#maybw i havent grown up and thats the problem

[thegreatgatzbi]

6am vent post here we gooooo

#sometimes. i really miss Before Times #i miss feeling like i knew who i was #even if i was living with an abusive parent and miserable in school i at least knew who i was #i knew and spent tine talking to people who i felt knew me #i miss those people #i miss staying up till 4am with my best friend talking about bullshit and forgetting how miserable life was #just for thise few hours i felt so happy #i dont know if ill ever feel like that again #maybe its just nostalgia for bwing a teenager when shit was simpler #but we're all grown up now and have our own real lives in person and dont talk as much #and im... still at home #at my computer all day. desperately speaking to people that no longer exist #well they do but not as they did. i love them all still #but its not how it was back then #and i miss it #maybw i havent grown up and thats the problem #maybe getting away from my mom and being safe has regressed me to when i realized i was being abused #idk #vent