#ndndjd nah just ignore

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#rant time take a sit #ndndjd nah just ignore #so i have this thing that might be considered a problem #or not #that sometimes i wake up and go #oh! today feels like a good day to finish every relationship i have with everyone (except my ..4 relatives n 1 stable friend #and i do? #and like..why? #then i usually regret some of those things #but what surprises me the most is that it looks like #ppl still remember my existence?? jdndjdn this must sound stupid but its so weird #and like lately friends and teammates i had in archi have been finding a way to communicate either sms or calling or mail.. #why.. #would u talk to me again dont u see im sht its not worth it #and i want to answer cause i miss some of them but i feel bad and i simply dont understand why someone woukd talk to me again #that's smth i got super scared of doing when i started meeting ppl here cause i dont want to dissapear again idek why i do it #cause its never personal??its just me running away #but its really shitty and selfish of me #idek where im going anymore..... #anw theres a friendship that i lost because of this and i think abt it almost everyday and thats smth that has kind of ..taught me the roug #way that if one day i do this again its gonna hurt like hell for no reason other that im just fucked up in the head and i cant have stable #relationships and smth also smells like abandonment issues and some things related to childhood #idk man i hate it here #bomtalk #dl