#is that lam felt more comfortable with being himself before he really grew into himself around akina than he ever did with robin :'D

[ofgentleresolve]

i think it’s sweet, but also so telling the differences in lamon’s relationship with robin and then akina ( @wellfell​ ) just based on the nicknames they gave him:

robin calls him ‘lam’ which sounds like lamb aka while there is a sense of affection, she ultimately saw him as someone docile, someone she could manipulate and use for her own benefit.

akina, on the other hand, call(ed) him ‘lemon’ which rings true to his actual personality aka a grump, but also lemons are used in lots of food, so someone who is practical and distinct in his own way.

#( meta. ) #tbt ( lamon & akina. ) #basically what i'm trying to say here... #is that lam felt more comfortable with being himself before he really grew into himself around akina than he ever did with robin :'D #it's also hliarious bc the way i pictured robin she has a similar aesthetic to akina too... #hi nassy...ily hope this is okay for me talk about 🥺 #also me and lam @ akina 🥺 #wow i never thought he'd actually be soft for anyone jskdlfjsdljf

[tsundere-sims]

Nicole Xiao

Basics Name: Nicole Xiao L’Ane she was born Xiao Nicole L’Ane but she switched her first name and her second name, her surname is luxembourgeois Ethnicity: Eurasian (father of pure luxembourgish family established in China for years and Chinese mother) (mother is daughter of Bengali father and Chinese mother living in Laos for decades) so (dad -> white & asian mom-> bengali and chinese) Age: 22 Sexuality: Straight, grey-aromantic Employment: Writer Birthday: 7 janvier 1995 Sign: Capricorn Eye Color: Amber Hair Style/Color: straigt black shoulder length hair Height: 5’03 Clothing Style: conservative, colorless (brown sometimes) Favorites Color : pale brown Animal: rodent Movie: Westerns,Japanese horror films & Asian actions film Game: pc games Music: alternative rock, blues, rocknroll, Electro pop, basically all her playlist Drink: milk tea Food: All Chinese street food involving pork Thoughts Your First Thoughts Waking Up: I don't waste time, I wake up and go no time to wander What You Think About the Most: my adoptive parents John and Authrine What You Think About Before Bed: Why Liun and I can move to welcome 3 more people to live with us You Think Your Best Quality Is: My apathy really, I love the fact that I have the ability to dissociate and be immune to what hurts others the most, the people I'm close too feel comfortable telling me anything, bc most of the time it don't phase me and I never judge nobody, I'm like a blank page….” Childhood memories/Relationships/Idols/etc. Nicole fave memory as a child is the birth of her little sister Vili as her and Liun felt lonely since brother was always at school and mom work 3 job and is only home sumdays, they took care of her like their 3rd twin. Mother (Xue Han): She was not close to her mom at all bc she was barely home working 3 jobs first at a local laundry from 12 to 4pm, in a hotel from 6pm to 10pm and as waitress from 10pm to midnight, therefore she slept at their aunt house and left Nicole,Liun and baby Vili alone with their brother who went to school from 9am to 6pm. So they barely had time to bond plus the mom had an exhorbitant love for money when she married she just did bc he impressed her with his family rich reputation in China and the fact he was half white(she was very ashamed of her Bengali heritage in a white beauty supremacy Laos & China) so she urged to marry him and weirdly she had a child shortly after as a “surprise” (huh she was pregnant before meeting him she took the opportunity by marrying what she thought was a rich man to make him believe the baby was HIS and secure the wealth she wanted) after the marriage she realized Qiang was not a direct heir of the “L’Ane” family wealth but just a cousin of the Heir he had an argument with and they cut him out of financial support, they became lower middle class, by that time she was pregnant with twins and didn't announced to Quiang, who signed paper saying that his family had just one Child and no plans of another bc China population was too much and birth had to be limited. They recieved 5,000 for accepting the “agreement” not to have children but then she announced her pregnancy after Quiang decided to hide the kids by not declaring them at birth, just the time to get a lawyer to annul the agreement. Fearing to get arrested bc Quiang didn't find a lawyer that will accept to be paid a lower middle class family revenue she declared the children, Quiang accepted but left the house not taking care of the newborn twins for 5 month, And Xue had to payback the 5,000¥ so she took a job and had her family track Quiang down they found him, homeless and hungry he came back home w no explanation and was a stay at home dad for the twins and Xue worked. To payback the money he secretly got into the Chinese mafia and sold drugs and firearms in secret places. Him & Xue never talked in that period he hated her to have put them in this situation of payback and she hated him to have lied about his wealth. Within 2 month they paid back now everybody's just acted like this never happened and the subject wasn't talked again. Xue stopped the working and rebecame the stay at home mom, Quiang continued to mysteriously bring much money home but Xue didn't question it as they became upper middle class and her lifestyle was fancy. Quiang was depressed bc he wanted out of the mafia but that's impossible unless death, he put Kein in a high private school. But 2 years later the twins were 3 year old, Quiang brutally left the house, they got kicked out their wealthy mansion and back to their lower middle class life, Xue was in the last stage of her pregnancy and Kein was not kim led out of school as it was vacations but for the rentrée Xue had to find a solution she send the twins to her aunt and went work in the capital while pregnant. And continued to work after Vili birth that she left at the aunt house and Keon still went to school. The mother was close the twins as baby but unable to bond as they grew very mature at the age of 3. And even know Xue is like a old connaissance who gave them up for Nicole. Father (Quiang L’Ane): Weirdly she gets along beat with Quiang even if he was an on and off dad she as no difficulty or awkwardness talking to him maybe because Nicole is Schizoid she really not is big on social relations so even if he don't talk to her in weeks she won't hold no grunges against him, talking is very spontaneous with Quiang and Nicole it's that personal daughter-dad bond that only them can get. After he left when she was 3, he came back a month after her sister birth and secretly took them (Nicole,Liun & Kein) with the permission of the aunt who stayed with vili and told nothing to Xue, and they stayed with him and he will introduce them to “cousins” Wen & Lam and he frequently did that half month without Xue ever knowing the only time he came see her was to file for divorce BROTHER/SISTERS: Nicole and Kein where very close he was the perfect big brother at least he tried, stealing stuff for them to eat, reading them stories celebrating their birthday by telling every neighborhood who gave them flowers, coming to take them after school everyday being the funniest and indépendant from anybody. When they got adopted he was way more depressed than Liun (who wanted her momma) and Kevin didnt understand how she felt nothing he got bullied at school bc he couldn't talk English and always fought and got in trouble after school because in China he always hang out with his dad and dads friend ( who he didn't know where mafia and Chinese Gamgsters) so he had a strong character. The bullying didn't last and he was the most feared/respected at school. So at home it had an effect on how he didn't interact with sisters or adoptive parents (who he HATES) anymore from his high school years. When he went to college he got back to his old self as he saw his dreams of big study came true slowly bc he makes himself remember how his dad made everything to have him in school and how proud his momma was so he got right to the only memory of his parents that he had his sisters. Just has everything went good John and Authrine went to Laos with all the children for vacations and they linked up with Xue, Liun,Kein and Ovi were the happiest and Nicole was very apathic with her mom but was polite. So they linked up and spent few days with her she asked about college for Kein then (OF COURSE) for some money as if what she was sent monthly by the rich family was not enough. And she revealed in an argument with Quiang that Kein wasn't his son after Quiang came out of nowhere to say hi to his kids, and Quiang revealed that Wen and Lam were his children. This was what déclenched an identity crisis for Kein he took the first plane back to New York and didn't give any news to anybody but a text to John and Authrine saying he is fine and back in college. They didn't question it. So that he was already lost to he was in high school he was back broken in the identity crisis stage with no answer to who brought him to this world and it's been 2 year he hasn't talk to any of his sisters or adoptive parents or “biological” parents nobody came after him because he sends news every month from a cab somewhere in NYC Your character’s relationship with their mother or their father, or both. Was it good? Bad? : Were they spoiled rotten, ignored? Do they still get along now, or no?: Where (and when) did they grow up? How did they view it as a child, and did that change as they matured? How do they feel about the place now? : Describe their best and worst memories from childhood : Who was their idol growing up?: What were they like as a child?: How do they feel about their family? How does their family feel about them?: Do they have siblings/cousins?: Sex/Romance What are they attracted to in a partner?: Do they have any particular fetishes or kinks?: Is there anything in particular that they won’t do?: Have they ever hurt someone they loved?: Do they fall in love easily?: Who is their current partner, and what attracted the character to them?: What kind of a relationship is it?: Misc Questions (less personal) Do they have any allergies? : What is their weapon of choice if they had to use one?: What is their preferred method of transportation?:. What kind of weather makes them happy, and what kind makes them sad?: What languages do they speak?: Do they eat a healthy diet? A varied one?: As a child, what did they want to be when they grew up?: What do they do when they need comfort?: What are they like when they are drunk?: Where in their body do they keep stress or tension?: Do they have any pet peeves or dislikes, and how do they react to encountering them?: Do they like to travel?: How well do they take criticism? How do they react to others noticing their flaws?: What are they like when they get sick? Do they have a particular system (ears, lungs, etc) that illness gravitates to?: How do they react to being physically injured or undergoing medical treatment?: 1: What’s your OC’s biggest insecurity and how would they react if someone pointed it out to them? 
2: If your OC wants to buy a firearm, what it might be for?
she owns one and it’s for protection (it was a gift from one of her brothers) 3: Does your OC behave differently around different people, if so with whom and how? 
4: Would your OC want to involve themselves in humanitarian work ? If yes, then for what? If not, then why not? 5: How would your OC generally react to someone being verbally abusive towards them for no apparent reason?
 6: Does your OC have a realistic image of their own intelligence?
 7: Does your OC have any irrational phobias? 
8: How is/was your OC’s relationship with their parents? 9: Does your OC feel a pressure to achieve or are they content and calm with doing what 10: Does your OC guard their emotions by being tough? If not how would they?
 11: How would your OC react to hearing they’re adopted? 12: What is one of the most primary things your OC feels that is missing from their life?
 13: What kind of situations does your OC avoid the most?
talking about feelings 14: If your OC gets into a fight with their best friend, would they wait for their friend to make up with them, or would they try to make up with their friend?
 15: Does your OC consider themselves a good person?
 16: Is your OC good at giving others validation of their feelings and making them feel understood?
 17: Does your OC suffer from any mental health issues?
 19: What boosts your OC’s confidence the most?
 20: Does your OC hurt others often unintentionally? If yes, how?
 21: Does your OC hurt others often intentionally? If yes, how?
 22: How does your OC usually show affection? Are they openly romantic or more restricted with their affectionate emotions?
 23: Does your OC tend to hide something about their personality/essence when meeting new people? If yes, what?
 24: How would your OC react if they got humiliated by someone in a group of people? 25: How would your OC process the grief caused by the death of a loved one?
 26: What is the most intense thing your OC has been battling with?
 27: Does your OC practise any kind of escapism? If yes, what kind?
 28: How would your OC react if a bully stole their lunch money in high school?
. 29: How does your OC behave on the face of a conflict?
 30: What makes your OC defensive quickest?

#nicole

[skiplifeskip]

》》Skip Life - Chapter 04

Saturdays are great,but not so great as Fridays when you have that day off. With that particular mindset,it was kinda hard to get up. The clock said it was already 5 minutes past 11,but Kipp honestly felt like he slept only for 4 hours. When did they stop? He didn’t want to know,but he knew. You can’t concentrate even with heavy metal blasting through your headphones to sleep,when it felt like down there they were having a wrestling fight with actual wrestlers on their bed. And the screams that he wanted to forget,but couldn’t made it ten times worse.

The feeling of actually getting up to take a shower after he waking up came thirty minutes later. The whole house was empty again,which seemed like a good opportunity to recollect yesterday events verbally.

“What the hell was up with yesterday...this whole day was messed up.” The water continued to stream down his naked body as he sat down during the whole procedure. It was how he took a shower ever since he was 11 years old. It calmed him down for some reason.

It was unsettling when he thought about it. He could’ve skipped it all but got interrupted by his parent’s jam-a-lam. Maybe there was something that didn’t want him to use this watch. Something higher,which has control over everything. He shook his head as soon as he realized that he was spazzing out over a watch that his Gramps gave him under tears.

‘It’s just a damn watch which only shows the current year, what the hell am I freaking out for?’ The squeaking faucet stopped the water current and Kipp just sat there,wet,clean yet not clean of doubts. He let out a big sigh and dried his everything.

It was now 12 past 13,but there still wouldn’t be any signs of his parents. They probably drank that much and now they oversleep. No wonder,but it sure was strange. They usually got up around 10,no matter how much they drank and well,the other things. Kipp put on his bathing robe and slippers to see if anything happened but no avail. Not even a note in the kitchen. Could they really be still asleep? He knocked on their door,but no response. Ready to face any consequences or anything that will soil his mind,he slowly turned the doorknob to find...their usual bed but without them.

It looked like they slept in it,but didn’t go out of the way to pull the curtains to the side to let light inside. Did they leave in a hurry or what could’ve happened to make their bedroom look like this? A kidnapping maybe? But the door and everything else was fine,so that couldn’t be it.

Perplexed he looked in his room for his mobile phone whose tracking ball lighted up. He took his phone,unlocked it and saw 12 missed calls and six messages from his mother. ‘What’s going on…?’

Kipp decided it would be the best choice if he called her back and sat on his chair before he chose the recall option.

It ringed two times before his mother picked up. The anxiety went through his roof.

“Hello Kipp,is that you?” “Hey mom what-” “Oh thank god I’m finally getting through! Do you know how many times I tried to call you?” His mother cut him off. “Twelve times.” he replied dryly. “But what’s wrong? And where are you right now?”

“Kipp. I want you to stay calm and listen to what I tell you.” she replied in a very serious tone he never heard before,except for that time when she thought Kipp got his girlfriend pregnant. Now it’s going to be like that? This felt very unnerving to him. He tried to prepare himself but knew deep inside that it’s going to shock him.

“Okay I’m listening.”

She took a deep breath and told him

“Your Grandfather,Joseph,had a heart attack last night. We’re at the hospital right now but it doesn’t look good…”

“What’s...woah,what’s wrong? I mean,what happened?” Kipp asked anxiously. He didn’t want to know because it meant trouble. It was trouble. Real trouble.

“He...collapsed on the way to our house calling for help this morning. Screamed something like ‘Not yet!’ and that’s when we heard him. Well,I heard him because I had a bad feeling somehow but...I didn’t know it was really real bad!” His mom’s voice slowly drowned in sadness. It wasn’t pleasant to listen to for Kipp so he swallowed a few times to not get infected with hers.

“...when I saw him like that on the ground I thought it was one of his usual hunger games,but...the look on his face...it was more horrible to look at...I-” Interrupted by someone Kipp couldn’t make out what she was about to say,nor what was now going on there.

“Hello…? Are you still there? Mom!?”

The anxiety within him grew stronger with every muffled sound coming from his phone.

“Mom!!” “-Kipp,are you still there!?”

Relieved to hear her voice again he spoke again but only to get interrupted by his mom again in a hasty voice

“Kipp,you have to take a cab immediately to here,you got that? He...he called out to you!”

“Wh-what? But why-”

“I don’t know but I want you to come over right here anyway! Your sister will also be here soon so come over here,please!”

She hung up. What was that? He called out to him? But why in the world him again? Why not his sister? The more he thought about,the less it made sense. Unless it was about that watch…

His look went straight to the watch where he put it before he went to sleep. It had a slight light blue glow like normal watched with LCD displays. But this time,it made him feel uneasy. Not only because Gramps wanted him to have it so badly,but now when it’s not his property anymore,it made him collapse. It was really intimidating,in a way.

Kipp thought it was for the best to take the watch with him. Maybe it makes him feel better when Gramps gets his watch back? It sure was worth a try,nonetheless it could also fail but taking it with him is better than doing nothing.

He called a cab after searching for a number for their service hotline online and scrounged up some last bucks who were flying around in his room somewhere. After putting some casual clothes the doorbell rang already. It took 16 minutes, 28 bucks and enduring a smelly,grumpy cab driver trying to pry into his life when he ordered him to drive to the hospital,only to reply with silence and the driver making snarky remarks about the youth and stuff. Not only he wished he would’ve told him a destination near the hospital to avoid this awkward situation,but he also was about to jump out of the car when the driver turned up the volume at a Top 10 bullcrap song and trying to sing along with it.

Relieved to arrive at the hospital and leaving the jerk driver behind,Kipp made his way to the reception where his sister,who stand next to it,already waved at him to get his attention.

“Took you long enough! ...did you take a shower before this?” she greeted him and threw him a suspicious look after smelling his freshly washed hair. “Ugh...I’m just late because that cab driver was being a total jackass,that’s all okay?”

“Yeah whatever. Come on,it’s this way.” His sister walked steadily in a direction. Well he did take a shower,but that was before he checked up on his phone which he rarely ever uses. But it wasn’t really the time now to be annoyed by stuff like this.

“Mom’s a total mess,y’know? She was freaking out when she couldn’t reach you right away! First Gramps collapses and then she couldn’t even reach her son to tell her!”

They started talking while taking the stairs. “Well when I woke up there wasn’t anybody so I took a shower and only then I notice-” “So you DID take a shower?”

“Will you please stop? You know I’m not sticking to those mobile phone zombies like all of my classmates!”

“Well maybe you should stop making mom worry and look at it once in awhile and not have it on silent mode? If it’s only for calls then what’s the problem?” [...]

They kept arguing with each other until they finally arrived at the room where Gramps was stationed. His mom,still wearing her penguin costume sat outside crying while his dad,who didn’t wear his penguin costume but a sloppy shirt with a smiling penguin on it,tried to comfort her. The sight was kind of pitiful to look at.

“Mom,he’s here!” his sister tried to bring her back with calling out to her.

His mother removed her hands from her face with strands of snots still stretching out as she turned her face in their direction.

“Don’t just stand there and come waddling over now!” Even now with the penguins,huh.

“Uh hey. Why was Gramps calling out to me?” he awkwardly replied.

“Oh I would like to know that from YOU!” she yelled at him. Why was she suddenly so angry?

“Wh-what do yo-” “Oh you did something that made him like that! I don’t know what you did,but he’s at his limit now!” Hearing that screaming from a person in a penguin suit sure makes it all the more credible. “Now now,calm down my dear…” Pops tried to calm her down a bit. “Here,your favourite plushie to squeeze! He wants to be squeezed veeeery tightly by you now!” he took out a very old plush penguin and dangled in front of her face. It was amazing that he could say something like that right now. But what’s more amazing that it actually worked and she squeezed it and played with around like a child. ‘Thanks Pops…’

“It’s really disturbing that he collapsed after you visited him. And even if there wasn’t anything to blame you for,why weren’t you with him?” Kipp had never seen Pops looking at him so seriously. He honestly himself didn’t know. All he knew was that Gramps gave him this watch and that’s it. But what else should’ve had happened? These uneasy stares of Pops and his sister buried him beneath a blanket of doubt.

“I really don’t know! All I got was a good luck charm from him and then I went to pick up you guys from the ground!” His mother made unsettling weird baby noises while playing with that old plush. She seemed like in some kind of defensive mode while blocking out all of the bad things which was also worrying.

“...alright.” Pops sighed. “Go inside,he’s awake for the time being but he only wanted to speak to you first before us.” Kipp looked at him totally puzzled,but then he made his way into the room. What could Gramps possibly tell him now? He slowly opened the door…

~WHOS BEHIND THAT DOOOOOOOR - IM BEHIND THAT DOOOOOR~

#writing #skip life #forgot that this still exists