#kinda fucked me up i'm ngl ☹

[kkujo]

school is so weird... you see the same people in the same building five days a week for the best part of a decade and even if you're not friends you know their names and faces... and then one day school ends and you just. leave. and never see most of them again ☹

#thinking about all the people who touched my life who i'll never see again #wondering about my impact #do people ever think about me #the guy who would play chess with me at lunch when my friend group started excluding me.. #the girl who came and sat with me at prom to watch the firework display even though we'd never spoken before because i was sitting alone.. #the way people impact you and then they're just gone forever. sickening #but people are kind and good. like. i have faith in humanity #there were mean people too obviously but. there's always kindness #anyways just thinking about that. like. the people i grew up with. i wasn't friends with most of them but we watched each other grow #some of the people in my class had been in the same classes as me since we were 4 ☹ and then one day you're grown up and they're gone #that prom thing was important to me tho bc prom night was literally the last time i saw everyone #bc i finished my exams the week before so. aside from going in to pick up my results #prom night was the last time everyone in my year was together ☹☹ and then i just never saw anyone again #i hated school but i miss it so much. most confusing nostalgia ever #i didn't want to be there and i was so happy when i finished and i wouldn't go back if i could #but it hurts bc i missed out on so many experiences and just being around people.. i miss it #starting college (uk college not university) in september so maybe i'll be able to heal a bit #bc getting sick and dropping out of school ☹ being stuck in toxic friend groups and never having proper teenage experiences ☹ #kinda fucked me up i'm ngl ☹ #(no surprises by radiohead playing) no it's fine. it's fine #the way you spend so long in one place... with the same people... and then it's just gone. fuck 🤦‍♀️ #even if you didn't like the place or the people... it aches in such a weird way omg.. #i literally couldn't drive past my school for a bit bc. i used to get up at 7am & go there every day. and now i don't. does this make sense #ok to rb

[thechaoticplayer]

Would You Rather (Angst Edition)

Get Cheated on By Boothill (Robin Did it) or Be left all alone in the rain while Hex Haywire is holding hands with another student

Break up with Luca vecause of the dangers of his position or Be a Sacrifice to Vox Akuma knowing he'll hate himself for it

OMG ANGST VERSION YESYESYEYEYSYS I LOVE YOU ANON

Get cheated on honestly bc at the end of the day he lost not me 🤷‍♀️ ngl I think they're kinda cute together 😭😭😭 also theres a very handsome gambler or sexy general that I could go along and have fun with ;]

OH BITCH HOW COULD U THIS ONE HIT A LITTLE TOO HARD NO THIS ACTUALLY HURTS BC I LOVE LUCA BUT I ADORE VOX TOO THATD BE SO SAD URGHHHHH RIPS HAIR OUT

....☹☹☹☹☹☹☹

Fuck I cant decide I'm literally staring at the luxiem pictures I put on my wall in agony 😭😭😭😭😭

Bc like I'd be willing to go thru the dangers for Luca but I also dont want Vox to hate himself either bc hes so sweet 😭😭😭😭

GAHTDAMMIT

Ok upon further speculation as I tried not to break down whilst doing my eyelashes, I decided to go with breaking up with Luca bc I dont want to love him only to lose him 😭😭😭😭 like we can still be friends but itd KILL me if he were to die in my fucking arms kinda the same idea with Vox (sacrificing myself) so yeah 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#chaotic.text #Poor torture #Brutul for the last one #I love these sm these r so fun #Ty anon for entertaining me and causing my to blink my eyes rapidly as I try not to have mascara running down my face