#not there...

[caffeinatedopossum]

I am once again missing people so much that my heart aches

#its been like 2-3 years since ive seen them and i still cant get over seeing pictures of them with their friends and im just #not there... #even pictures from the times we lived together. i just wasnt there #i wasnt there for them at all. i was living life like a ghost #i barely left my room #i could never go with them to concerts or restaurants or anything because they knew id get overwhelmed because of my autism and chronic pain #so i just... never got invited anywhere. that still happens now #makes my life feels so painfully empty sometimes #theres so much i want to do. so much i wanted to do #none of the people i miss are dead so why does it still hurt so much? i could talk to them again if i wanted #... but i really can't. i really can't #it wont be the same. we'll still never reconnect. it hurts so much my heart physically aches #i wonder if they ever think about me

[poor-boy-orpheus]

This website is just going to be a bunch of sad theatre kids all weekend...

#Broadwaycon #bwaycon #not there... #yay...

[littleblueblur-archive]

　

#I cannot find my tumblr crushes... WHY! #I'm looking in my Following Page #Not there... #Annoying! #OOC