trying to do their thing and get home! but framing the problem as instead being about, essentially, an IRL failure to respect an implicit DNI, as though someone who presented differently would've been fair game for predatory treatment—i hated that then and i hate it now

[ultimately of course it's like. people sometimes frame things in shitty ways on their perblogs when they're upset and it's good to cut them a little slack abt that... but also like. in venting veritas]

and i just like. this is a disconnected patchy sort of post but you just see people going up these ladders that are like 'i assume Men are looking at me and having Gross Disrespectful Fantasies abt me in their heads and so i don't even want them clicking a silent heart on my posts'

and ultimately everyone's entitled to set whatever boundaries they like! but it just feels to me like. tbh you're spooling out a whole Gross Fantasy of yr own abt Men when like. instead you could just set a boundary about what kinds of comments are welcome. and even from whom! but like. why are we collapsing Man into Person Who's Inevitably Gonna Behave Invasively and Disrespectfully. like when the traditional model of masculinity also says that but with an accompanying smirky thumbs-up, and then you're saying that with a thumbs-down... idk. just like. where's the vision of a better world. bc like. i thought that was actually what we were trying to open the door for, personally!

ultimately i guess it's just like, our approaches are not compatible and i shd be grateful 2 their DNIs for making that clear to me, but. i really don't see how the master's tools (framing identity as shorthand for/inevitable predictor of undesirable behavior) ever dismantle the master's house (kyriarchy)

#* i may or may not be getting this person's pronouns right‚ this whole thing is very lost in the mists of time #----- #like yeah lots of men irl DO behave shittily! but frankly the beauty of online is that you can slam the block hammer and be done #so you don't actually have to set a boundary way farther out than is necessary as a precautionary defensive measure #idk i just like. it's one thing to center certain people in yr life and decenter others #and it's another imo to go full-on barbed-wire separatist #idk just like. a whole lot bound up in this abt thoughtcrimes too. like. actually if someone privately fantasizes abt you #and you have no idea whatsoever #they're doing a good job and they should keep it up! that's called politeness and respect! #but literally some anon on OTNF the other day‚ like‚ laid out a whole thing where they were imagining other ppl fantasizing abt them #and feeling deeply uncomfortable with that #and it was like. i get it but also—what if YOU didn't spool out extensive fantasies abt these imaginary fantasizers #it's like. you're running a whole non-con exhibitionism fantasy factory and you don't even enjoy it! what if you stopped! #anyway idk. this feels like a dangerous sort of post 2 make tbh #but i just don't think separatism is actually better when it comes from the trauma of disempowerment #than when it comes from being taught to disempower and depersonalize others #both angles on it are like. you're viewing people with reductive hatred actually #idk. this could be pithier and better but. i'm tired lol #does this count as a #long post #?

[astrxealis]

i miss the times back in shadowbringers. don’t get me wrong i love how things are in endwalker but there was just ?? something so magical about shb to me ???

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #just being afk with my fc mates or in the shb places and man. man. #going through enw msq is amazing! 6.0 made me so incredibly emotional and i owe a lot to it for helping me get thru my uh... despair #and the patches really feed into those brainrotting parts of me head. and the new content is super cool and ohh the stories of the side stuf #but i still prefer the fantasy of shb compared to enw. and the rest of ffxiv tbh. and the whole of ff. it is just so yeah to me ??? #and. and. it was just SUCH an experience and everything about it means so much to me! #ffxiv has helped me with anxiety and social anxiety and issues like depression and it. helped me make friends again and even now #i make friends because of ffxiv and some people i have met because of this game mean so much to me and it brings my other friends together #too and the story is just everything to me and ffxiv just. yeah #social life kinda dipped a bit b4 i got so absorbed into ffxiv and sometimes i see that summer of 2021 as unhealthy but also?? #it wasn't like i had friends at that time eitherway bcs i fell out w my irls and then online friends so. ffxiv really really helped #and then i reconnected w my irls and then wow. the world is so beautiful and so silly with the way it brings people together! #sorry this kinda turned into tmi but also wow i should make a proper text or sorts as an appreciation to ffxiv bcs i've been meaning to #for a long time now. i want to write a text and then a story (both! they are different to me) and then a video. yeah #and i want to do all this before 7.0 :) which is pretty soon tbh... in a year or two or so? wow #these next years will be very important for my future so idk if i'll be active w ffxiv but i really want to be! #so i'll improve myself and my schedule and all that i do ^___^ #idk man ffxiv just really helped me a lot and i feel bad a bit for feeling so much at times but #it really helps knowing i'm not alone. and those much older than me also feel the same! it's really nice #a central theme of ffxiv (endwalker in particular) is that you aren't alone and that shit really hits man. i think everyone should #try to experience ffxiv's story but people also have different preferences and all and that's fine but #i hope i can find people who are like me frfr! and keep those who are close to me <3 hehe

[ohgirliepleasee]

how the group of skinny transmasc twinks at the local queer meetup look at me after posting about fat hairy bears soft tummy squishy thighs big sexy man tits all day

#frankie.txt #literally i thought i was just being insecure but it's so consistent both irl and online that i'm just tired of it now lol #i recently have been kind of moving away from centering my queer identity re: my sense of self and seeing where that takes me #and tbh the spaces i've found feel far less cliquey and judgemental ironically #and still v queer! like i go to book bars and gaming bars and small cinemas and dance clubs theres lots of queer folks there #but something abt it being A Queer Event attracts a v specific type of person who does not seem to want me there lololol #dont take this too seriously im just noticing a Pattern when i try to seek out queer community locally and i had to vent a bit

[valentimmy]

i feel like shit these days lmfao.

#tw vent #tw rant #see I’ll be happy one second and then randomly feel like my existence gives nothing to the world #its like. I’m glad I draw bc I feel like if I didn’t I would genuinely be useless like #i don’t know how to drive my grades are still shit I never do anything other than try tobe funny online and stay in bed #and sometimes I lose sleep over the fact that if I died nothing would happen tbh. people online wouldn’t even know bc #bc my email here is different than my one I use personally and no one would know how to get into my accounts so people would just think I #went inactive and idk it’s scary. #not to mention the constant feeling that my presence somehow makes every situation worse #half of my friend groups in the past 2 years split in one way or another both online and irl. #and I want to believe it’s not my fault but it really feels like it is tbh. #i keep saying I want to be 18 but tbh I don’t even know if I feel like reaching 18 at thispoint #and im just putting this on fucking tumblr and it feels so stupid bc I could just go to adiscord vent channel but I’m terrified of venting #LMAO #last time I vented a lot to a friend group they ended up talking behind my back to the point I had to leave #and you know what I deserved it. #anyways #stfu timmy #suicide mention

[catboybiologist]

Be honest: do you think there are femboys who aren't just eggs?

Yes, and tbh I resent that their existence is questioned so much. And I know this is gonna be considered a Bad Take by many people I've fostered a community with, so uh. Yeah.

As a former femboy, and current dykey/tomboyish trans woman, gender nonconformity within your actual gender is an essential part of a trans or genderqueer identity. In a lot of ways, my transition goals are the inverse of being a femboy- I'm going from a feminine man to a masculine woman. And yet, the trans community doesn't question my feminimity as a masculine woman in the same places where many people would question the masculinity of a feminine man. And don't even get me started on where NB identities fit into all of this. This is largely coming from the same place where people are okay with women wearing pants, but men or AMABs in general wearing skirts is Bad (tm).

Like don't get me wrong. The caricature of the Bad Trans pushing all the femboys to become eggs is a wildly overexaggerated, and I've met many, many femboys online that used that caricature to excuse rampant transphobia. But. I hate that there's a but. But.... I literally experienced it myself many times during my femboy days, especially online. Here's a short list:

-Had a transmed bombard me with harassing messages and comments on reddit telling me that I was a "fencesitter" and I just needed to "fucking transition already and stop making trans people look bad"

-Had a trans woman I knew irl shove an estradiol pill in my face, and try to order me to take it, in front of a group of people I wasn't even fully comfortable presenting as a femboy to, until she was eventually asked by someone else to stop.

-Had several comments indicating that I should be force femmed in femboy subreddits

-Had many, many DMs trying to tell me I was a "failed man" that should just transition already

And to clarify- all of this is so, so mild compared to transphobia that myself and others face. But it is a very real thing that happens. To many femboys, I think this is the first time they've received any kind of queerphobia or questioning of their identity, so it feels far worse in their heads than it really actually is. And, to be fair, I think it mostly happens from the more gender binary minded cis community than it comes from trans people- but as I've said, I've had it coming from trans women both irl and online.

I've also tangentially noticed that it seems to be transmed adjacent. Not saying that this anon is, or others who try to encourage femboys to explore their gender, but there certainly is a correlation. If its difficult for you to acknowledge cis gender nonconformity, then its easy to see that extending to a lack of understanding of nonbinary people or others with different trans experiences.

Every time one of these things happened, it didn't put me any closer to transition. It made me feel unsafe. It made me feel on the spot, and scared, and almost outed.

I've said this before, and I'll say it again- if you want historical parallels to femboys, we have a perfect example in drag. Drag is performative, over the top femininity that has become its own artform, style, and means of expression in a way that is intrinsically tied to gender nonconformity. Being a femboy is also all of those things. And guess what? Many drag queens have used it as a way to explore their own gender and realize that they're trans. There are also many who are cis, and remain confident in that identity. Is the percentage of trans people among people who have done drag at some point higher than the general population? Of fucking course- its one of the few places where exploring gender is encouraged and celebrated. Of course trans people flock to that. And the exact same thing is true of femboys. Are a higher proportion of femboys trans or eggs than the general population. Of course. It's a great venue for trans people to explore their identities. But even more of them are

Am I saying you're a bad person if you encourage femboys and gender nonconforming people to consider the possibility that they're trans? Of fucking course not. It was the gentle, affirming pressure with respect and care for my comfort levels from several incredible trans women I know irl that eventually made me confident enough to start HRT. Their continually support is a key factor in my social transition plans for the future. I needed that pressure, and I think everyone, including people who aren't actively engaging in gender nonconformity, needs some push to question their gender and start unlocking cis+. But to be blunt, questioning whether cis femboys even exist is not gentle, comfortable, and affirming pushes.

#trans #transgender #femboy #gender #gender discussion #egg

[tiyoin]

Taking a step back from twisted singer reader (I'll be back). I really want to expand/give origins ideas to the group chat(s?). Like how reader got the phone, how they got added and other things. Btw love who added that

With that said I'm starting a new agenda: ✨Grandfather Mozus Trein :D✨ Everyone knows that Crowley is *cough* neglectful & irresponsible *cough* always there for his students and never once put himself first 🤠. I feel like reader low-key reminds Trein of Anastasia (red hair) ya know? Maybe it's how reader plays with their hair when they start getting bored or the doodles on the written exams. All these little habits they share. Just an old man missing his family.

Someone has to be a responsible adult for reader and who else is better then a father with so much wisdom. He knows Yuu has a way of communicating and protecting himself so he isn't as concerned ,but poor reader can't do that to save their life :(

So I can see Trein giving them(mostly reader) a phone (B4 book 4). It's nothing new or special; it has an old blue case with a fading pattern and skuffs. The best part about it is Trein paying the bill. The wallpaper is changed to Grimm napping tho

It's kinda an unspoken rule that reader keeps it for the most part. With Yuu and all the things he tends to get into it would last a week if he was lucky.

More then likely the only numbers in the phone are Aduce/ maybe the other first years and Trein ,but I don't really see any of them be texters tbh. So not much coming in. Maybe a few homework questions??

As for apps a see maybe 2-ish games 👁️👄➖

Over all, it's just a classic antisocial person's phone. Until Cater finds out. Next time Yuu has the phone Carter tells him what should be added and how to #sign up for them. And Yuu being the person he is asks "Cater how do I help my introvert make friends?" Cater being the #helpful upperclassmen is he downloads the app and sends the invite.

The app they use is probably the twst discord. I think that's the only social idia has/honestly uses Some of them has like a cover for the icon. Like no one can know they use that app for whatever reason.

Everyone besides reader kinda knows what account belongs to which person. To add a bit of anonymous(ness?). Cuz no way would reader give her honest opinion about Rook or someone else if she knew that they themselves/close friends are in the chat.

Imagine if one of the guys that reader doesn't get along with ends up being one of reader's close/safe online friend. Like idk if you know who Aphmau is but she has a Minecraft roleplay PDH (don't judge me plss) where Aph and Aaron don't like each other irl but are really close online friends.

I'm sorry if my asks tend to be all over the place. I get sided tracked a lot and end up spacing out every 10 works. This was written between 3-5ish am. Also 👉👈 I think the reason we're on the same brain wave is cuz we're air signs.

Also thank you for liking/replying to my ask/yapping ☺️ it's means a lot to me

I've been waiting to get a Mac charger just to answer this ask🤭

GRANDFATHER TREIN IS SOMETHING I DID NOT KNOW I NEEDED BUT GLAD I GOT

because we always see crewel v crowley for custody over yuu.

but I defiantly agree with you that trein would see one of his daughters; especially anastasia in reader. whether it's by a few habits they both share, or how they're sometimes second fiddle to their more out going companion. but trein can see reader's life falling into shambles the more they're in twisted wonderland, the more they're isolated, and it kills him as both a father and educator.

and believe it or not, he cares about his students. they may not think so and curse him in the hallways, but they'll be thanking him in years to come, they always do (he prides himself in that, and the line of students he has at reunions telling him they're the best teacher they ever had.)

so maybe he pulls reader aside after class, ofc he can tell how tense they are, how nervous they are... especially by how intense their eye contact is, a little creepy but trein understands. he tells them to sit down in a chair he magically spawned as he flicks his head at lucien. who is all too glad to use you as a chair. he can see reader visibly relax as they're testing the water's with the temperamental feline, but trein starts talking.

he wants to help them, as he wouldn't be doing his job as an educator if he just stood by and watched you struggle. how he would have failed the pledge he made to crowley and himself if he let one os his students fall under the radar in favor for his smarter ones.

yes that should sting but it's the truth, and to no fault of your own. you obviously had... less than stupor teaching before this, and you have to catch up on a decades worth of stuff due to your... situation. and he is willing to help you during both lunch hours and free period. he also recommends student tutors for this and is willing to work out some kind of deal between you and the tutors. he wants to see you succeed. not just to prove he can turn a pumpkin into a carriage, but because you deserve it.

maybe you're not so much like his biological daughter, but like his step daughter. the one with a soul of diamond but a heart of glass. and if reader ever needs someone trustworthy (and he emphasizes this) that isn't actively split-dying their hair in their thirties or prances around with a bird mask then he is always open.

no matter how burdenous they feel relying on him, or if they think the matters are silly. he will tell it to them straight. he also suggests talking to cater diamond of heartslabyul, that if anyone can help you make friends, its that chatterbox.

dont even try to refute it cause trein AND lucien will be sporting you an unimpressed look.

but I swear to everything cater has a fucking NOSE- a sniffer if you would for introverts. or he has mastered chenya's invisibility spell and over heard your conversation because- I AGREE WITH YOU- yuu would 100% ask cater to help his little ol' introvert make friends.

so he seeks them out, grabs their phone while chatting away, and downloads 'magi cord' dw yuu is there too. cater even goes a step further and adds his contact to their phone because 'tehe he has the elusive reader's number and no body else does! #1inamillion #hewon! #he'sgonnaextrovertsohardit'llmakeyourheadspin 😼

but later that night you're fighting to go on the app when cater sends you a link, the second message he sends you (with 'hey hey! it's your fav upper classmen cay-cay here!' with an obnoxious amount of emojis, being the first)

it's a link to a magi cord group chat called; raven of secrets. (or smthn idk, I pulled that out of my ass) and he explains that the whole point of that group chat is to remain anonymous. there's a handful of members from different dorms and that's all you're supposed to know.

they talk about gossip, homework, assignments etc. the more he talks about it the more it sounds like a secret society. but nonetheless, you join.

and all hell breaks loose 🤭

personally I think that only a few people know who is who in the chat group. like the organizer because they gotta make sure everyone who has the link is an nrc student. and obviously there's a few friends who gave other people the link or joined together. but there's also active polls where people debate who is who.

just so it gives them the extra comfort of anonymity.

IMAGINE SOME ADMITS TO STALKING POOR READER AND IT TURNS INTO A THRILLER AHHHH (everyone knows who rook is. not because of his French, but because of his detailed posts)

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NO CAUSE I WAS ALSO AN APHMAU FAN HAHAHAH I used to eat her role plays up. but watching them now... they're super cringe and I can barely watch an episode of phoenix drop high 😭

and dont even worry about it 'being all over the place because I am literally like that and it's so fun being able to bounce all over the place hehe

AND YAY ANOTHER AIR SIGN😽

#mel <3 #twisted anxiety 🌀 #tiyoin 🔎 #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #tiyoin’s cuties 。 ඞ 。 #twisted wonderland #twst

[polliwoggers]

been struggling to draw lately so i went through some older stuff of mine and found this, only to realize i never posted it. i don't imagine anybody's still doing stuff for this weird social media-clan au thingy anymore, now that the meme of it has died down, but anybody's free to these names for whatever uses they want, if they want them :)

bonus lore to get it out of my head:

Yarrow-whisker was the previous medic before Quarrypaw, who has yet to gain their full status as a medicine cat in their absence

Geckopaw and Prairiepaw are siblings. Yewtail is only a so-so mentor at the best of times, so Foxfire effectively mentors them both. However, Prairiepaw has swooped in to support Yewtail when they decide to do something stupid and unsustainable on multiple occasions. they really shouldn't have been granted an apprentice tbh. i recently re-read Fire and Ice in the original warriors series so the parallels to Graystripe being a poor mentor to Brackenpaw are intentional

Skypelt came out of retirement to mentor Duskpaw, since they serve such similar real-life purposes. Skypelt doesn't understand everything their apprentice says or does but is generally supportive of such a similar application

Marsh-singer, Whitestep, and Thymeface are all siblings, and are collectively the youngest of the warriors (not accurate to the actual ages of the applications, but eh). to say they are all total gossips would be an understatement. they're also really interchangeable and forgettable. like the Runningwinds of apps.

depending on how positively you want to view the whole "reincarnation" trope some of the canon warriors books have, you could say that Tickpaw is a reincarnation of Musiclight. Otherwise, they just look really similar.

all of the "Cats Outside of Clans" cats are kittypets, with the notable exception of Furzebark, who is a banished rogue with a concerning amount of influence on the Clan(s?). maybe there's a whole band of rogues who are based on insidiously/surprisingly influential applications or online entities! various appstore/playsotre applications could fall under this category, as well as like. roblox, apparently. which is beyond weird to me since that's a game and not a wider application, but it got scarily profitable during lockdown, so...

Redpaw was Yewtail's sibling, but died during their apprenticeship. Probably to the same thing that killed Gravelpounce, but i have no idea what that would be

Flaxflower is generally considered WAY too old to still be alive (since the real internet explorer died a bit ago by now), but since he'd "find a way to be late to his own funeral", he has yet to kick the bucket.

the whole twittypet drama is EASILY the juiciest gossip the clan has had in ages, ESPECIALLY the half-clan checkmark-kits. in-universe, im interpreting the poor management of twitter that's been driving it into the ground irl as a negligent cat owner unintentionally driving their pet to spend more time outdoors with other cats (namely, dashclaw) to get away from them, which resulted in kittens. drummed-up anti-kittypet sentiment aside, many clan cats looking in on the situation just feel bad for her.

Vinewatcher is the most consistently "present" of the StarClan spirits, but is also the most consistently unhelpful. numerous potential prophecies later turned out to just be inside jokes of theirs they decided to continue rehashing into the afterlife. Quarrypaw, having not gotten much experience identifying what makes a legitimate prophecy yet, finds this exceptionally annoying behavior, and would like them to stop. They do not.

#my drawings #tumblrclan #twittypet #warrior cats #warriors #this got way longer than intended oops

[spacelazarwolf]

I honestly think your ask about people AFAB not being seen as reliable or intelligent enough to understand their own experiences is spot on, but it gets so much push back. People think bringing up sexism = you must be a TERF and idk how to deal with that.

But there really, honestly seems to be a lot of sexism against AFAB people in the trans community and it feels like a lot of people would rather coddle their own dysphoria than acknowledge that that's where their beliefs are coming from.

I get that it's dysphoric for trans women to feel like they're being sexist, but... don't be sexist, then? Idk what to tell people without being accused of being a TERF (when I support trans women all the time IRL and online!)

tbh i don’t think it’s a thing that uniquely comes from trans women, bc i’ve seen that kind of thing come from other ppl who were afab too. it comes from everyone, bc we all grew up in a society that teaches us that “women” (people assigned female at birth) are inherently less intelligent, less able to handle ourselves and our experiences, that we need people to speak and interpret our experiences for us. we, in queer and trans spaces, see te/rfs fully playing into that and understandably want to reject it, but don’t often do anything besides just…..saying we reject it. we don’t sit with ourselves and think about the things we were taught growing up about how someone “should” act, or what the “proper” way is to make a point. (both of which, by the way, are heavily steeped in whiteness. the way a white person is taught to act is going to be very different than the way a black person is taught to act, regardless of if they’re the same gender or assigned sex at birth.)

but this does really make me think of an addition someone put on one of my posts where she talked about being so afraid of being seen as “socialized male” that she would get panic attacks when she tried to speak up. because we say in the trans community that we’ve rejected the idea of gendered socialization but we clearly haven’t. if someone who was assigned female at birth is being sexist, the response is either that people who were afab can’t be sexist (wrong) or it’s ignored. if someone who was assigned male at birth is being sexist, there’s a nuclear level meltdown about whether or not it’s “male socialization” or should be called out in the first place and like. the answer is really simple??? anyone can be sexist, and if someone is being sexist, they should be corrected. it has nothing to do with agab (both the incorrect idea that ppl who were afab can’t perpetuate sexism, and the incorrect idea that ppl who were amab are somehow inherently more likely to be sexist) and everything to do with just trying to be a better person and unlearn the bullshit we all grew up hearing.

#ask avishai

[bagelrites]

the skephalo R/relationships post would be like: “My best friend and I met online about four years ago and we recently just met up irl. It took so long because I was terrified of the thought of anything between us changing because even the thought of losing him has made me tear up. I needed to do a practice run of our meet up right before it happened because i felt like i needed to make my best friend’s wait all these years worth the while. But it went amazingly! We got dinner together every night, went out on late night walks together, and he gave me a silver designer necklace to match his gold one, and I gave him a silver ring in return. When I had to go it felt like it took everything out of me to say goodbye to him. On my drive back home I actually called him and we both started crying. I guess what I’m trying to ask is what does it all mean?” And the most upvoted reply is gonna be “gay people are something else man.”

Ngl I was imagining Skeppy posting his pov on Reddit but tbh Bads might be worse. The description of the fucking lead up and practice run is soooo torture

#and yeah #gay people really are something else 😭 #skephalo #answered ask

[astrxealis]

went out w friends today super duper fun i'm really happy but anyway just on here to say it's my break now so i'll be a bit more active i hope, it's my bday soon too, and i got asked my gender today which was p cool 😙🥺💗✨

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i miss it here but real life has been so fun again that i'm just. really happy JEGQKDJS #LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS SM u guys here and those irl and elsewhere online and yes <333 #it's crazy tbh i went to a mall today w my friends in class as a yk gala but also in advance for my bday ... they r all so nice i love them #they kept hyping me up and idk it's a small thing but i love how observant they r SNIFFS maybe i'm just not used to it all so it means a lot #but either way it means so much fr. AND THEN OK the weekend after this one i'm watching a movie w my other grp of friends from arti's class #hehe 2nd time hanging out w em but we'll be more complete this time around <3 !!! and thennn at school i hang out w a variety of friends at #diff times and then online i've been connecting in diff ways w my closest friends online too and even randomly here yk and then yeah it all #just makes me vv happy that for the first time in... what. 6 years. i've been truly myself w interacting w others #BCS YES i am shy introverted quiet BUT ALSO the complete opposite but in a nice way. best of both worlds fr. #idk IEHSJDJS JUST REALLY HAPPY I'M 'BACK' to who i kind of rlly am but either way i am Me #sniffs..... okay but i'm not gna get emotional rn LOL #it's not rlly break yet until sat tbh which is my bday :P we're just staying home for the rest of the week but there's still school #i was worried at 1st i rmbr i wouldn't like my class but i had my thoughts and ideas which were good #and BOOM they actually did come true. it's amazing. oh my god. #also bad moments have come n gone but i've been dealing w them healthily and generally always trying to be as best as i can be healthily #DAMN. i'm thriving. but even if things go sour i know it'll go through and yeah. amazing #so tldr touching grass is rlly good and loving urself lmfao #the thing is i admittedly have always loved myself so. good for me! genuinely i have always and knew for a very long know i always will love #myself :] rlly nice to have that stability but ig it stems too from a very ahaha childhood WHWHJD i've fastforwarded growing up mentally #it's p sad but ig i wouldn't have it any other way since who i am is who i am. so. yeah. #YEEHAW OKAY GN !!! i shut up now hehehe #i miss writing... ye gods

[rhapsoddity]

ok, i’m curious about a couple things to do with the sheriff vigilante au

1: what would jimmy look like if he had defected to villainy with fwip?

2: what would he be like if he had stuck with scott the whole time and became villains with /him/?

3: how did worm, nox, aurelius, and xornoth meet and have they ever met up irl?

these are all ideas ive come up with on the fly, I haven't actually thought about alternate timelines or scenarios much tbh

1:

The wing-headphones (made by Fwhip) allow him to filter sounds and help him stay in contact with his partner. They also emote so that's cute

2:

(I read this as he stayed vibing w Scott through his teens rather than Fwhip, and became a villain w him)

struggled with this one ngl, so i just threw him in smth s1 sinpired and spectrum ajecent. yes that's both a lil boob window AND its a mesh section under the crop. spectrum wants his partners tummy out there ig sdfvgfdsvghsfd

3:

The gang hasn't met up yet!

Aurelius, Equinox and Worm are still in Hermitcraft at the current point in the plot. Theyve only ever talked to Xornoth online, though they do plan on a trip over to Empires city soon... i hope nothing bad happens there... >:D (don't wooooorry about it, that's like endgame plot relevant lol)

#ask #vigilante sheriff au #villain sheriff #villain jimmy #empires smp au #empiresblr #sleepy rhaps designing hours #ngl designing characters is one of the hardest parts of making aus sdvfgvgshdf #RHAPS ART

[safety-pin-punk]

firstly, I love your blog and it's been a great resource to have as I've been learning abt punk! I hope you're well & ty for everything you do <3 do you have any advice for finding punk communities, both irl and online? I really wanna talk to ppl abt everything I'm learning and loving, but it's really hard to find communities. besides the landmine of trying to avoid nazi punks and the like, I don't rlly drink or anything so bars/clubs can be weird -teacupqueer/persie

Thank you so much!! I’m doing pretty well!

Finding Punk Communities Online:

I’ll be honest, I can really only speak on behalf of tumblr here. I don’t use other socials all that much.

But! If you want to find a fun awesome punk community on tumblr, you are already off to a great start! Find a punk blog you like or who has similar music taste, see who they reblog from and tag in their posts. I’ve met a LOT of really cool people this way on here! (Shoutout to @polyamorouspunk and @my-chemical-ratz whose blogs you should check out simply because they are cool people). And I’ve also met people who are in bands, or involved with bands (like @necromancy-savant and @dopamineband (who don’t use their tumblr anymore 😭)). I didn’t meet these people right away, it took a while of steady interaction with tumblr to build up these connections.

There are also Discord communities too, I don’t use discord much but I *think* (?) I saw a post go around a while ago where someone was starting up a punk discord server? Honestly maybe I’ll take the time to start one up, it might make me use Discord more lmao

Finding Punk Communities IRL:

Bars and clubs aren’t the only places to find punks!!

I’d recommend checking out any queer spaces in your area, I doubt it would surprise you to learn how often these two groups overlap.

Also! If you are near a city, chances are you have an underground scene somewhere. Google and Reddit are great resources to find the places punks gather in your city. For example: in my city theres a cafe and record shop that are popular among the alternative crowd that I never would have found without the use of Google.

Otherwise, what are your hobbies? If you like gardening/are into solar punk, see if theres a local gardening club! (I’d say a 50/50 chance of punk or karens tbh with this one).

Start up a book club at a local library that focuses on books like 1984 and Brave New World.

Go to gigs that arent at bars or clubs, I went to one back in February that was at an abandoned church, that was turned into a concert venue. The place was child friendly so there was no alcohol, but there were a lot of cool people there!

And the best tip I have for you to avoid nazis is to just know their symbols and signs. Do a bit of research on it and familiarize yourself with what to avoid

As always, other suggestions for anon are welcome!!

#mail tag #punk #punx