#or if it's uniquely asexuality given you're waiting for the puberty to turn Not Interested into Interested

[galaxa-13]

A list of things I experienced before realizing I was asexual.

Why do people have crushes on celebrities? You don't even know them?

I guess I have a crush on this one classmate? They are aesthetically pleasing to look at. That's a crush, right? Since it's been established you don't need an emotional connection to have a crush.

What do you mean you're dating in middle school? We're literally children?

I'm just a late bloomer. Someday I'll experience these feelings everyone is talking about.

I'm not going to have sex until I'm married. That just makes sense. Why would I bother having sex before I know I'm spending the rest of my life with that person? Sex should be special.

I feel the same about everyone, I must be bisexual.

Gosh, I can't wait to finally be out of puberty and understand why sex scenes are titillating instead of either gross or boring.

Yup, totally a late bloomer. I'll get there someday.

What is wrong with me? Why can't I just experience these normal things like everyone else? Am I broken?

HOLY SHIT! I FINALLY GOT A CRUSH! I feel so excited and nervous and happy, I finally get it! Nope, not gonna think about intimate things. I'm just avoiding those because I am an innocent flower, no other reason.

I really SHOULD think about intimate things, right? That's what everyone does, right? So why do I feel so weird?

Gosh, I hope they don't want us to do those things with each other...

I've read porn, I've written porn, I'm out of school, I don't think I can keep saying I'm late bloomer or that I'm too nervous and innocent for such things. So why am I still not feeling these things...

Oh.

#asexuality #asexual #took me so long to realize #I had known about asexuality and just never thought it applied to me #I still don't know if other Not Straights take so long to realize their sexualities #or if it's uniquely asexuality given you're waiting for the puberty to turn Not Interested into Interested