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#on the bright side i listened to mer sketiana's advice and got some allays and they. help.
dubiouslexism
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not to be a freak but i have no clue what i'm supposed to want to do for my birthday
#it's my 21st
#and it's supposed to be a big deal i guess
#it's a week away now
#and literally all i can think is that my mom is going...
#i was going to write is going to die
#she already passed. she already passed. it's august second 2022
#it'll be my first year without her
#she was in the hospital last year and i thought she wouldn't remember bc she was struggling with the months
#kept saying it was june
#and then the first thing she said was happy birthday to me
#i remember. i don't know when. i can't remember when. but she said for my 21st we'd go to vegas
#and play black jack in the swimming pools
#i just want to wake up and this past year was an elaborate nightmare
#even if i wake up and it's still august 2021 and she's still in the hospital
#at least she's still here
#goddamn it i made myself cry
#i just feel so lost and disconnected
#on the bright side i listened to mer sketiana's advice and got some allays and they. help.
#somehow they help
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