#my (ex!?) bf was like i am drowning i need to find land i refuse to bring you down with me bc neither of us are very good swimmers

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#fucked that instead of being like #i am drowning there is no sign of land u are coming down with me hand in unlovable hand #my (ex!?) bf was like i am drowning i need to find land i refuse to bring you down with me bc neither of us are very good swimmers #and broke up with me (for now!!!!!!) in order to better himself so that he feels he deserves to be happy #and i'm still so upset about it. we still love each other we're still best friends #and the love is there the love has always been there. but it just has to be put on hold until he is better #and feels he is able to be in a relationship #i am being as mature and supportive as i can be but inside i hate it and i miss him and it hurts so much that we're not a couple now #we are still going to see each other occasionally. he's coming to my bday and my poetry launch #and we're still going to his sisters wedding together #and i know almost certainly that this isn't actually the end of us #so why does it still hurt so much !!!!!!!!!! #i love him !!!!!!! he's my person !!!!!! we were gonna get married !!!!!! #sigh