#i know that at the time they thought pharma died

[lord-squiggletits]

The Slope by @megatron-fucks provides a great scene where Pharma gets to blow up on Ratchet about how he lost everything good in his life and faced a fate worse than death so Ratchet has no right to judge him.

But you know what else I really want to see and might write myself?

I want a post-Delphi scene where Pharma gets to verbally rip Ratchet apart about how he disowned Pharma and is acting as if the 'new Pharma' is a completely different person, but in reality Ratchet is just desperate to convince himself that Pharma was always a bad apple and the "best friend" Ratchet knew was either a lie or a person who's "died." Basically Pharma getting to lambast Ratchet about how 'the person he used to be' isn't some separate entity, that the old Pharma LITERALLY IS HIM and it's Ratchet who's a piece of shit for being unable to reconcile that Pharma could be his former best friend and also the monster he ended up becoming.

Mostly in regards to the aspect of canon where despite being former best friends, Ratchet made basically zero efforts to have any sympathy for Pharma or extend help/mercy to him and mostly used their former friendship to prey on Pharma's insecurities to manipulate him into doing what he wanted.

Of course it's a narration by Pharma so it might not be 100% correct or unbiased, but like. I just desperately crave some sort of resolution between Ratchet and Pharma. Or if not a resolution, at least some catharsis where Pharma gets to unload and Ratchet acknowledges he was a bastard.

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i know that at the time they thought pharma died #but it literally is SO disturbing that ratchet and first aid talk about pharma like #'he was a good doctor for most of his life' 'you can carry the best part of him with you' #it's fucked up bc like. good doctor pharma and bad autobot pharma arent two people in one body #pharma is pharma it's literally the same good doctor who turned into the bad autobot #it lowkey reads as if theyre trying to compartmentalize pharma like. oh there was Good Pharma and Bad Pharma #but the reality is the good and bad are a whole person-- Pharma #it was a gradual slope to madness and evil caused SPECIFICALLY BY PHARMA WANTING TO PROTECT OTHERS #it's kinda fucked up that no one ever acknowledges that #even in the fandom level there's often a silent implication that pharma was always a little evil/suspicious #so delphi just revealed his true colors or something. like no he went insane under threat of the DJD #idk i'm apologisting for my boy #but real talk i do think pharma and the way ratchet/others treated him could make a good story abt like #the way ppl want others to fit neatly into good/evil roles ESPECIALLY IF THEY USED TO ASSOCIATE WITH THEM #and how ppl will attempt to distance themselves from 'problematic' exes by just claiming #'oh i always knew there was something evil about them' even when that wasnt the case #idk lol. i mean ppl acknowledge pharma used to be a good doctor but just bc they say it #doesnt mean they actually gave him a chance or didnt treat him as just an autobot who went bad #i know im being contradictory. i'm apologisting i didnt ask for feedback sjfksjfjsjd

[transingthoseformers]

Actually, Tarn-dies-a-virgin anon would love to know who do you think could be brave or desperate enough to have their way with this looney. I see Tarn having a potentially intriguing dynamics with a few characters, but have a hard time trying to figure out what a one must do to seduce him? Blindfold him and impersonate Megatron, lol? I probably need some ideas donation. Please?

My first thought was Overlord of course, though i can see Deathsaurus considering it (but he'd probably decide against it) i can also see this being oc time as I've considered that before (I've considered adding a new member to the djd before and their dynamic with tarn us always crunchy) i considered Pharma trying to seduce tarn to change the deal, but tarn in this case would probably say no. There's Kaon, perhaps, perfect loyal always been here Kaon.

Any love life tarn will gain within the conditions I've been given will happen after Megatron's defection, effectively partially shattering his fantasy. Sure he can ask them to roleplay Megatron which would be weird but if they're desperate enough for that Tarn sex they might be down. I can see Overlord having a thing for being called Lord maybe, though I'm not sure Tarn would be down.

#deathsaurus miiight match his more romantic energy #unnamed oc #mtmte tarn #mtmte overlord #mtmte deathsaurus #mtmte kaon #it may be oc time #valveplug

[dreamingdewdrops]

I have 2 theories on what's happening to our Petey-boy right now (spoiler alert for Juno Steel and the Next Page part 1)

Theory 1: Nureyev is still under the effects of Slip's pill and is having a bad trip. Seeing as he doesn't remember any hallucination from his trip supports that theory I think. That doesn't explain why the window was open or the lack of food/water, but I have a feeling he isn't seeing the real Arthur Dogger.

Theory 2: The pharma corps that Slip was playing against are also the same people who brought Wilco back to life. And after looking more closely into Arthur Dogger, they realized he died months ago and have decided to test on the real Dogger as a punishment/letting Slip and Nureyev know that they know they lied.

I know theory 2 is less likely, but the thought came to me as I was relistening. And didn't Mick say that people have been trying for a long time to figure out how to bring people back to life? Idk, it's been awhile since I've listened to The Haunting of The Terrible Trio. What are y'alls thoughts?

#the penumbra podcast #tpp spoilers #juno steel and the next page #juno steel #peter nureyev #junoverse

[lazyyogi]

hi lazyyogi. i value your insights so much and am interested in how you've come to be in this space and the development of your persons.

particularly, how did you come into your medical practice? and do you feel that your spirituality at all influences your profession as a doctor/surgeon & vice versa?

also, how do you feel about the relationship and differences between holistic eastern practices and conventional western medicine? i'm in health care/pharmaceuticals myself in the west but i feel as though western medicine, as great as many aspects of it are and it has achieved much, clutches onto superficial "band-aid" treatments and management of disease states and doesn't often look into patient care with a deeper, holistic lens. it gives me cognitive dissonance sometimes, to be honest. is there anything that helps you deal with this point of conflict or has it ever come to mind?

Hello my friend. Thank you for your kind words and thoughtful questions.

I should probably write an updated bio for this blog at some point.

Long story short (so I can spend more time addressing your other question), I came to spirituality after my father died the year before I graduated high school. Faced with the reality of death and impermanence, I began seeking insight and understanding. This led me to meditation and meditation led me from there.

I came to medicine because I had spent my time in college majoring in English with a concentration in creative writing. I graduated during the economic crisis in 2011 and interned in the film industry but never really found a place for myself. At that time I sincerely considered leaving society and becoming a monk of sorts. But essentially I felt that it would be more helpful overall to stay in society and find ways to contribute. So I went back to school and became a doctor.

Regarding western medicine and other forms of medical practice, holistic or otherwise, I am open to anything that will benefit my patients. Western medicine is constantly changing, updated by new evidence-based findings and also new medical innovations.

In some areas, western medicine is highly advanced and life-altering. In other areas, it struggles to make sense of things let alone be of help to patients. Psychiatry is one such field that comes to mind that really has a hard time providing effective treatment for their patients and often feels like band-aid approaches.

Right now I am working on putting together a research study to examine the effect of a yogic pranayama breathing technique on relieving symptoms of chronic rhinosinusitis. This is a condition that is typically treated initially with intranasal corticosteroids and saline sprays/irrigations. People often think that the only way research gets done is if it is sponsored by Big Pharma and that no one does other research into alternative/complimentary forms of medicine because there is no profit to be made. The truth is that all it takes is someone in the medical field with a bit of interest.

If we want alternative or complimentary medicine to become more widely accepted by the western medical community, all it takes is some evidence-based research studies. The fact is that everyone wants to have better outcomes for their patients, always. And while a famous doctor can say one thing and another famous doctor can say another, it is only through evidence-based research that we can really scrutinize how helpful something may be.

And even then, there are plenty of ways a study may misinterpret data, draw erroneous conclusions, or be in other ways flawed. This is why a lot of time is devoted to educating medical students and resident physicians on how to read research studies critically and be capable of identifying such biases and flaws. The added benefit is knowing how to avoid the same mistakes in your own research studies.

When you mention that people often don't look more deeply into patient care, utilizing a holistic lens, you are speaking to a fundamental problem in medicine today: time. The kind of doctor who would be best positioned to have such a holistic approach is your primary care provider. And yet there are not nearly enough primary care physicians out there and the ones we have are over-burdened with patient volume.

Specialists and surgeons tend overall to be more problem-focused in their specificity but it is also true that it is important to understand those specifics within the larger, holistic context. The way I approach that with my patients is to make sure that by the end of our encounter they feel heard, that we have identified the problems for which I am capable of addressing for them, and that they understand the plan that we have mutually agreed would suit them most appropriately.

Lastly, a struggle that many healthcare providers know but the general public may not is that we are often working with patients who are not fully invested in their own health. And so while we might recommend lifestyle changes and non-pharmacologic treatments, there is little follow through with things like dietary changes, weight loss, smoking cessation, etc.

A simple example from my own field is acid reflux. In most cases, acid reflux can be completely eliminated with certain lifestyle changes (don't eat within 3 hours of going to bed) and dietary modification (an apple a day may be making things worse, actually). We provide this information and yet 99/100 patients prefer a medication instead.

While there are many ways in which both the medical field and its practitioners need to improve, there are challenges from the patient side of things that are also beyond our control. And while I understand a lot of the distrust of the medical field for various reasons, it's not infrequently problematic. Some of the sickest patients I see--appearing with very late stage cancers or suffering catastrophic strokes--are the one's who "don't like going to the doctor." As if everyone else just loves going to the doctor. Although I will say the more elderly patients are often grateful for the social interaction; I try to take more time with them when possible.

In the end, I want to be capable of helping my patients to the best of my ability. And I want my patients to leave our encounter feeling supported and encouraged. The medical field is indeed a mess (one we would be worse off without, in my opinion) and I hope that over the course of my career I may be able to find a few ways to tidy things up and make a few lives better.

Much love!

LY

[yes-i-write-fanfiction]

Imagine ratchet and pharma did marry each other before the whole Delphi thing and have sparkling with each other but after Delphi, they lost their sparkling cause by DJD (sparkling become medic apprentice so i say they dead around early age) and skip the whole break up and betray. Ratchet is now married to drift and have sparkling with him but here is one thing, his new sparkling look like his original sparkling but different

pharma probably going be piss off about ratchet newborn sparkling because you know, they felt guilty about their loss sparkling and kinda... blame one other

When Pharma sees this he sees red because how dare he? HOW DARE HE? Here is Ratchet, playing family with some other mech and having a sparkling with them. They are together, happy and smiling and it’s everything that Pharma doesn’t have and he HATES it.

He and Ratchet had been separated for a long time before what happened at Delphi but Pharma always believed that because they had a sparkling together that they still belonged to one another. And their sparkling was perfect, such a bright child with the most beautiful optics and a blinding smile and- and then they DIED. They died because Pharma couldn’t protect them, because Ratchet wasn’t there for them and when they died Pharma thought that he was going to die as well because it hurt SO MUCH. Oh, he had grieved with Ratchet when he finally arrived on Delphi but in the end he betrayed him, cut off his hands and abandoned him. But this is the worst betrayal of them all, to see that Ratchet has moved on so soon after it all. Pharma hasn’t moved on. He’s still in agony every single day over the loss of their child but here is Ratchet, having replaced their child with a new one. Unforgivable.

Pharma is going to make Ratchet pay for what he did to him. He’s going to make him feel the same agony as he feels and he’s going to take everything away from him. Ratchet will see. Ratchet will see just how much pain he’s in and then he will finally understand.

#transformers imagine #IDW #MTMTE #lost light #angst #sparkling #pharma #ratchet #drift

[artoflifehealingarts]

I love for my art to sell, of course. Mainly because I wish to be able to dance with my greatest lover (Art)~forever and ever, because I know we have.

I just want to stay present and not miss any of it.I love the therapies and good things I am able to get from the proceeds so as not to quiver at the thought of big pharma. I also love how it brings a part of me, little old insignificant & glory filled me, into their homes.

Someone may just be feeling down the day that the art arrives & they open it and smile. They may br feeling lost and look at it on an insomnia filled night and find their way to the sunrise through the lines, patterns and colors.

I have Butterfly art in many places, and want more so they can dance with the scars and lines on my canvas. They mean/symbolize: transformation, souls in limbo, independence, softness and so much more.You can not help a caterpillar transform, if you touch it in either form but especially in the butterfly form too much, to long. . . It dies. It's wings, it's being if affected. To some in Asian old times they were souls in limbo, awaiting their return to the lifestream.As lovers they are very brave. Monarchs travel from Canada to South America for their reproduction. All about butterflies tickles my brain.

Butterfly Soul is the first of 3

All prints are a max 1 of 10

With most being 1 of 3 Shoes, accessories & Art for small spaces as well. Limited editions, first of all because of the upcoming book, second because even if simple or expensive, I don't like things that all have.

If it's unavoidable I always like to make it my own and slightly different. So even in fashion, I rather upcycle /change it up.I wanted to bring that over and into these creations.

I just want as people to have one of very few or one of a kind things. Unique gifts for unique people.

Out of respect and love for all that is unique about you . . .us.

In celebration and awe of that I chose to do limited everything!Long description but I really like butterflies and this series is dear to me, and so this applies to all in the butterfly 3.

Let's just say I like these bugs and I promised a few people that the day I pass on, many many butterflies will be seen.Available in one of a kind traditional multimedia art on Canvas, metal prints, paper prints, canvas prints for desktop and wall, pillows, mugs and maybe some wearable bliss.

#Butterfly #Butterflies #butterfly art #Art print #prints #wall art #life #healing #women #lupus warrior #DeviMea #artwork #Art

[kkrazy256]

Okay, I'll bite. I'm super curious about the Don't Be Suspicious AU; could I get some more info?

Well, I might as well tell the whole gist of what happened on Haxis-9 at this point. And in retrospect, the au is not as funny as I thought jakhfjkw.

In canon, Rem’s entire med team dies in the Crypt. They are taken over by the Force Voids. He had the choice of letting them leave with him. He chose not to. Because those are no longer his brothers. And if he let them out, they will consume and be out of control. he couldn’t let that happen. He leaves the Crypt by himself and lives with that guilt for the rest of his life. 

In the AU, he lets himself believe that they are still in there. He lets them out of the Crypt with them. Because they are still his brothers. They have to be. 

But now he feels responsible for them in more ways than just being their CO. What he’s done weighs heavily on his mind, but they truly do act like this old team did (since they have all the memories, skills, and mannerism).

And at some point, he becomes resigned to it. He lets himself pretend. he has to learn to look the other way when they give dying troopers on the field a little nudge to the other side by consuming their energy. 

It’s a battlefield. No one will notice a few extra missing vode. No one will notice/pay attention to how some die. Not when all the medics are in on it. 

Just medic turned killers rotating in my brain. 

(the ‘funny’ below)

And these not-vode don’t know what to think of Remedy. He is technically their savior who released them from their thousand year prison. And the memories show him to be a very good older brother. It’s not like he’s snitched on them to the Jedi, and he does his best to make sure they’re doing alright, even if it’s one big farce. They settle with sticking around and making sure he’s alright.

When the explosion incident happens, they’re nearby and rushing to his side. He’s bleeding, he’s barely conscious. they ask if he wants to become one of them. That way they could heal him. 

He says no. 

They reluctantly oblige and give him medical help. There are so many of them, competent in their medic/first aid skills. Remedy survives. The offer to transfer is still on the table but this time, Remedy declines. He still has his team, there’s no way he could just leave them for Coruscant.

They go with him to get his prosthetic. Pharma cannot pull shit with them all staring him down menacingly LMAOO 

The only time they end up on Coruscant is during shore leave. In which Wraith Squadron takes one look at them and go 🚨🚨🚨🚨👁👁 asking all sorts of questions. Not so subtly pointing EM devices in their faces and taking notes.

Remedy is over there in the corner having a panic attack like holy shit holy shit holy it’s over it’s all over we’re caught. But his team just finds Wraith Squadron super fucking funny and say ‘nah we’re not killing them, we’re just gonna go grab a drink together. They invited us to go explore some haunted warehouse three thousand levels down’ 

Wraith squadron hugging Remedy and his team by the legs like: Fox, commander, please can we keep them. I want to study them under a microscope. 

Fox and Remedy: NO

Med Team: YES 

/

And that’s the gist of it. It’s only funny when Remedy is trying so hard to keep shit under wraps like haha nothing suspicious is going on at all. These are totally normal brothers :))) 

#clone medic remedy #wraith squadron #sw mine #Don't Be Suspicious Rem AU

[supnerds]

NINTH! have u watched anything new recently that you liked? or supremely disliked?

okay so I was holding off on answering this until after my exam this morning but then I woke up sick as a dog so now this is my consolation prize.

Anyway!! Let me tell you the wonders of one of the latest shows I’ve watched: Parallel World Pharmacy, aka Isekai Yakkyoku!

so side note I’m coming back to this after finishing typing the whole thing and holy wow I went on a bit of a ramble. Idk how to put things under a “read more” on mobile so this is your only warning :)

Our main character is a research pharmacist, who works hard to discover new drugs to benefit patients. However he realizes too late that he misses working with real patients - the main reason why he became a pharmacist. Unfortunately, our dude dies from overworking because setting healthy limits for ourselves is so last century.

Surprise surprise however - he doesn’t go to the afterlife or whatnot - instead he wakes up in the body of Pharma de Medicis, a ten year old boy who is the son of the head pharmacist in a medieval fantasy world (listen I know how it sounds stick with me)

Part of this world’s mechanics are that nobles are distinct from commoners by the fact that they are able to wield a specific element (hello atla). Before our dude moved in, Pharma had previously only been able to create water (these nobles can wield one of the four elements, and only in a create or destruct way - never both and never more than one). Somehow, Pharma 2.0 now has the ability to create and destroy any element he can think of (hello 21 century knowledge) and uses his knowledge of chemical structures to create medications to help those around him. Through reasons, he is able to open the first pharmacy for nobles and commoners alike, and quickly grows in popularity.

Okay so now for my thoughts on the whole thing. I’m gonna be honest, the main reason I clicked on it was because the title said pharmacy and I am actually currently in pharmacy school. I may have gotten a wee bit excited that there was an anime out there focused on my career path (because let’s be honest have you ever seen anything about pharmacy? they say pharmacy is a small world and they are absolutely correct). As I was watching, Pharma actually consistently used accurate treatments for all the conditions he finds which was so exciting for me. I remember there was one episode where a person had tuberculosis - I only learned about the treatments for that sometime last year and the anime got it all right, down to even the chemical structure. So yeah on that hand it’s super cool for me.

One potential drawback - my man Pharma is ridiculously OP, and consistently continues to get more so. I actually looked up the manga after finishing the anime and the manga does a better job of actually showing him get tired and hitting his limits (which was a great callback to you know HOW HE DIED IN THE FIRST PLACE) but still. There’s an amusing bit with some characters who believe him to be an incarnation of the God of Medicine (which the further we get into the story the more likely it seems) and keeps hinting that he may not have much longer in this world for all the power he has, which would be nice to see as a limiter on how much he can do. The story does show how Terrifying he can be with access to so much power, which is also really cool

Story-wise, I found the whole thing pretty compelling. Again I may be biased re: the whole pharmacy thing, but I honestly really enjoyed the whole thing. Another drawback - really long times between updates, or maybe just for English translations. It’s been at least 2 months since the last chapter was posted, which yes not that long but also I want more

also the overall style is just absolutely amazing I love the art and backgrounds etc so here have a few more pics

Overall I think it was a really good show/manga, though if I had to pick between the two I’d go with the manga largely due to just how much More there is and for actually giving him limits and such.

lol that got a lot longer than I thought it would. thanks for letting me ramble!

#sup nerds #death by yellow #isekai yakkyoku #parallel world pharmacy #maybe I’ll come back to add pics later but for now here’s my ramble!

[asylumdream]

Marth posting hours because Im cursed I guess

What is it with the basic cute mcs that kills and dies me every time

Mikazuki Munechika Touken Ranbu: youre such a strange old man and I love you the moon is more beautiful with you by my side you would definitely commit war crimes for me and dystroy yourself without me knowing to keep me safe

Yugi Moto Yugioh: youre so joyful inspite of everything and so kind and optimistic but you aren't naive even if everyone tells you you are and you truly are the king of games and i love you

Light Tenryu Shadowverse Flame: you have one singular brain cell and are useing it all on loyalty you are a golden retriever boy who dose nothing by halfs and is denser then fruit cake I love you

Link Twighlight Princess: you were just a farm boy who was the coolest, too yongue for the adults too old for the kids and just a little silly but then you saved the world and brcame a beast and you can never forget the wind in your fur and the songs you sang and how can you ever go back too before when they looked at you so scared i love you

Link Breath of the Wild: you knew nothing and no regained memories will ever repair that but even so youre silly and creative and kind and whimsical and the world has been waiting for you so long you forgot her but youll save her anyways because thats just what you do i love you

Pharma De'Medici Isekai Pharmacy: you died of over work to try and help people and now you may do so again youre a god but youre just a man given a second chance replacing a kid and you still havent thought about that but you love this new life and want to do good if you live long enough i love you

Stock Granorg Radient Historia:Perfect Chronology: youre quite and awkward but kids love you and youve done this so many times you knoe these scripts by heart and you want to keep everyone safe and it dosnt matter what they think of you as long as you do that for a duty you cant even remember why you have I love you

Seranoa Wolfort Triangle Strategy: you are thurst into the position of chooseing your house, the kingdom, your friends and family, or yourself. And how is it fair for you to be forced to navigate the precipace of war with a new wife and your brother in arms still in mourning but you will because you are lord wolfort and I love you

And Marth Fire Emblem: youre the Hero King, the one that everything keeps comeing back to again and again and youve seen so much battle and bloodshed but you are kind and gentle and always willing to help because thats just who you are i love you

#Rambles #Assorted blorbo thoughts #Honorable mentions include Joker from persona 5 #As well as the mc of ever oasis and starfy from legendary starfy #Listen im soft

[lord-squiggletits]

I don't know the exact timeline of exRID in relation to MTMTE, but something I wonder is why Delphi became infected with the Rust Plague relatively long ago (not long-long, but long enough that they were under quarantine and should've sent out a signal?), which should've meant that the "call High Command and ask to be shut down" call should've gone out already. Maybe the reason it never got responded to and the Lost Light was the only entity who came was because that SOS signal would've gone to Prowl (Optimus/Orion was away from Cybertron), and at some point in time Prowl somehow got shadowplayed by Megatron's orders and made part of Devastator. So I guess in that case the timeline lines up?

I mean, unless Delphi literally JUST got shut down by the plague when First Aid sent out the SOS on the Wreckers line. But that doesn't necessarily change anything because we still run into the whole issue of OP being off the planet, Prowl being busy scheming/getting shadowplayed, and everyone generally acting as if the war was over. So I guess this is more a semantics question than anything?

EDIT: First Aid says "I guess this all started with the D.J.D. three days ago" which is when Sonic and Boom showed up and detonated the bomb. So it seems the second paragraph I typed is the more likely explanation. But also that kind of makes the whole Pharma-Delphi thing even funnier because it means the plague lasted less than three days??? I was under the impression for some reason that the plague had been in place for weeks if not months and a shitload of people had died, but... then again the plague had really high mortality rate (it was basically depicted as bringing people to near death within minutes of them transforming and activating the virus) so it could've had an incredibly high mortality rate within those days. But also, the reason First Aid sent out the signal wasn't because of the plague, but because of the death rate at Delphi constantly climbing. I guess he thought the plague was just incidental to that or something? Or he just sent the quarantine SOS on the usual signal and put the death rates on Ironfist's old frequency?

#squiggposting

[soundbearer369]

How did I become a Sound Frequency Healer?!

🤩

Many.. MANY years ago I was one of those unlucky people dealing with Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. Those of you out there know what that is also knows the excruciatingly discombobulating journey it is waking up in the middle of the night with numb hands. Your not only sleeping with the hand braces on but your also having to wear some type of support during the day when you work and the pain never stops.

I found myself going to endless therapy treatments that seemed to work for a few hours but never completely remedied the problem.

I did not take pain medication either 💊 not even aspirin-ibuprofen or Tylenol. So there I was… in constant “dis”-comfort!!!

Eventually it was so bad that I was being told by a doctor that my problem had surpassed regular therapy and I needed surgery to correct it. He told me to go home and do some research on it so I would comprehend what I would be facing in the future during and after surgery…So I did just that!!!

I don’t mind telling you that I was completely terrified reading about it and looking at pics of the invasive procedure that would leave noticeable scars. What I considered a “red flag” was in all the material I found it always stated that “sometimes” surgery did not repair it. So there I was…faced with a decision to do what I considered would be a form of mutilating my arms to be another “research-candidate” … I could not sleep at night thinking about it..between the pain in my arms and hands and the pain in my brain, I thought I was going to go insane….so I started researching alternative medicine.

On my journey I would begin to study alternative medicine and Holistic Healing.

I dabbled in massage therapy-tantric arts~nutrition~herbology~big pharma~psychology and alchemy ……educating myself in each one of these subjects until eventually this path led me to Genomics & Biofield technology & therapies!!

Then the real work began!!!! I had the knowledge and I began to heal myself!! I also did this for friends and family members who had back pain and other body pain and psychological issues and as I studied and became more knowledgable, I began to realize that I held healing powers. I would then begin to remember my Christian Grandmother who was blind that always told me I was a born “Nightingale”.

I have healed many discomforts and “dis”ease in my body and I will continue as I AM the Masterpiece of my own craft!!

I never really comprehended what that was as a child. I just thought she was praising me for taking care of her. She would tell me lots of spiritual secrets and stories (the kind that are in the graveyards now) but those of us who know=“We know what our mission on planet earth is”

It has been a long journey but I’m still on the guarded path to my destiny and I have a long way to go!!

The one thing I can tell you is I’m finally in the quantum now time~space that I have been traveling to get to and I’m so excited about the road ahead.

Healing the world with one beautiful action at a time to raise the resonant frequency of our human body and the planet ALL at the same time!!!

This is real love 💕❤️💕🤗

Abracadabra⚡️⭐️⚡️The Great Work is Done⭐️

The Universe is mental and ALL is mind…..

[foxbox21212]

It upsets me how rude, mean, and judgmental specifically libs can be to conservatives. All the while ironically talking about how they are the victims of them lol. Idk, I just get it now. And I mean hey sometimes there are mean or rude conservatives. I am not one for politics even though I more side with conservatives these days. Also most of my friends i would consider conservative.

It’s sad how the enemy divides and makes Gods people look bad. Let’s talk about Covid. Well if you don’t get the shots and wear the masks you’re just ignorant they say. Look what the government and scientists say. Covid is just like any other disease to God. But unspiritual people are not capable of understanding that God still heals today. “Satan has blinded the minds of unbelievers” 2 Cor 4:4

Also I have a theory that conservative people died of covid because 1) they either didn’t believe covid is real lol which was false AND didn’t have God either unfortunately or 2) they had religious spirit and thought they knew God when they didn’t actually know him at all…

Let me give an example. My spiritual mom got a fever and she heard Jesus tell her to continue her day and go grocery shopping. So she listened and right when she left the store her fever was completely gone. It was her faith that made her well. Luke 18:42

Worldly things will not affect you if you are a true believer of God and have no evil in you. Attacks come they do we are human and susceptible to attacks. But God teaches us how to fight them away. And another thing, I’ve heard of many testimony where God did instruct people not to wear a mask or get a shot. And fortunately they ended up okay and most of the time got a new job or moved away. But these people I would consider prophetic and actually have a real intimate and tangible relationship with God. Just like my spiritual mom.

I did personally end up getting the shots and had more lib views at the time. I did not understand that Jesus heals. I didn’t understand until I would see it for my own eyes or experience healings for myself. Diseases that people got diagnosed with that same day casted out and completely gone after. It’s incredible and there is nothing else on this earth I’ve seen like it. It’s sad how people would rather trust big pharma than God, like they even care about you at all lol. But they just don’t understand because they don’t know God 🥺

Also, I had to repent of the shots and I recommend everyone repents of the shots because you probably did get something from it. I don’t want to scare anyone though. But considering the reality of the situation maybe you should be scared of the what the enemy is doing to you. Anyways, I did pray for unbelievers who had covid and they did experience either healing or Holy Spirit. And it was actually instantly most of the time. Which showed me the spiritual reality behind what is actually going on. Some people refused which made me sad but hey just goes back to that reality that they don’t understand or know God.

Reminds me of a story. I was at church, got prayed over, and received healing for something. The pastor said how I would be healing people soon and to take note. I didn’t really understand what that meant at the time just thought it was really cool. Time went on and a few weeks later I decided to randomly visit my mom. She was sick in bed. She told me how she worked with chemicals earlier, drank too much caffeine, and took adderall and she couldn’t eat or drink without throwing up. She also couldn’t sleep because she was so wired. I decided to test it out on her, and since she did already accept Holy Spirit I knew I had a good chance of healing my mom. For that is the God who heals. And I knew my mom was in a good position to receive healing. Anyways, it takes discernment which comes from the Spirit but anyways, I got my prayer book and did a prayer similar to what my pastor did for me. Took maybe 10-20 minutes. After I finished my mom literally got up, belched, and went to the kitchen to start eating food. My mom was instantly healed. And her sickness was completely gone after that.

#p

[joankellyforever]

Demons,

They knew me before I knew them

Asmodeus,

I didnt know he was my jealous best friend!

Killed off all my lovers

just to watch me make love to myself

Crowned The King of lust

Turns intimacy into redrum every time he makes guns bust

Into me I will let you see endurance is for the less of us

He want you to fall in lust with the act

not the soul you tie to when you interact

And what is greed without money?

And who in Satans kingdom ARE YOU IF YOU AINT GOT ANY?

You see, I am poor cause my thoughts aint even worth a penny!

But you mother lovers owe me at least a dollar

For all the times I had to get bent over by a blue collar

I knew Tom, Nick & Harry before my own father

Cause 9 is the highest number and zero is a portal

So does staying low really make you immortal?

I heard if you wanted to tell time you should look at turtles

As I take cheap flights over your head into my cell

No matter where I go these places will always ring a bell

I remember cheap hotels

like a i remember soliders buying fake love to get out of hell!

It's only a crime if someone tells!

And even if you do!

WHO IN SATANS KINGDOM IS GONNA BELIEVE A POOR OLD GIRL LIKE YOU?

Besides, You dont even have time to stop and snitch

And karmas a bitch

you should play her role?

Rob these pimps and try not to fall in the rabbit hole

That happens when you stop judging girls who sell their souls

You start to see the spiritual goal

33, I learned to master me

when I learned they tryna master the sheep

The Goats tryna master the sleep

What if Gods son was never named Jesus?

What if they been just tryna predict us?

Like some under world order to replace us

They live in fear with the need of never ending surveillance

So I tell them agents, You better bug a boo me in advance

Like a double sided mirror

To help big brother see more clearer

They poured rats into the city

but dont think its gonna be me

I aint with the rat racing

Money chasing

Airplane Lacing

Water spacing

Chip tracing

reset that this world is facing

If they rewrite history then all we have is our memories

And if they tell us trauma produces two E's in febreeze

Then is the one who is in control allowed to call me crazy?

I thought crazy was believing in both space and heaven

But then there is perfection

and accountability and thats the number seven

We are at end of the 6k in world prison

and we lock up children to build better fate

did you know child marriage is legal in 42 states

So what kind of future do we face

If we are allowing Satanic rulers to dictate our faith??

I mean its NYC for Gods sake

its 15$ an eighth

That right there should be illegal

But then again Papa Pharma is real Lethal

and never the less anything is better than picking up a needle

Or smoking rocks

The streets dont love nobody and you can hear that from every corner and block

Nobody really wanna do what they gotta do to survive

Some people really just get tired of asking God why

So the soul cries as the flesh dies

Imagine living such a life

that you cheated life

I mean by then only to God can you be a wife

Cant love youre own kind cause youre enemy to your own mind

But I heard the Messiah might have had dreads

So I might as well just live as if i'm already dead

cause if they can do it to him

They can do it to anybody

Life is like Monopoly

A single person playing a double minded game

You might wanna ask Cern why nothing is the same

Learn Hebrew and dont say I never tried to warn you!

#poetry

[tnlbarth-blog]

July 27 2023 - 9:42pm

Trigger Warning: Talk about Raceism, Ableism, Sexism and Homophobia

Warning: All people places and things resembling any real people places or things are merely coincidence and are not to be taken as such.

While I talk well about my father there was a lot wrong with him.

My father was racist. And no matter how hard he tried to hide it and not show us growing up. It didn't matter, when we became adults his true colors shined when Obama became president. Our father talked bad about him all the time and after a while he would just talk about all the races he didn't like. I would like to think he let his mind get hijacked by alt-right propaganda but I'm pretty sure for that to happen to someone they're already thinking that kind of stuff to begin with no matter how small and benign their thoughts started. By the time he died he was trying to protect the Confederate flag. And becoming a bad influence on his adult children.

Throughout my childhood he did his best to try and teach us the opposite of his beliefs. He knew what he believed was wrong. Often he would stop me from doing things that he thought might be racist. Teaching me and my sibling what was and wasn't okay to the best of his ability while still believing what he believed. He did his best and to be honest it worked mostly. When he showed his true colors we pointed it out and got after him. I honestly think even though it made him mad I am sure he was proud of us.

My father was also ableist. And this hurt me more than a lot of his bigotry. I should have been tested for a few things growing up, like ADHD and ASD. But because my father believed that mental health was big pharma propaganda I never got tested and diagnosed. I grew up not knowing why I was so different and why I was teased and bullied so bad. I ended up getting depression, anxiety and trauma due to my untreated disorders. He was very vocal about his ableism while I was growing up. which included calling us all lazy when we didn't do things the way he thought they should be done or not doing anything at all.

My father was also sexist. But I don't think it was to the extent of hating transgender folk. But and sure if he was alive today he would be brainwashed by the alt-left propaganda and he would probably start. I am pretty sure my father was scared that my brother would get ridiculed if he dressed or acted feminine at all and instead of addressing his fears he would get mad. He would shove boy toys into my brother's hands and make sure he dressed like a boy in boy clothes.

But he allowed his daughters to dress and act like boys all we wanted. We were little "tomboys" and that was okay. Honestly though I am pretty sure he wanted my sister and I to be as tough as possible because he knew how men were. And he didn't want us to be victims of them. But I didn't think it worked out the way he was hoping. Both of us got sexually assaulted. I don't think he ever knew about it.

My father was leaning toward homophobia but I don't think he made it all the way there. Especially after our sister came out. My sister educated our father and because of that he warmed up to the idea.

He however never stopped worrying about whether or not my brother was gay. My father's skewed beliefs and little knowledge on the subject made him believe even though my brother had been in several heterosexual relationships that just because he liked anime and never had sex yet (not from a lack of trying, my brother just had poor luck.) he was gay. Honestly, I think my father's pressure on my brother to have sex and to not be gay was what was causing my brother problems in that area. And the last conversation I had with my father about the subject I told him my opinion. It made him think. I am pretty sure my father had questioned his sexuality a couple times and he was projecting onto my brother.

Looking back on it all and now knowing what I know about his generation, the Boomers, I am not shocked anymore about his beliefs. And like most Boomers my father called my generation the Millennials lazy, selfish, and entitled. And he wasn't shy about saying that stuff in front of me. I am very impressionable too so when he said this and with the ableism it really took a toll on my self-esteem. I never spoke up about it.

With his beliefs how they were and how much I know now I don't believe I would be able to talk to my father about politics or any of the above without getting into a fight. So I probably wouldn't. His authority parenting instilled a bit of a fear of him in me. And I don't know if I would be physically able speak up let alone fight him about this stuff. I am barely able to fight my mom about it. I promise when I say fight I mean it usually ends in a fight.

Anyway despite my father's drawbacks in his belief system he did a decent job at raising us not to carry his bigoted touch. So I have to give him some credit. He was the only one teaching us. My mom never spoke up more than to recite the old "treat others the way you want to be treated" quote.

In the end I think my father did what he could to break the cycle and he did okay.

Regards

TNL Barth

[yourreddancer]

Robert Reich  Is Biden too old? Personal thoughts about whether he should run again

At 79, Joe Biden is the oldest president in American history. Concerns about his age top the list for why Democratic voters want the party to find an alternative for 2024.

I don’t think this reflects an “ageist” prejudice against those who have reached such withering heights so much as an understanding that people in their late 70s and 80s wither.

I speak with some authority. I’m now a spritely 76 — lightyears younger than our president. I feel fit, I swing dance and salsa, and can do 20 pushups in a row. Yet I confess to a certain loss of, shall we say, fizz.  

Joe Biden could easily make it until 86, when he’d conclude his second term. After all, it’s now thought a bit disappointing if a person dies before 85. My mother passed at 86, my father two weeks before his 102nd birthday (so I’m hoping for the best, genetically speaking). Three score and ten is the number of years of life set out in the Bible. Modern technology and Big Pharma should add at least a decade and a half. Beyond this is an extra helping. “After 80, it’s gravy,” my father used to say.

Joe will be on the cusp of the gravy train.

Where will it end? There’s only one possibility, and that reality occurs to me with increasing frequency. I find myself reading the obituary pages with ever greater interest, curious about how long they lasted and what brought them down. I remember a New Yorker cartoon in which an older reader of the obituaries sees headlines that read only “Older Than Me” or “Younger Than Me.”

Yet most of the time I forget my age. The other day, after lunch with some of my graduate students, I caught our reflection in a store window and for an instant wondered about the identity of the short old man in our midst.

It’s not death that’s the worrying thing about a second Biden term. It’s the dwindling capacities that go with aging. "Bodily decrepitude," said Yeats, "is wisdom." I have accumulated somewhat more of the former than the latter, but our president seems fairly spry (why do I feel I have to add “for someone his age?”). I still have my teeth, in contrast to my grandfather whom I vividly recall storing his choppers in a glass next to his bed, and have so far steered clear of heart attack or stroke (I pray I’m not tempting fate by my stating this fact). But I’ve lived through several kidney stones and a few unexplained fits of epilepsy in my late thirties. I’ve had both hips replaced. And my hearing is crap. Even with hearing aids, I have a hard time understanding someone talking to me in a noisy restaurant. You’d think that the sheer market power of 60 million boomers losing their hearing would be enough to generate at least one chain of quiet restaurants.

When I get together with old friends, our first ritual is an “organ recital” — how’s your back? knee? heart? hip? shoulder? eyesight? hearing? prostate? hemorrhoids? digestion? The recital can run (and ruin) an entire lunch.

The question my friends and I jokingly (and brutishly) asked one other in college—"getting much?"—now refers not to sex but to sleep. I don’t know anyone over 75 who sleeps through the night. When he was president, Bill Clinton prided himself on getting only about four hours. But he was in his forties then. (I also recall cabinet meetings where he dozed off.) How does Biden manage?

My memory for names is horrible. (I once asked Ted Kennedy how he recalled names and he advised that if a man is over 50, just ask “how’s the back?” and he'll think you know him.) I often can’t remember where I put my wallet and keys or why I’ve entered a room. And certain proper nouns have disappeared altogether. Even when rediscovered, they have a diabolical way of disappearing again. Biden’s secret service detail can worry about his wallet and he’s got a teleprompter for wayward nouns, but I’m sure he’s experiencing some diminution in the memory department.

I have lost much of my enthusiasm for travel and feel, as did Philip Larkin, that I would like to visit China, but only on the condition that I could return home that night. Air Force One makes this possible under most circumstances. If not, it has a first-class bedroom and personal bathroom, so I don’t expect Biden’s trips are overly taxing.

I’m told that after the age of 60, one loses half an inch of height every five years. This doesn’t appear to be a problem for Biden but it presents a challenge for me, considering that at my zenith I didn’t quite make it to five feet. If I live as long as my father did, I may vanish.

Another diminution I’ve noticed is tact. A few days ago, I gave the finger to a driver who passed me recklessly. These days, giving the finger to a stranger is itself a reckless act. I’m also noticing I have less patience, perhaps because of an unconscious “use by” timer that’s now clicking away. Increasingly I wonder why I’m wasting time with this or that buffoon. I’m less tolerant of long waiting lines, automated phone menus, and Republicans. Cicero claimed "older people who are reasonable, good-tempered, and gracious bear aging well. Those who are mean-spirited and irritable will be unhappy at every stage of their lives." Easy for Cicero to say. He was forced into exile and murdered at the age of 63, his decapitated head and right hand hung up in the Forum by order of the notoriously mean-spirited and irritable Marcus Antonius.

How the hell does Biden maintain tact or patience when he has to deal with Mitch McConnell? Or Joe Manchin, for crying out loud?

The style sections of the papers tell us that the 70s are the new 50s. Septuagenarians are supposed to be fit and alert, exercise like mad, have rip-roaring sex, and party until dawn. Rubbish. Inevitably, things begin falling apart. My aunt, who lived far into her nineties, told me “getting old isn’t for sissies.” Toward the end she repeated that phrase every two to three minutes.

Philosopher George Santayana claimed to prefer old age to all others. "Old age is, or may be as in my case, far happier than youth," he wrote. "I was never more entertained or less troubled than I am now." True for me too, in a way. Despite Trump, notwithstanding the seditiousness of the Republican Party, the ravages of climate change, near record inequality, a potential nuclear war, and a stubborn pandemic, I remain upbeat -- largely because I still spend most days with people in their twenties, whose fizz buoys my spirits. Maybe Biden does, too.

But I’m feeling more and more out of it. I’m doing videos on TikTok and Snapchat, but when my students talk about Ariana Grande or Selena Gomez or Jared Leto, I don’t have clue who they’re talking about (and frankly don’t care). And I find myself using words –- “hence,” “utmost,” “therefore,” “tony,” “brilliant” — that my younger colleagues find charmingly old-fashioned. If I refer to “Rose Marie Woods” or “Jackie Robinson” or “Ed Sullivan” or “Mary Jo Kopechne,” they’re bewildered. The culture has flipped in so many ways. When I was seventeen, I could go into a drugstore and confidently ask for a package of Luckies and nervously whisper a request for condoms. Now it’s precisely the reverse. (I stopped smoking long ago.)

Santayana said the reason that old people have nothing but foreboding about the future is that they cannot imagine a world that’s good without themselves in it. I don’t share that view. To the contrary, I think my generation — including Bill and Hillary, George W., Trump, Newt Gingrich, Clarence Thomas, Nancy Pelosi, Chuck Schumer, and Biden – have fucked it up royally. The world will probably be better without us.

Joe, please don’t run.

[pastelpaperplanes]

Big Ol Ask Post Pt. 3 I think

I haven’t drawn anything other than cursed or plain technical stuff w him 😔😔 have these for now but expect more soon!

anon a way back asked what he’d look like next to Overlord being already so big compared to Megs, that’s why you see Lordie if you’re wondering why he’s thrown in that line up!

by the way I have a voice claim for the big purple simp— Jenner from NIMH, he’s so awful but that suave baritone oh it fits too well >:] it’s the ‘humble servant’ line that got to me

Yep! Pharma is absolutely in this AU—as well as the CFau and Crack one too—and in all, he’s still an estranged medic long since booted from any legal work back on Cybertron.

He lost his credibility and more all those years ago when he found himself willing to do his fair share of cutting corners and hastily concealed malpractice to expedite his dream of getting his name down in the medical books—ultimately impressing his dear Mentor Ratchet, finally, in perfecting long-since banned risky experiments and surgeries—not to mention cruel and unusual temperament with the (supposedly) taboo practice of non-medicinal mnemosurgery.

His ambitions and aggression always got the bet of him, this hasn’t changed since he found himself working in freelance outposts. Light years away from Cybertron, he’s made a name for himself as a Good Doctor—but to his under-the-table black market part-dealing clients, he’s just about as bad as a Crooked Medic can get.

Bounty hunters and Arms Dealers like him for his business, a certain DJD member likes him for the occasional berth company and seemingly never ending supply of fresh T-Cogs—but no one actually likes him for his nasty temperamental personality, save for a young and naive Ratchet once upon a time.

Pharma is a roamer, as of recent he’s been a hard to reach mech—seems as if he’s found a little project to keep himself pretty occupied in the last few decades—something about a breakthrough for aiding the Decepticon Energon Crisis :] him and a small, horrifyingly cheerful surgeon are well on their way to completing their first trial batches, it’s safe to say that their little synthetic mixture will have it’s users sated and compliant.

they’ve got that amazing ‘new car smell’ those first few weeks, and instead of chittering like an Insecticons or vibrating their wings like a seeker—they beep and squeak, sometimes even honk a horn depending on the baseline altmode coding, to get their Creators’ attention before their vocalizer truly starts to kick online

It’s cute, but loud

Much like a seeker sparkling, they have to reach a certain ‘age’ (upgrade) to be able to transform completely, in between then they’re still able to rev those engines as a warning should they need it, as well as spin their wheels should they need a getaway HEELIES IF THEYRE LUCKY WOOHOOOOO—for seekers they can hover on their thrusters!

Crusade is actually pretty formal with Megatron. But yeah as a kid, Megs was always known as Carrier, but as Sadie got older and more aware of their surroundings—they definitely came to learn the true weight of that title and the fact that they were the progeny of the faction leader, a fact they should have really held onto with more pride. Not wanting to draw more attention to the already blatant favoritism (and nepotism) Crusade made a switch to addressing Megatron as Sir, My Lord, Lord Megatron, —ect. to better fit in with their fellow troops.

It bothers Megatron more than than he lets on. Crusade shouldn’t have to hide their high ranking as his child, the heir to the faction. Megs is their Carrier and can only order them around for so long, as their Leader however—pulling rank may just allow for their infuriatingly stubborn sparkling to listen to them should a day come where even a Carrier’s plea is dismissed.

Crusade does slip up every now and then and a ‘Carrier’ will slip—often hushed and annoyed though as Megs does like to tease every now and then, gotta remind them that they’re still his baby every once in a while :’)

Optimus however—whenever him and Crusade should truly reunite, will never be called Sire by Crusade, which they so heatedly established early on—Crusade never needed one and they don’t need one now, better to not let the title trigger those long-suppressed emotions. Sure enough though Optimus will get his moment.

actually no lmfao so you’re good! Eh, I haven’t mentioned much plot w them outside of them and Megs, plus bits of potential interactions with Optimus—so the rest of Team Prime is free game :D

For what I (hopefully will have) planned, their interactions with team Prime will be eh,,,interesting to each their own to say the least. Some more stressful than others BUT let’s not get into that until I’ve worked it out—for now I’ll just mention what they’re dynamics would be like when the drama of Oh Shit Boss Bot You’ve Been Hiding a Kid For HOW LONG has died down.

A usually touch-wary Crusade actually is the one to initiate a hug with Bulkhead, he’s the biggest and warmest and somehow is always happy to see them. Plus he tells cool recaps of Earth films and gifts them strange blobish paintings every now and then, all of which Crusade doesn’t exactly understand, but at least the colors are pretty.

Bee is annoying,,,which is what Crusade would say if confronted if they actually liked all the shenanigans Bee suggest they pull together, prank wars to the max, sparring for fun, video games?, DOUGHNUTS and RACES in the fortress halls??? Ahem. they are a super serious soldier, not a hooligan. But honestly, Bee is the one they seek out the most should they need an adventure, they missed out on a lot of this ‘fun’ growing up on the Nemesis—Bee seems to know how to balance a day of soldiering and dumbassery. sometimes.

Ratchet reminds them a bit too much of their Carrier than they’d care to admit. The medic is an old soul to his very core, perpetually tired but quick to snap into work mode, and sweet if you reallllllly squint. Sadie has been taught from day one to always respect medics, Ratchet obviously takes the cake on I’ve Seen Some Shit and for that alone Crusade both fears and admires Ratchet. Again, growing up on the Nemesis they didn’t have too many bots willing to talk much with them—but Ratchet (after he’s gone through his own lot of therapy, him AND Arcee. good lord) has a never ending pile of stories to share with them. Ratchet may throw in a few more colorful curses than necessary—which is SURPRISING bc Crusade thought they’d heard them all back home, but he’s entertaining and tells Crusade how it is, no sugarcoating. For that Crusade is grateful, there’s been too many half-truths thrown about to them in their recent years :’)

Ghost Prowl freaks them out—why does he deliberately have to be so sneaky?? Crusade has only met Prowl a fleeting handful of times (visits from the Allspark come with meaning, you know) and each time Crusade has been given nothing but odd riddles and poetic nonsense. Kidding. Prowl does like his wordplay’s but his given advice is always well meaning—the most firm and direct message Crusade has been passed though was probably most definitely “ Get those two cowards for mecha you call your Creator’s to stop fooling around with each other and SPEAK—at this rate it’s physically paining me that they haven’t begun Ritus and they’re not getting any younger”

Team Prime adores Sadie, they ask Megatron to see their sparkling photos every chance they catch him. And Crusade. hates it.

:) have

We’ve been here before, haven’t we?

#my art #cybertron’s legacy au #transformers #megop #lots to unpack #tarn is big and purple and very much a sip for megatron this has been established #simp* #also he’s HUUGE #Pharma has a nice role in this au but mostly it’s some other rouge cons #mostly dear Trepan and his big bully of a husband >:3 #WE GOT SOME HOMAGE TO TFP HELL YEAHHHHHHHH GET READY. it’s gonna be darker for sure but ohohoohohooo can’t wait #Sadie is to OLD to call their mom Carrier UGH. #very sad and very much not true #but the title is still there and every now and then a ‘Carrier’ will be thrown out #team prime all would love Sadie #it would take a min for Sadie to warm up but they’ll fit right in :) little band of misfits #and finally #a re draw of one of my fav megop peices ive done #look how far they’ve come 😭😭 #tfa tarn #tfa Pharma #tfa trepan #tfa megop #transformers animated #tfa optimus prime #tfa megatron