#mobius double reachagender

[jojotier]

thinking about the mental gymnastics I was bending in as a baby trans firmly in his egg and how it got expressed through that one Dave Strider trying on a dress oneshot I wrote when I was 15. Dave insisting theyre not trans or anything while two words later saying that they need to get it together and "stop subtly cringing at the word boy". "even though he was a boy (that's what he was born as, right?)" the constant thought of Bro as some specter of toxic masculinity and by extension transmisogyny. Describing the feeling of looking at themself in the dress as like when theyre wearing suits "but cooler somehow". Its 2k words of repression incarnate topped off with an authors note that reads "I am a cis person". By god my shell was so goddamned thick. Anyway transfem Dave superiority

#homestuck #dave strider #just looking back through that fic bc it was babys first trans story and man #some things suddenly make SO much sense about how i wrote that gkzkgkslkfks #in a hilarious turn of events though my relationship with masculintiy was super messed up meaning it took me a while to realize #i was actually a man! #a really effeminate man specifically! #wild how that works #mobius double reachagender