lmao the replay value in this game is insane sometimes. ishida/towada were being silly with this dialogue
yeah I bet you're right, neji
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this scene had a beautiful CG but this is the line that actually gut punched me. mitsuki's whole arc is about vulnerability and trust, metaphorically shown through the way he always sets boundaries by dressing in private, displayed in the way he is taking down his own emotional walls of his own accord for this one person but is hurt through the process, and emphasized by how kisa herself is bound to her secret and cannot return that trust back to him.
it is unfair and yet he always makes the effort to go back to the status quo. "no I was in the wrong, just give me a moment to collect myself, I will maintain this relationship even if that means accepting that I can't be relied on with some things and moving past the hurt this causes me. we will steer this relationship back to safer boundaries. I will be okay. please wait for me."
their relationship is written in such a tender, intimate way too and it's just. it hurts, but it's lovely
and I'm not really on his route so I'm doing his events a bit late, so there's this extra hurt of all of this happening in my playthrough while neji gives quartz the meanest casting he's ever done and he puts a lot of responsibility on mitsuki as the al jeanne? AND it's winter, a terrible season for singers? my boy is stressed
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like. there's something to be said about kisa as a player surrogate and kisa as an actor and how she does have her own personality and is her own character but the role she plays within and outside of the game's story requires her to be malleable, and maybe it's that malleability that gives her both depth and shallowness. idk, idk, she's just fascinating. she could be so much more than what we got and she is so much more than what we got, for all the same reasons
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I have a whole essay in my head on how kisa and neji are the same people with the same problems but in different fonts... but I have to wait until I actually do neji's route (which will be... a while) in case the game throws something at me that debunks this
but like. to me. they are the same though. kisa just has more People Skills and doesn't get the benefit of being seen through an outsider's perspective (unreliable narrator kisa my beloved, forced to be a self-insertable otome protagonist) (neji would also be an unreliable narrator if we're in his pov. but we aren't)
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I think mitsuki is my favorite character so far
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I was thinking the other day that man, kokuto neji is such a character and I haven't liked a writer character like this since... shang qinghua?
which naturally led me to this thought: jj fic with svsss-style au where neji transmigrates/gets isekai'd into the world of havenna. as domina, of course.
it's extra fucked up imo because at least when sqh transmigrated in his book, he made up all of those characters and they mostly stayed in the realm of fantasy. like, sure, lbh was kinda based on himself in some ways and mbj was his ideal fantasy, but they still mostly stayed fictional, you know? sqq (sy) had to fix his plots because the characters sqh wrote strayed too far from their original plotlines
but theater makes a fictional world a bit too real and personal, especially when you use real people as inspirations for your writing. with neji, he'd be looking at rukiora and see three different people (mitsuki acting as rukiora; rukiora who was written based on a younger version of neji; rukiora who is her own person in this weirdly real world of havenna). neji would see fugio and to him that is both sou acting as fugio and the fugio who grew up with poison flowers. miguel is both fumi and the guy who ran away from his neshiromi fields. the only constant would probably be chicchi. she is too much like kisa in that... well. neji didn't really have a backstory for chicchi. chicchi is a blank canvas just like kisa is as an actor.
anyway. yeah, very sv-style character arc where neji, much like shen yuan in sv, is forced to humanize the villain. except this villain was his creation and is also tied to a bunch of personal issues for neji that he Doesn't Want To Think About and also he doesn't? really understand the character he wrote tbh?
isn't art supposed to process your emotions for you!! why must he process these himself!!
can you imagine neji, who always casts himself as a seer of some sort (fortune teller, ushinoko) or someone who generally has some control over his future or his "creation" (who is mary if not just another side of neji anyway; she's takihime redux, and takihime is also. neji). imagine this dude being transported inside the play he wrote but he doesn't understand it and he has no control over it and everyone's acting both in character and out of character. he both knows and doesn't know these people. they're fictional but also... real? does he treat them as real people? is domina real? he wanted his actors to imbue parts of themselves into his characters. are these people really just characters from a script? are they his quartz classmates? is he allowed to even hope that that's the case?
it's both THE improv exercise of his dreams and also. a nightmare
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I deliberately try to censor some of my jj posting so as not to flood/overwhelm the search and tag (since it has a very, very small fandom). I don't mind people finding my posts though, but I'm just confused how they're finding them lol. specifically the njmtsks posting because... who even cares about njmts and njmtsks. maybe there's more of us out there than I thought??
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thinking njmtsks thoughts..........
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