#it is so hard to unblur and untangle all the different blurred tangled lines and actually communicate past the giant feelings

[vegaseatsass]

Theory of Love is definitely one of the hardest BLs to take seriously that I've watched so far (NOBODY SPOIL ME PLS I am up to ep6 and hoping we're gonna switch at some point from Gun POV to Off POV and turn the perspective on its wet-from-water-bottle-showering head, but I don't KNOW for SURE so don't tell meeee) but one thing I'm really vibing with is just how well it captures the sheer disastrousness of disastrous gay friendships!!!

I don't love watching a bunch of dudes be toxically masculine @ every girl that walks past them (though I understand that this performance is the sibling to the boy craziness I performed at all the girls I was in love with in grade school), but I just love the dynamic within the friends group of like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? WHY ARE OUR FRIENDS SUDDENLY ALWAYS MAD AT EACH OTHER??? WHERE IS ALL THIS DRAMA COMING FROM?????

The drama is coming from Disastrous Queer Friendship. From two friends who cannot/will not communicate how they feel for each other or why "just" friendship is not working. There is no escaping it my guys all you can do is ride the ship through the storm at your bros' side

#and to be very fair to bone and two they ARE doing their level best to ride that ship through the storm so far!! #no idea what's happening one minute to the next who is in love with who who is mad at who whose side to take #but they are gonna stay in it with their bros!!! support whoever has a crush on whoever!! keep the Gang together through hell or high water #i'm watching this very quickly for me b/c i neeeed that pov switch lol i am going to be fr disappointed if we don't pov switch #BUT DON'T SPOIL ME!!!!!!!!!! #theory of love #dear diary #it's jsut interesting because if i watched this idk 10 years ago i'd be very annoyed w/ both third and khai for a lot of their behavior #third being sooooo bitter every time khai kisses a new girl khai treating third's housework and support the way a spoiled kid does his moms #but it's all just so real in a Disastrous Gay Friendship (tm) #it is so hard to unblur and untangle all the different blurred tangled lines and actually communicate past the giant feelings #when third was like 'i meant to be the third thats his friend but i once again ended up the third thats in love w him. i'm angry at myself' #SO REAL! #he knows he is being unfair but he cant HELP it he doesnt know how to navigate his way out of the role he's caged himself in #friendship isn't a cage but it's real easy to convince yourself it is when you see your queer feelings as a threat to that friendship #and it's real easy to see queer feelings as a threat to friendship if you live in a society!!!! #lol this is prob all self-evident but i am just truly enjoying the messiness #back at it again in the shower with my clothes on. bawling.