#is it empathy if you feel like you've just gotten good at finding patterns in behavior and learned the expected responses

[harimenui-forever]

WHAT THE FUCK IS IT CUZ I STILL DO NOT KNOW

#I can understand a character's pov and where people are coming from in theory through analysis that I have mastered in a way #if I get enough clues I can figure out how I'm supposed to be feeling...some things are better the second time around when u know #i can associate feelings with certain scenarios etc. irl it's kinda bad ig cuz idk what to do (ah the funeral fiasco) and I usually think #about ways to help moreso than feeling sad or whatever too #I listen to new things I learn... Sometimes I have to discard a part of myself reshape it take time to process things and it hurts #because opinions ideas and ideals are me and I am them (oh hello c!Wilbur) and it is one of my personal flaws I'm well aware #but on the other hand I'm an emotional trainwreck sometimes be it feeling too much or close to nothing or both at the same time #what a mess tbh #rambling #is it empathy if you feel like you've just gotten good at finding patterns in behavior and learned the expected responses? #if u see a scenario and your brain goes ''I do not understand this but maybe we should try *tries to analyze the shit out of it* okay this #is the most likely reason from the information we know... I understand now'' or is that just compassion on steroids??? #but then again when I do understand a character I feel for them and just fjnfnjfndkfntnf WHAT THE FUCK