#or seeing a doc to get stress related leave of abscence

[thisanimal]

holy moly i am not good

#ive been sick for like a week now. and i think ive been sick for so long because i had covid + work stress so im not recovering as fast #and i have a really big meeting at work tomorrow #that im supposed to be in charge of…….and i uhhhh do Not feel prepared #and i was supposed to do pre work this weekend……but i said f that and actually kinda relaxed on my holiday break #so now i have to scramble tomorrow lol. and hopefully run through it with my manager beforehand?? #tough to really care at all when im already one foot out the door at this place lol #and i thiiiiiink my 15 year old dog is gonna get put down probably after the holidays #he has a big lump on his neck……no test results yet but it’s grown really fast so like. that cant be anything good #and idk i obviously know hes really old and his health has been declining and this winter will be really tough on him #but omg it does not make it easierrrrrr…….. #ive had him since like 3rd grade. hes my baby :( my first dog #and i have a lot of guilt for not spending as much time with him since i went to college and started working #idk it just really sucks on top of everything else lol #genuinely think ill have a breakdown for at least a week when he actually passes #i might try to request the first week of jan off but i dont think work will like that #just to emotionally prepare idk #i need like a month off tbh #im leaning so hard towards quitting #or seeing a doc to get stress related leave of abscence #because my brain is breaking #i feel like ive been half a person for the last two years #personal