#none of my business ahsjhsjs

[achilleslyre]

i think the fact that if i could have afforded uni i would be getting a classics degree and studying languages rn will forever haunt me…….. i actively mourn what could be so fucking bad.

#its just 😭😭 ik most ppl cant afgord it upfront #but i rlly dont have confidence in making enough after #wards to pay it off….. #specially with disability ect ect its just. idk it’s a scary thought putting myself out there soending so much and just failing #and i dont think i’ll ever get over the fact that i’m not formally studying classics or languages rn. #it makes me feel… like rlly sad and like im behind ect ect #even tho u dont need to go to uni ect ect i just. idk insee all my friends going and some of them getting fucking married (!?!) and its just #i feel like i let myself be left behind and like i’m going nowhere #ugh ugh sorry for little rant there i’m just….. kinda missing what i never had rn ig #oh that said tho im not jealous of the married thing. i think theyre crazy ajshsjsjsj we are far too young to be doing that rn but w/e its #none of my business ahsjhsjs #happy for them and hope it lasts and is good ect ect but #i do think theyre nuts. a little.