#meanwhile you KNOW matt is out there agonizing over it every single day lmao

[interstellarity]

i’m having harper feels (like, more than the usual amount lol) and i keep thinking how much i want a post-war reunion fic from his perspective BUT it follows him right from the moment he and matt say goodbye on the tarmac. i love all our reunion fics but so far, all of them are from matt’s perspective where harper just shows up at some point and i want to know about the things that led up to that moment! we know he gets three weeks leave, so i assume he goes back to the states where he has.....to kind of formalize his break-up with anne (i mean, we all agree on that, right?) so instead of, like, taking a break and recharging, he gets to deal with calling off an engagement and move his stuff out of their apartment (it wouldn’t really be fair to make her move out since he’s not even living in the states rn) and spend the time crashing on some army buddy’s couch. and the weird thing is he doesn’t even mind that much? it’s slightly awkward and inconvenient as fuck, but he’d known for a while that their relationship had run its course, so he’s been kind of coming to terms with that for some time. and so he’s in this weird limbo, not really knowing what to do with himself, almost wishing he were to go back already, and the one thing that really is a constant? it’s thinking about matt. and so he kind of spends three weeks itching to call him and not knowing if it’s too soon or what he would even say, and it’s not like they ever really talked about it either. so in the end he doesn’t, figures that if he still wants to when he’s back properly, well, then that’s a different story. figures that showing up, then fucking off again for months would do more harm than good. so he kind of puts it all on hold and goes to finish his tour and manages to not even think about it all that much. but then the very fucking day he’s back for good he picks up the phone and dials the number he’s got through the army directory and hears matt’s voice, and it feels like no time has passed at all.

#i'm so soft for them #meanwhile you KNOW matt is out there agonizing over it every single day lmao #making a throwaway for r/relationship_advice going #he (26) told me (m 21) he's going to 'see [me] on the other side of the berm' #does that mean he's going to call me or should /i/ call /him/???? #(he's currently only available via sat phone) #james harper #sand castle #sand castle 2017 #jamesmatt #otp: ours to have #durbanspeaks