#like. sometimes people tell me 'you write so viscerally' and I'm like. buddy I'm gonna take your word for it :D

[flowercrowngods]

I'm taking your post as permission to poke and prod and say, 'you can do it!'

Don't let this chapter kick your butt, you got this!!

it's kicking my butt :( it really, really is

#thank you friend I appreciate you so much 🤍🥺😭 #but I'm really losing. and I refuse to yield but GOD with every sentence there's another thing I should be writing instead because #there is so much going on inside his head and there's flashbacks there's memories there's fear there's focus there is trauma #there is obsessive thoughts. so many of them now. he's spiralling but GOD so am I and I cannot make sense of it. or make nonsense of it #in a way that's like clever and fun to read and GOD fucking dammit why is trauma like that? why is terror like that and fucking-- #like. sometimes people tell me 'you write so viscerally' and I'm like. buddy I'm gonna take your word for it :D #but now I'm like I literally cannot breathe trying to write this. and I know I dont have to but I *wanna* #*sigh* I'm being so dramatic legit it's not even that deep probably (or that good in the end) but!!! my heart hurts and my throat is closed #up. clogged. just 800 disjointed jumbled words in and. god. yeah. no. I'm losing actually

[nuwildcat]

70, 55, 40, 14!!! 💖

AHDRI, My love and silence buddy!! You ask such excellent questions and I shall abide.

70. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

Depends on the person. Obviously in the online community I love chatting about writing and characters. If I find the right kind of nerdy person in person (lol) I will absolutely geek out with them and have a bonding moment where writing can come up. Generally though I don't tend to share with others what type of writing I do.

55. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

I truly enjoy writing Porsche, he's just a sassy little shit that is a blast to get into the head of. He gets people, so well sometimes, and yet can't see how people and politics interact more often then not. It drives me crazy. But he's also unpredictable, what I might have thought he will do in a scene doesn't end up panning out because part of Porsche's nature is to be really reactive in the moment. That's completely different from me, which can sometimes come as a surprise when I am writing scenes from his perspective.

As for the second question, I don't think so? Porsche is rather beloved in the fandom, even if he is a himbo, so that probably influences it a lot. But I don't think that I would change even if that sentiment were to shift. These characters have really been lodged in my brain and I've spent a long time thinking about them and how the interact with others, that at this point I'm attached permanently!

40. If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

Okay so full disclosure I cheated on this one cause I wrote a fic based off this absolute gem by @moerusai and I have no ragrets.

Sooo, it's almost like I have some already! But I would love to see Kinn and Porsche kitted out in their full drive suit look for Echoes in My Dreams. That would, honestly, there aren't words for how awesome that would be. It would be a good look on them I just know it.

There also may have been a promise from @mortimerlatrice that there would be fanart in exchange for a Big/Tay fic... I'm gonna go ahead and get this one documented to make it happen!

14. How do you write emotional scenes? Do you ever feel what the characters feel? Do you draw from personal experiences?

Hooo buddy, it depends on the kind of emotional scene. I think when I'm writing something that is coming from a place of anger, hurt, or confusion, I really channel the emotions through myself and into the characters. These are especially raw emotions in my opinion and they have a physical tole on the body. So when I write them into a scene I can feel myself react to it.

Now, more positive interactions are more like a movie in my head being played out while narration goes through the whole thing. I can see the emotions that the characters are feeling in the moment and try to translate those through the narration into the scene. This ends up being a lot more intellectual than visceral for me.

Overall I think for the more dramatic scenes I really try to have a good fleshed out plan in place, but I also let the scene go where it naturally flows. Sometimes the emotions get in the way for a character and they aren't ready to do what I thought they should do then. This can throw wrenches into my outlines (and lets not talk about word count) but it feels more natural. As for writing from experience, absolutely, especially when describing the physical reactions that characters have. The feel of your cheeks burning as you get more heated in an argument, that weight in your stomach as you dread something, even the warm fuzzy feeling that a good hug can give you all come from my own reactions and experience.

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