#oof i relate to rue a little too much

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hello, i'm happy to report that i took a nap and woke up to find a streaming site that had the euphoria season finally on it. i am no longer seizing and foaming at the mouth :)

just kidding i have so much shit to say <3

spoilers under the cut!!

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HELLO?? HELLO DID ANYONE SEE THAT???? FUCKING-

OKAY OKAY OKAY ORGANIZATION UM

FUCK

FIRST OFF, FAYE, SWEETIE, I KNEW YOU WOULD COME THROUGH!! THANK YOU FOR THE BIMBO REPRESENTATION LAKSDHFGHKL I LOVE YOU AND AM GIVING YOU A KISS ON THE FOREHEAD MWAH <33

NOW IN MORE SOMBER NEWS

Ashtray :(

the way,,, they way fez is out here shouting about how he's just a kid and how they shouldn't shoot made me fucking sob

I was never the type of fan to scream and cry over fez and ash akdfhghk i like them, they're chill and likeable, but there are so many more interesting characters to focus on?? characters with more depth????

at the end of the day i think people liked them because they aren't as problematic as the others and because they're not that complex like say cassie rue and jules but laksdhgfhk oof just because i thought people were hyping them up too much didn't mean that i wanted them to die 😭😭😭😭

maybe it's for the better tho lmao what's this show without a little drama-

uM OKAY NOW ONTO HOW THIS EPISODE DID JULES SO DIRTY

ELLIOT IS OUT HERE WITH AN ENTIRE SONG (WHICH I WILL GET TO) AND SHE GETS A FEW HOOTS IN THE AUDIENCE AND A TWENTY SECOND SCENE WHERE SHE SAYS TWO LINES AND GETS LEFT ALONE IN AN AUDITORIUM

Like no okay Rue was right for walking away, she really does need to focus on herself but fuck man,,,, I hate elliot <33 His little song is stupid and the rhyme scheme could have been made by an eight grader alskdhgfhkl please 💀

Also is Rue not a lesbian?? Why was I expecting elliot to try and make out with her during that scene alskdfhhk i didn't want it to happen but god did i think it was gonna go there-

this entire season has people acting like that special episode with rue didn't happen btw and that pisses me off so much?? she's literally like cassie in the sense that she's so heavily reliant on male validation. the only difference is she was seeking male validation so she could conquer femininity and have people see her as a woman (smth most euphoria viewers probably can't relate to) and cassie was doing it to fill the hole her dad left in her life (smth they can probably relate to lmao shit dads are everywhere)

am i saying a lot of the hate jules gets is because of transphobia yes exactly u got it and i'm correct, she would not be getting this much shit if she was cis because then her issues with male validation would be like cassie's and thus more relatable but apparently no one is ready for that take ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

from an objective perspective tho oof elliot's song took up way too much time still and he had the audacity to say he was still working on it???? babe that was like three minutes and okay this tweet encapsulates it all actually-

i didn't look away from the screen for a second until he started singing lmao

dominic i know you're like part filipino askdhfghk this isn't personal at all lmao but god,,,, your character is shit <33 very unnecessary <3333

BUT OKAY NO JULES IS AN ENTIRE POST OF HER OWN IT'S WHAT SHE DESERVES AFTER SAM ASSASSINATED HER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AKSDHFGHKL

CASSIE

CASSIE AND MADDY

FUCK

for real tho this is me after a math test that shit is beating my ass every day of the week-

but god,,,,, oof. i really wish we saw more of maddy beating her up they could have cut the elliot song to do that oKAY I'M SORRY I'M DONE

I STILL,,, IDK BEFORE THIS EPISODE I COULD FEEL FOR CASSIE A LITTLE, HELLO FELLOW DADDY ISSUES BITCHES, BUT AAAAAA YEAH NO LAKSDHFGHKL THE WAY SHE HOPPED UP ON THAT STAGE READY TO WHOOP HER SISTER'S ASS HAS ME OFFICIALLY HATING HER MORE THAN FEELING FOR HER 😭😭😭

i think,, i think i'm done for now lmao see y'all in 2024 um.

i'm gonna go watch killing eve now <33

#ronnie rambles #euphoria #euphoria spoilers #screaming crying and throwing up please just give me self improvement from both rue and jules then give me rules

[ashkazora]

2020 Fic Roundup

Stats:

Fics Posted (Total): 13

In chronological order: Cold Floors and Warm Hearts - a fluffy shance fic about the three times Shiro accidentally wakes up in Lance’s room. Exchange fic. 3,441 words.

These Boots Are Gonna Walk All Over You - a small klance fillet based on the US tv show, The Blacklist. 639 words.

the water was dark (and it went down forever) - a Lance-centric gen fic exploring his relationship with the Blue Lion, and her control over him. 15,618 words.

Coffee Grinds and Morse Code - a post-s8, Shance fic written for the valentines shance exchange! 3,593 words.

Nectar and Ambrosia - my first Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill for the square ‘denied food as punishment.’ Lance whump. 2,641 words.

there ain't no rest for the wicked - another Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill for ‘big brother instincts,’ but this time with Plance and Lance whump. 3,508 words. 

Of Claws and Steel - a science-fiction, super sentai cat armour AU entered around the Lions as futuristic mecha armour. Most underrated fic here. 14,344 words.

Hairline Fractures - another Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt fill, ‘bleeding through bandages.’ Lance whump (again). 5,059 words.

Leverage - last Bad Things Happen Bingo fill for the year, for the prompt ‘on a leash.’ Featuring Shance, and Lance and Shiro whump. 7,743 words.

Lay It Down To Save It - Leakira Klance AU written for Leakira week. Made in collaboration with @crapoftheworldblr​! 18,102 words.

to the stars and back - The Dragon Prince Plance AU with Prince!Lance and Elf!Pidge. In collaboration with @rosieclark​! 36,574 words.

Sweeter Than Honey - written for the Blue Moon Lance zine! Features BAMF!Lance as the honeypot on a mission. 4,098 words.

In The Closet - Klance fic for the winner of my fic giveaway. Fluffy, and definitely a bit saucy. 2,363 words.

Fics Posted (Gen): 5

the water was dark (and it went down forever) Nectar and Ambrosia Of Claws and Steel  Hairline Fractures  Sweeter Than Honey

Plance: 2

there ain't no rest for the wicked to the stars and back 

Shance: 3

Cold Floors and Warm Hearts Coffee Grinds and Morse Code  Leverage

Klance: 3

These Boots Are Gonna Walk All Over You Lay It Down To Save It  In The Closet

Collaborations: 2

Lay It Down To Save It to the stars and back

Ship/Character breakdown:

Ship breakdown:

This year, the biggest ship I wrote for was Shance (3 fics), with Plance (2) and Klance (2.5) coming in from behind. The k/l ficlet doesn’t count as a full fic.

Character breakdown:

Of the 13 fics, Lance is in the most with 13 (insert surprised pikachu face here), then it goes Shiro (12), Keith (10), Pidge (8), Hunk (7), Allura (6) and Matt Holt (2). Other characters appear only once, such as Coran, Haggar and Kolivan. Technically, the Blue Lion clocks in at 2 mentions. 

Characters that had the main focus:

Lance had the sole POV for 7 of those fics, and shared POVs (in a collaboration) iin 2 additional fics. Shiro had the second most POVs at a total of 3, while Keith had 1 sole POV and 1 shared POV, and Pidge with one shared POV.

Specifics:

Best/worst title?

Best title: the water was dark (and it went down forever), but honestly so many other fics has titles I liked. This title was based off of the Tim Winton short story by the name name, The Water Was Dark And It Went Down Forever, where the main character swims and debatably drowns. So it’s fairly fitting.

Runners up titles include Sweeter Than Honey, to the stars and back, and Lay It Down To Save It.

Worst title: Hairline Fractures. It’s dumb and it makes no sense. It was the first thing that came to mind.

An honourable mention includes Leverage, which would be first if not for the fact that the title inspired the ending, so it’s not too bad.

Best/worst last line?

Best: From the water was dark (and it went down forever):

Blue’s grasp on him was like an endless expanse; an opulent and brilliant ocean. Her waters were dark, and  it went  down forever.

This was definitely my favourite, even though it’s pretty cringe. The way it was formatted in ao3 and the way it related to the title plus the reoccurring symbolism of water made it pretty neat!

Worst: From there ain't no rest for the wicked:

Pidge laughed, and turned her back from the darkness.

I’m sorry. This ending was so cringey. I hate it. There’s nothing else to say except I have no idea how to fix it. Oof.

General questions:

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

tbh, I wrote a lot more, considering I had my final exams this year. Breaching 100k was crazy. 

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

Honestly? Klance. I’m not the biggest fan of the ship but writing it is very interesting, and I enjoyed it. 

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

Of Claws and Steel hands down! It’s the first fic idea I ever had for VLD,  and the one I really love the most. One day I’d love to write a continuation of it, but the reception of the fic wasn’t great so idk.

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

the water was dark (and it went down forever) even though it was started in 2019, was finished this year and is my most popular fic of all time! It’s got 4k+ hits and 450+ kudos. Crazy, since it was only supposed to be a dumb little warm up fic to get me back into writing in preparation for Of Claws and Steel. Alas, turns out people really liked it!

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

Of Claws and Steel. It was the fic I worked the hardest on this year but got the least amount of attention :)

Story that could have been better?

Easily there ain't no rest for the wicked. There was so much plot and so many things I wanted to include but didn't. There’s a lot of things missing and bad plot flow. One day if I got more time, I’d love to write more on it.

Sexiest story?

In The Closet, hands down. It gets a bit steamy with a k/l makeout session. Originally it was going to be a lot saucier but I wasn’t too comfortable in my ability to write it well ahaha. 

Saddest story?

None of my stories were sad, per se. Most of the sad ones were more scary/foreboding rather than actually being sad. I guess to the stars and back right now, because it’s dealing with Lance’s insecurities and Pidge’s desperation to find her brother (and a lot of other things, which will be revealed in the future!)

Most fun?

Sweeter Than Honey! It was fun to write and is my most fun fic. BAMF!Lance and his witty commentary is always a great laugh.

Story with single sweetest moment? 

I can’t choose :,). It’s a three-way tie between Cold Floors and Warm Hearts’s last scene where Shiro realises Lance bought him the necklace, Lay It Down To Save It’s scene that I can’t say because it’s technically unpublished ;), and to the stars and back’s scene where Lance and Pidge talk about what they would like to be in life (ch3).

Hardest story to write?

Probably Of Claws and Steel, as I completely stagnated on the story for a long time. It took me 8 months to write it. Without Rue’s help, I probably would have taken so much longer. Runners up is Leverage, as it took me like a solid week to write 90% of it, and 3 more months to write the remaining 10%. For some reason, parts of that fic were such a pain to write. 

Easiest/most fun story to write?

The easiest was definitely to the stars and back. I could relate to a lot of Lance’s actions and thoughts in the fic, so writing his POV was super easy and rather cathartic ngl. However the most fun was probably Sweeter Than Honey, as it was super self indulgent ahaha.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

Lay It Down To Save It changed my perception of Keith. I don’t particularly like Keith in canon, but I’ve warmed up to his fanon self and general character after writing from his POV.

Most overdue story?

Of Claws and Steel easily! It was the first VLD fic idea I had but took 8 months to write. Oops? 

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

For the first time I incorporated HTML coding into my fics, which taught me a lot about coding and different ways to convey certain messages and detail things. These codings altered fonts and colours, which you can see in 

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

Write my tua/vld au fic, which will be my first solo multi chapter fic, and hopefully finish it by the end of next year. Also, sticking to a consistent writing schedule and try to write at least 100 words a day, plus finishing TSSAB. I’d also like to finish some more BTHB prompts!

That’s all, folks! Thank you all for sticking with my writing! Hopefully 2021 brings even more writing, fun times, and great fics. Happy New Years (in 24 hours), everyone!

#ashka writes #fic roundup #2020 fic roundup #MASSIVE shoutout to rue for giving me these questions #if you've read ocas ur officially my favourite person #ao3

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Can you rank the Charmed Ones from your favorite to your least favorite?

oh boy

okay get ready for some hella long chronology of my life or whatever because i cannot just answer this question in a list. to begin:

era one: childhood

1. phoebe

2. paige

3. piper

4. prue

okay so i never technically like watched charmed proper as a kid as i was like born in the year 2000 but it was just,, always on. like my cousins loved it and talked about it a lot, my parents watched it, and reruns would play on cable in the afternoon after school, so i didn’t like watch it in order or like,, comprehend the plot and stuff, i was just having a witchy good time.

phoebe earned my favorite because she was the funny, cool one with the killer fashion sense (to an eight year old or whatever), but she never did it by pretending to be someone else. she was always true to herself and refused to take other people’s bullshit. she was a classic 90′s girl feminist, and personally, i thought she was a great role model growing up, teaching me that i don’t have to be sidelined by the boys, i can stand up and kick ass and still be classically feminine, which i think really shaped a lot of who i was as a kid.

last was prue because she was the straight man, she was the one to hold her sisters back (especially phoebe) and remind them of the responsibilities and dangers of the world. she was the one who saw it as it is, not as it could be, and as and eight year old i was like fuck that shit! responsibility? accountability? i don’t know her. i definitely viewed her as a representation of the limitations and bitterness of the world.

era two: teens

1. piper

2. phoebe

3. paige

4. prue

i found charmed on netflix the first summer of middle school and subsequently watched it every summer of middle school after that. this time, i was watching it in order, and remember episode that i had seen was i was little and realizing how absolutely batshit out of order it was the first time i was it.

piper became my favorite because she became the one i identified with the most, especially s4 onward. she was tough, and swore a lot, she got shit done, but she was still the glue, the peacekeeper, and she loved her family (& friends if they ever bothered to give her any) more than anything. she was great for that phase in middle school / high school everyone (?) goes through where they feel like they’ve got the whole weight of their future on their shoulders and every single move they make has repercussions and oh jesus what am i doing with my life because, for me, piper really embodied the strength it took to make it through. she suffered and she fought and she lost so much and there were points where she felt like she had fucked up beyond return, but she always made it back, she always kept fighting, and she got her happy ending, she got to live happily ever after, and for me, that was crucial.

prue, yet again, landed in my least favorite because she represented the flip side of this coin. she fought and she sacrificed and she worked so hard and she lost. prue didn’t die happy, and i hated that, so she was my least favorite character.

era three: adulthood (in the loosest terms possible)

1. prue

2. piper

3. paige

4. phoebe

so i stared college in twenty eighteen and as a film major there are a whole bunch of lower div courses you can take and one of them is tv studies. personally, i don’t think enough respect is put on tv as a cinematic art form, but also went we went around to say our favorite tv shows i did say riverdale so yknow maybe i’m not the best judge. for our term paper we had to pick a show and analyze it in respects to the course. i chose charmed, a show that i had not seen in about three years at the time, and began a rewatch. in the span of this rewatch i also started my next gen fic and this very blog.

here prue takes the lead because i feel like i have to pay penance for all those years of hating her. her only crime was being a bitch (read: in charge, content on her own, protective of her sisters from shitty men, a breadwinner, following her dreams), and in a man’s world (fuck you brad kern) that is very much punishable by death. in my essay i did a lot more research than i previously had into the behind the scenes drama in charmed and quite frankly i do think the shannen/alyssa drama was a smear campaign to distract from the uprooting of the shows core value in favor of a more flashy “youth-driven” dynamic. since i’m now like an adult who has to like buy my own groceries and shit (perishable good perish too fast and i hate it!!), i definitely respect her anal retentive ways that i hated so much as a kid. she’s willing the carry the weight that not many others can handle, and while i don’t remotely relate, i respect her a lot.

phoebe fell to dead last in the most recent rewatch because (seasons 4 - 8) she felt such like a character written by men that i really ending up hating a lot of her decisions. season seven in my opinion was her worst, the whole baby mania she was under felt like such a plot contrived by men. like, phoebe was twenty nine and so consumed by her biological clock running out that she brewed potions to force premonitions to have some future child i hated it. the carefree, loving, inspirational, heartwarming phoebe that i remembered inspiring me so much just became a caricature of how sexist men imagine women to be. our tiny little female brains can’t even process the idea of not having children before you’re 30 we simply shut down and forget every lesson we’ve ever learned so we can pop a baby out. and i hate “the bare witch project” she rides a horse naked and ends sexism like we know the writers just wanted alyssa milano naked. the more i watch phoebe’s character the more she feels like and insult than the feminist that inspired me when i was younger.

oof well that was a lot hope i answered your question!!!

#💌 #charmed #i put a fuckin read more that wont show up on mobile bc im in hell??? i guess??? #ranked:tcos