#levi be like: i respect all loss of identity. but I PERSONALLY hate to lose. give me myself back

[maegalkarven]

"Durge came back different", "Durge didn't really come back", "the person who Durge originally was is dead" are all good takes, but what if.

If Durge came back exactly as they were? The brain damage, additional trauma and memory loss are the big altering factors, but underneath that it's still them.

They didn't change drastically, their former self is not dead.

How about one single fragile mortal soul still keeping a hold on itself, how about Durge who was never allowed anything for themselves still retaining them.

How about Durge who has lost everything: power, memories, purpose, sense of self, still being themselves, despite it all.

How about not even Orin's daggers, tadpole and Bhaal combined being able to rob them of their core? How about all of that just revealed who Durge has always been underneath all those expectations Father dearest put on them?

How about: "After all this time, it's still you."

#the dark urge #durge #dark urge #listen all these dead past selfs and loose of identity is fine and all #but i personally can't stand it because give me “me” back #give me who I am #i don't want redemption fuck your clean slate #give me the only thing I could ever dare claim as my own. return myself to me #@withers maybe SOME losers would lose their mind seeing the attocities Durge has commited. Levi is better tho. give him all of his memories #and give them NOW #levi is not a different person #not even june is a different person #it's still them how they have always been at their core #it's not regression it's not stagnation it's growing and changing #but staying yourself #levi SO recovers all of his memories #fuck what some old dude with bad hiring skills says his memories aren't lost. nothing ever truly is #june accidentially gets curses with having his memories back #maybe don't piss off powerful entities bby #levi be like: i respect all loss of identity. but I PERSONALLY hate to lose. give me myself back

[darkcitrin]

 gruvia

Hi, there is a reason I was not able to write about it again.

This canon ship and canon Juvia are indeed like water, being almost impossible to grasp. How can one analyse things without consistency and shape? I guess by getting wet and all-embracing since every concrete scene analysis will be counter able by other scenes.

Additionally, Hiros Mashimas established definition of “love” within the franchise makes it also really difficult to argue anymore within this universe…

at the same time it demolished also any value ability of this series, meaning and morality which it may had hold for the real world so far but ok he was willing to pay this price to find an ultimate plot excuse for his poorly execution of his story and  characters towards the end, while he was overworked by three big projects and travelling, leaving him not even time to think and to conclude his masterpiece appropriately .

A refresher for all, his definition of love would be that one can only truly love somebody if one wants the best for this person despite hating this person for other character sides  or due to actions he or she did in the past.

This definition was established when Marvis was saving the “life” of her sexual abuser who threatened humanity and worse and pretty much now justifies Nalu, Gruvia, Jerza who may be to some extend abusive ships…...

It was a newly made definition and contradicts the previously established love definition throughout the series.

Love was previously a feeling of home, acceptance, friendship, support, understanding, despite how strong you are, where you come from or how beneficial you were, as established not only within the guild the members towards their master, family, friends

Lucys love for her guild based on these experiences was stronger than towards her own father who provided her everything except enough love since he was still grieving about the loss of her mother and who even wanted to determine her partnership.

Ren and Sherry become a couple being compatible as fuck, Bisca and Alcsec the same, Gajeel fall in love with Levy rebuild a love relationship by scratch based on these values and oh boy their relationship is beautiful.

 In case of our other canon ships well lets only focus on gruvia

 Despite people interpreting the water prophecy different than I do, Gruvia was not really treated nicely at the beginning of the series

Juvia who experienced happiness in her life at the first time by meeting Gray thought she can obtain him and secure an eternity happiness by doing so. I selected the word obtain intentionally, since she was using it herself.

Her happiness resulted due to Grays kindness towards her.

To obtain Gray she offered him to protect him, and she started to try to monopolize him, which is seen at different covers as well.

It was shown that she didn t understand and cared for his will to protect other bonds. And sadly she didn t till the very end eventhough she stated differently. First she didn t understand his bond to Erza, Lucy, Lyon and at the End Natsu, being surprised that he would help Erza despite Erza being stronger than him or most others, Lucy by fighting even injured or hanging out with her eventhough he had now Juvia, his bond to Lyon was interpeted as lover instead as a brother, protecting Natsu against Zeref, was for her also really “new”. Simply put, she does not understand that he finds happiness by several people for her a monopolized lover is the key for happiness and there they are not compatible.And this is portrayed in media as if that would be the case contradicting the whole franchise most important message. 

( She reminds me of Pinocchio but she never received a more human becoming development) 

Furthermore she is portrayed as a real fangirl, not loving gray for who he is since she does not even know, ask, understands him but for what he did for her and later on also for others? There is even a scene she is dreaming gray up being different shonen characters she would all marry.

It is also not as if others would not have offered her to get a closer relationship to them… Juvia is just not interested in that.

 However, she claimed that fairytail was making her happy at the famous Cana Game Scene so she seemed to be pretty happy with them.

This scene is really important, aswell as the ova where she proved that she would trust Gray over his behaviour tricking everyone.

 These were scenes where I personally thought it could develop into sth but these were the only exceptions... so ... yeah he let me down even there I guess. 

 Juvia was willing to change to get Grays affection also willing to lose her identity and self independency since being dependent of gray would mean being together with him, as fighting partner or as a person he has to protect now. (I rather preferred her when she said she was stronger than him and wanted to protect him, but well I guess she is not really just fine to love him only as she putted it and wants to feel loved..... by heroic harmful ways like he did for the others... male authors have a really war time driven love declaration definition)

 So what is the problem… “it is fucking crazy that a person is doing that” ( Grays wording), however is she a person or is she water indeed… which can produce blood conveniently ….. Can one expect her even to behave like a human?

 Yes to not be alone is nice but well she did not give him really an option to chose somebody else and then it got a habit…… is this really love?

Well maybe

I mean I would also love my dog, for eating my left overs and following me around and being there if I am sad losing my dad

 To be in a relationship, maybe intending to get a family together and to live together 24 h a day

In my regard not enough 

I at least would like to have a partner who respect my boundaries, knows me, supports me how I need support and not how my partner thinks what I would need

I would like to be also a friend of my partner and I would like to have friends beside this partner.

But ok, I also have a different definition of love, love as a feeling of extreme friendship, trust, understanding, comfort and would love to be equal partners playing together the game called life

 But oh well this is just a realistic healthy relationship goal I have and I thought and assumed Gray would as well by acting like a rather normal nice person which seemed to have changed suddenly to make way for the next generation, how lovely

 However, this is fiction and the words and scenes of the all mighty author are inviolable

Except maybe if he would contradict himself.

Or if he would have admitted that he hadn’t enough time to think things though and would have said that he would have rushed things or if mistakes like scar positions and plot inconsistency may exist

 oh wait let me check

He did and they do

 Oh well, I guess it is ok then, to post this

 And in case people are using a certain flashback scene as contra argument…. 

For my part at least, I do not trust Juvias imagination, wording and memories, and by looking at canon material I wonder if you would

 How exactly is it nice to throw water slicer at lucy and gray in in the police ft spinoff an attack which destroyed the avatar girl in the avatar arc  ? Only because he prevented Lucy to fall and hurt herself?

Juvia really evolved into a better person hasn’t she

(can contain sarcasm)

#anti gruvia