#it was a gradual slope to madness and evil caused SPECIFICALLY BY PHARMA WANTING TO PROTECT OTHERS

[lord-squiggletits]

The Slope by @megatron-fucks provides a great scene where Pharma gets to blow up on Ratchet about how he lost everything good in his life and faced a fate worse than death so Ratchet has no right to judge him.

But you know what else I really want to see and might write myself?

I want a post-Delphi scene where Pharma gets to verbally rip Ratchet apart about how he disowned Pharma and is acting as if the 'new Pharma' is a completely different person, but in reality Ratchet is just desperate to convince himself that Pharma was always a bad apple and the "best friend" Ratchet knew was either a lie or a person who's "died." Basically Pharma getting to lambast Ratchet about how 'the person he used to be' isn't some separate entity, that the old Pharma LITERALLY IS HIM and it's Ratchet who's a piece of shit for being unable to reconcile that Pharma could be his former best friend and also the monster he ended up becoming.

Mostly in regards to the aspect of canon where despite being former best friends, Ratchet made basically zero efforts to have any sympathy for Pharma or extend help/mercy to him and mostly used their former friendship to prey on Pharma's insecurities to manipulate him into doing what he wanted.

Of course it's a narration by Pharma so it might not be 100% correct or unbiased, but like. I just desperately crave some sort of resolution between Ratchet and Pharma. Or if not a resolution, at least some catharsis where Pharma gets to unload and Ratchet acknowledges he was a bastard.

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i know that at the time they thought pharma died #but it literally is SO disturbing that ratchet and first aid talk about pharma like #'he was a good doctor for most of his life' 'you can carry the best part of him with you' #it's fucked up bc like. good doctor pharma and bad autobot pharma arent two people in one body #pharma is pharma it's literally the same good doctor who turned into the bad autobot #it lowkey reads as if theyre trying to compartmentalize pharma like. oh there was Good Pharma and Bad Pharma #but the reality is the good and bad are a whole person-- Pharma #it was a gradual slope to madness and evil caused SPECIFICALLY BY PHARMA WANTING TO PROTECT OTHERS #it's kinda fucked up that no one ever acknowledges that #even in the fandom level there's often a silent implication that pharma was always a little evil/suspicious #so delphi just revealed his true colors or something. like no he went insane under threat of the DJD #idk i'm apologisting for my boy #but real talk i do think pharma and the way ratchet/others treated him could make a good story abt like #the way ppl want others to fit neatly into good/evil roles ESPECIALLY IF THEY USED TO ASSOCIATE WITH THEM #and how ppl will attempt to distance themselves from 'problematic' exes by just claiming #'oh i always knew there was something evil about them' even when that wasnt the case #idk lol. i mean ppl acknowledge pharma used to be a good doctor but just bc they say it #doesnt mean they actually gave him a chance or didnt treat him as just an autobot who went bad #i know im being contradictory. i'm apologisting i didnt ask for feedback sjfksjfjsjd