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Seen this today .. usually skip quotes but this spoke to me ..

Love your self .. the rest will follow

No regrets.. just lesson learned

Noted .

[swagneckpatrolstudent]

Seen this today .. usually skip quotes but this spoke to me ..

Love your self .. the rest will follow

No regrets.. just lesson learned

Noted .

[swagneckpatrolstudent]

Excuse my dirty ass laptop .. I have child 😂.

GOOD MORNING!!! 😃

Todays blog is soo personal ... I took these pictures btw .. mustard up the courage to actually walk into a cafe so that I could work .. it took me 3 hours but I did it 😭😭😭 DPWHERRR ! Period 😂🤌🏾

I’ve become so afraid of the outside world ... the thought of even looking out the window make my stomach hurt .. this is something I need people to understand because I’m literally EXHAUSTED! I’m tired .. it hurts

It’s come to the point where I don’t even allow my kid to go outside because .. I’m mad pussy the end Lmfaoo . My day to day life consists of over thinking and worrying so much so that I constantly ask our higher power to just take me with her already why allow me to suffer ?

Anyways lately I’ve been trying to fight it and be positive, to stop being what people want and be who I am, to stop allowing what ever tf is wrong with me to prevail and ruin me completely.. it starts with me .. my kid can’t be who she want too be with a punk ass mom behind her ..

A few ways this thing has negatively impacted me? Thought you’d never ask😂

- my work 🤦🏾‍♀️ I get so nervous when it’s time to meet clients I literally cry and cancel and boom now I’m broker than what I was yesterday

- my though process .. it’s hard for me to think straight or sometimes at all .. I was never this slow 😭

- my social life ?? THERE IS NO SOCIAL LIFE BIH !

- my faith 😬 .... Yeahh Lmfaoo next

-my parenting .. this will make me cry so yeah next x2

I’m not who I used to be .. fearless , confident, a bomb ass mother .. im somebody else

But I think this trial is for me to find out who I really am and then become her ..

Im literally balling my eyes out .. Have a great day ..

#mentally ill #Period #selfish #Kaelani

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I have no picture for todays blog .. a lesson I’ve learned the hard way is that you can be up one second and down another if you aren’t properly managing your life ..

I hate my life lmfaooo

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No anxiety no nothing I’m lit .. I’m content

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I have this weird thing going on where it’s like I’m insecure but confident??? Or shy but confident ?? Idk lol I know that Im that bitch I know I’m pretty Af and look good af and there’s no one else like me cause YEAAAHH ! But on the other hand it’s like I know I can be better I know in can LOOK better I know my body isn’t ideal I know my nose is ugly and alllat .. it’s weird as hell. Like if I know Im looking sooo fine I get bad anxiety and I shy away and try to belittle myself in a way because I don’t want anyone to think I’m conceded when I shouldn’t be because they see the flaws and shit . Idk it’s weird 😒🥴

I always tell my self daily ! Almost like a ritual “It is all in your head JAZMINE ain’t nobody looking at you , they ain’t stuntin you” and then go on about my day where I receive complements out the ass🥲

#body #bodies #Kaelani0

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My nails tech did my nails and sells these rings 😍😍

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Cheers

#dontletmomfindout