#n he was like u dont gotta say sorry abt venting abt smth like this

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god i wish i wasnt at work

#txt #the only people who rly get th full story are the oeople reading these #i called pete last night to bitch and moan abt this n i cldnt stop apologizin #n he was like u dont gotta say sorry abt venting abt smth like this #n i was like bro u gotta realize tht i vent to No One Ever rly #not abt th real stuff #cos i feel immense guilt sharing any undesirable feelings ykno #i was raised 2 bury all my thots n feelings deep n my soul n then let them die there #unless its a oroblem i have With a person #ill talk to them abt it cos communication is important to me #but #itherwise?????? #emotions come 2 me 2 die n whither away n my hollowed out chest #ive been dissociating all day n i cant feel real n i think im dying