#long story short i was very famous on yandere tumblr and insta bc i was very unwell in the head

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lore dropping in the tags because! uhm

#┈ ✴ ﹙rambling﹚ #habit lore drop!! #my tag for lore drops bc i have experienced life altering mental illness #but the obsessive murderous hannigram dynamic is doing the opposite of wonders for my recovering brain #i had this whole delusion (question mark? idk if thats the right word but idk what it was but its never been addressed by anyone but me #long story short i was very famous on yandere tumblr and insta bc i was very unwell in the head #i could write a whole paper about irl yanderes bc being in there u learn its nothing like the stereotype of irl yanderes #but its just a lot of unstable people in an echo chamber #honestly most dont mean any harm its just a venting method tbh.. but w the aesthetic and japanese origin ppl will say ur being problematic #or whatevs #idrc this is not the point #i loooove to give way too much unnecessary context #BUT ANYWAYS #hannigram would have been like. the blueprint relationship for me #like now i can appreciate it as a ship separate from myself as a real person #but idk especially with the origami heart body in season 3 like its stirring smth up in me #and i nono wanna relapse #but like how do u not relapse into a state of mind? #and idek what it was like officially bc on paper theres nothing wrong with me #i became a whole different person and no one around me noticed?? i was so toxic and awful to be around bc i had this dark cloud over me #but nobody knows nobody knows and it weighs on me i was so awful not even to be edgy but bc i was having these awful urges #idk where im going with this im just lore dropping now #im going to stop #i need to speak to a professional but i could never tell anyone this #tldr hannigram makes smth in my brain itch that has been dormant for like two years and i want it to stay sleeping #bc if it wakes up and i go insane again idk if i will survive it