#its good timing since im graduating high school which means a mostly fresh start

[akira-seeya]

problem: uh oh! i'm gonna be an adult real soon and i'm planning on going to a japanese college/university as some point, but my username is my irl first name! this would be relatively ok in the us, but it wouldn't be as safe in japan because it's way easier to find people and i'm also in a way more of a minority!

solution (broke): change my username

solution (woke): change my irl name

#* #*txt #*en #i like the name itself but it never stuck for me as one for my flesh and bone body iykwim #so im gonna go namehunting over the summer #its good timing since im graduating high school which means a mostly fresh start #fun fact i made this my username as a sort of gauge to see whether i like to be called akira #bc name tester sites dont really work for me. and arent in japanese #turns out i like it online and in japanese but not in english #english speakers pronounce it right challenge. but also be fucking normal about getting it slightly wrong challenge. #surprisingly my close friends tend to get the tone right #not the /ɾ/ tho </3 only my linguistics freak bestie can pronounce the alveolar tap #studying my friends under a microscope #(scribbling notes) the ones that get the tone right often pronounce it /l/ (english L) instead of /ɹ/ (american rhotic R)... #you can tell linguistics freak bestie make me a linguistics freak too

[faineant-girl]

okay fuck ive gotta talk more about ghost world so i can formulate my thoughts in a proper way so i dont sound like a fool tryinf to explain why i dont like this movie. so this is going under a read more but will start w a non spoiler tldr if you want the Thoughts but still wanna watch it blind

tl;dr, ghost world left a sour taste in my mouth. its a film about the world through the eyes of a cynical, mean teenage girl, which isnt even bad it’s just a film that’s a bummer and has almost no likeable characters in the end. lots of second hand embarrassment scenes and clenching while thinking “oh no” as a girl fresh out of high school does some fucked up things. the flow of the film is very odd too, it felt like they wanted the flow the comic had but i dont feel like that kind of storytelling works in a film format? that or the ppl who wrote this movie didnt do a great job adapting it. it just wasnt a film i had a good time watching, the most enjoyment i got out of it was the design of the setting/costuming and steve buscemi’s character in the first half of the film, although his character is soured by later events. keep in mind that im not someone who critiques movies often, and its been about a month since i saw ghost world, so my thoughts could be skewed or messy bc im misremembering the film. but as is, i dont think i could recommend ghost world.

so thats a lot, and but i mostly just wanna talk about characters. there are spoilers from now on, so read at your own discretion ya know. firstly, i dont like any of them. there’s about five named characters and i forget the names of two of them because they are barely in the movie. the important ones are enid, seymour, and rebecca. enid and rebecca have been best friends their entire lives, and have just graduated high school and are planning on moving in together. i do not like these two girls. and in all respects i dont think im supposed to? at least i hope not? they are very much “weird girl” tropes, theyre cynical and not like other girls and are cooler and smarter than their peers. and im conflicted because i get what its like to be like that. enid and rebecca act like how me and my friends acted in our freshman year of high school. however 1) i dont think this is an experience the writers were keeping in mind (but ill get to that later with seymour), and 2) it’s still not very pleasant to watch. which, fine, is a personal preference, and if it doesnt bother you then awesome, it makes me upset though and worsened the viewing experience. 

so that brings us to the character that disappointed me most of all, seymour. seymour starts out so good and really cute! enid and rebecca respond to a lonely heart’s article he puts out in the paper as a joke, but enid feels drawn towards him and their dynamic is really unique and sweet initially. they bond about old records, and enid helps to try and get seymour out of the house and meeting people his own age! and she succeeds, seymour meets a sweet lady who he likes and it wouldve been so cool if this was the end of their story but it isnt. to bite the bullet, seymour is into enid and ends up sleeping with her. and it drives me crazy because no one whose watched this film nor the film itself sees this as creepy. like, enid is 18 and seymour is implied to be over 30. its something thats “technically” not illegal or whatever but it’s just... so nasty! so gross! and this is where i bring the writers into this because this isn’t something that was adapted from the books! seymour is a very minor character in the comic, and one of the writers said he put a lot of himself into seymour. so like... im not trying to imply anything, i dont want to do that, but it so unfortunate that it happened because there was another romance that was also set up (enid and one of the characters whose name i cant remember) between enid and somewhere her age, but was written out so enid could get with seymour. and like.... the narrative is critical of this and punishes seymour, but not for the reason it should, ya know? like after the night, seymour gets fired from his job for a different reason and he gets beat up after looking for enid. then enid sees him andd fuckin!! apologizes to him!!!!! and the narrative is like “no thats right, she should apologize”..... its so nasty and weird and it makes me weirded out that ive seen nothing criticizing it! everyone talking about them ships them and thinks theyre a cute could and i just. sighs.

sorry im so fired up about this, its just so weird to me... ghost world is ultimately a film that makes me uncomfortable, and i know its supposed to in some ways (its a “black comedy”, i guess) but its just not a film i want to watch again and one i dont recommend others watch if this sounds even the least bit unappealing. uh i dont have any recommendations for other films to watch instead, and i beg you to take this with a grain of salt. like i said before, im no critic and i might be misremembering the movie, i havent wanted to watch it again to solidify my thoughts i suppose (plus it was taken off of tubi so i dont really have a legal way of watching it), so yeah. i didnt like ghost world

#.tlktxt #yeah ugh okay. yeah maybe ghost world is a skip. justa bit. all the acting is just fine like the skill of the filmmaking is Good. #but whats inside.......... well it was just not very enjoyable me thinks! #honestly if you want a different cute buscemi role try ed and his dead mother #its the most b movie of all time and has issues of its own but it didnt leave me feeling bad like ghost world did PLUS #buscemi is extremely cute as ed. so. theres that #i dont have any other recommendations though </3 im sorry #sorry for this long ass post thats probably not very comprehensible. im not gonna read over it #if you have like other questions then u can shoot me an ask or like a dm. #AGAIN. IM NO FILM EXPERT. im just some 18 yr old whose into steve buscemi. #but i know when i like movies and when i dont and i! didnt like ghost world. okay sorry im done now goodnight