#ofc you can always vpn those or something

[ritahayworrth]

there's currently a free japanese indie film festival being held online! all the films have subtitles in english, spanish (latin america), thai, indonesian, simplified chinese, and traditional chinese and the films are available to watch worldwide (except japan and some others depending on the movie):

bachiranun (2021)

tenzo (2019), not available in france, belgium, switzerland, korea

an artisan's legacy, tsunekazu-nishioka (2012)

lonely glory (2022)

hanagatami (2017), not available in china, us, canada, uk, and ireland

bon-uta, a song from home (2019)

and your bird can sing (2018), not available in korea, china, taiwan, us, and canada

hey! our dear don-chan (2022)

techno brothers (2023)

a muse never drowns (2022), not available in the netherlands, and canada

a girl in my room (2022), not available in korea, china, and taiwan

follow the light (2021)

the festival will be held until october 31, 2023 :))

#not sponsored or anything just thought y'all might be interested :)) #also what i mean is none of the films are available to watch online in japan because the film festival is in-person there #also i think the ones where films aren't available in certain countries is because they're also being shown at in-person festivals? #ofc you can always vpn those or something #reference #ok to rb #EDIT: turning off reblogs because the festival is over :)

[pekorosu]

some rambly thinky thoughts

warning for ch17 and 18 spoilers 

so i've finally figured out how to make the mangaone app work... turns out i had to use a vpn -_- apparently u can read a chapter in advance (ch18 in this case) but ofc some money has to be spent lol

anyway !!! wow! imma try not to go into too much detail but i need to dump my thoughts somewhere

we're finally getting into the enigma that's anonymous!!

i like that ch17 brings up how anon may seem distant or even emotionless to most ppl, but that's not entirely true. esp that shot of her expression when tchaiko mentions seichirou's condition, and the whole thing with tsubaki (👀) insisting anon is human too.

this eventually culminates in the next chp reveal:

anon: “i think i'm probably asexual.”

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kinda makes me go hmmmmm tho. since this is in jp, “asexual” doesn't quite have the same meaning as it would in english... in fact it's closer to what we would now consider “aromantic asexual”

further context:

“oh, an asexual... that’s having no interest in both romance and sex, wasn’t it?” “yes.”

(this isn’t an area i’m well-versed with but afaik "nonsexual/ノンセクシャル" is more commonly used to refer to those who do experience romantic attraction. seems like things are done a lil differently in jpn so yeah) 

i’m curious as to how the scanlators are gonna go about it. putting a lil note to clarify would be sufficient i guess. just worried it might worsen the already existing misconceptions of asexuality among english-speakers, haha. anon’s story does have more to do with not wanting to settle down in a romantic partnership as per societal expectations, instead preferring a solitary life (among other things... their aversion to labels seems to extend to their entire self imo). 

shrugs. anyway.

tchaiko & seichirou bring up the idea that perhaps what anon wants is to be “anonymous” (“you are nobody; just a ‘someone’ that no one knows, from somewhere”)... which triggers a “that’s it!!!!!” moment for anon. so they decide to ditch all labels and “become” that from then on. 

however, tchaiko thinks all they’ve done is attach a new label onto anon and wonders if that’s actually a good thing or not.

point. but hey, at least it’s a label that anon likes, right?

on the other hand, tasuku ponders if it's really possible to live in solitude, if anon truly doesn't get special feelings for anyone at all. thinks that yeah, being in love is painful but at least it beats being lonely.

ah yes, the usual but how can u possibly be happy without (romantic) love! 

*pats tasuku on the head* 

i’m sure anon isn’t lonely... after all y'all are there keeping them company :)

other things: 

- saki apparently got outed to her dad??? aaaaaaaaa i hope everything works out in the end *crosses fingers* 

in hindsight i wonder if the trash bag saki found in front of the lounge is like... foreshadowing or smth o_o it did take up half a page...

- wow tsubaki has been hanging out at the lounge a LOT... guess he’s an official member now lmao. unfortunately ch18 ends ominously with his dad dropping by on business matters, only to find him there.

at this point my gut feeling is pretty much yelling into a megaphone: THIS KID IS BI OR I’M GONNA EAT MY SHOE!!! 

or at least, questioning in some way.

i mean, you could say that he's there so often bc he's a curious kid/growing ally but that doesn't explain why he keeps making random flirty faces at tasuku even tho he’d been all "lol gays are gross" before. 

(??? is "flirty" even the right word? is he making fun of tasuku? we don’t fucking know!!!! he always looks a lil creepy tho idk if that’s intentional or what /sweats)

there’s also haruko going "u must be popular" and him specifically bringing up "yea especially with the girls" before doing the weird thing he does at tasuku again... like... WHY DRAW ATTENTION TO THAT IF IT'S MEANINGLESS? ya okay i guess he could just be being mean on purpose but ughhhhhhhhhhh

tbh the reason i started having this suspicion was actually a few chps back during tsubaki's chat with anon:

"what are you? a lesbian? an ex-guy? ex-girl?" 

"what about you? are you a girl? a guy? or gay?"

i dunno, something about the duality here just stood out to me. girl/guy. gay/lesbian.

and now with this aseku reveal it feels like it could be juxtaposing anon vs tsubaki in the "neither/none" vs "both/all" sense. to me, both of them have a sort of similar vibe in that can’t-be-pinned-down way... but they’re also different?? IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT ARGH

ofc these things could be an indicator of him being closeted with a good dollop of internalised homophobia as opposed to being bi per se. i mean, tasuku did mention tsubaki's tears felt similar to his own when he'd still been deathly afraid of admitting he's gay.

eehhhhhhhh i could end up being absolutely honkingly WRONG and i would be embarrassed as hell but y’know. gut feeling. IDK idk idk. whatever it is, it will likely be clarified in the next chapter aaaaaaaaaa

lastly: i wonder if anyone knows what the whole jumping off a building/walking mid-air imagery anon keeps making ppl see symbolises o_o

#shimanami tasogare #peko tls #oops got longer than expected #alrdy edited but i initially typed out the first draft #switching around between he/she/they pronouns for anon without even realising it... #which i think means the author has done a great job portraying them as Ambiguous :x