#my cat usually isnt allowed in my room bc he Will play with chords or break things but hes been sleeping in my room for days

[sunnyvaler]

y’all ever experience the smallest thing and just have a breakdown

#just sat on the floor w my cat for 20 minutes crying and pleading him to stop trying to play bc its midnight and i just want to sleep #he of course continued to attempt to play with every chord in my room the entire time #and i just. realized how fucking exhausted i am in general #to go straight from a very stressful exam season to being bombarded with two practically strangers living with us for a week has been Rough #my cat usually isnt allowed in my room bc he Will play with chords or break things but hes been sleeping in my room for days #bc hes too scared to leave my room w these guys in the house and Same Here i dont leave my room unless i have to #and its. so emotionally draining and there’s nothing i can do about it and i cant start to emotionally recover until theyre gone #and thats not for? another day or two #so i have stuff planned over the next few days with family members i can barely stand being around because its more comfortable #than being in my own home and like what the fuck #i moved out to stop feeling trapped but this feels so much worse than living with my mum did and im so stressed out all the time #i dont know them and i dont like them and not being able to walk around in my own house or go to the kitchen fucking sucks #i thought they were gonna be staying at a hotel but i discovered the night they got here that they werent #so its just. all been so much that i was unprepared for #and my cats constant fear and anxiety (and the way they dont care ab it/ignore it) is making me so anxious and stressed #bc i dont want to do anything that makes him anxious or stressed but him being in my room 24/7 is stressing me the fuck out #bc it makes even my room feel Invaded and like. i dont mind the cat being in my room obviously #but he’s in my room AND stressed and jumping around on things he knows hes nto allowed on because he knows i wont kick him out #and i am just about at my fucking limit i shouldnt have to be avoiding existing in my own home #and i shouldnt be feeling stressed and anxious about having to go to the bathroom orkitchen #and its not at all the fault of either of my roommates like. One of them has been brilliant she has but. i dont think the other has noticed #at all that im uncomfortable or that i dont leave my room #i dont think eh cares tbh bc hes the one entertaining the guests all the time so like i dont blame him i just. #its only the guys in the house tonight and i am fucking stressed #i just want them to leave so i can feel at home in my own house again #i think its a big part of why im not here too i am just. constantly overwhelmed and overstimulated by their mere existence #bc they are Loud and i cant even close my bedroom door bc of the cat #im just. fucking exhausted but theres nothing i can do bc i Know im in the wrong for this #bonus round: i think my roommate just let the cat out without a collar on which. only makes me more annoyed and upset i can not win here #anyone else exists in this house rn and i am Annoyed im just so overstimulated and overwhelmed i can not do this