#see two things right away that make me so fukkin angry

[little-elenaarchive]

#i dont care ill do whatever i want: ooc #woke up from a bad dream #in a lot of pain #log on to mobile which is always dumb bc it doesn't block the posts i have blocked #see two things right away that make me so fukkin angry #now im just sad #laying in bed wishing i didn't exist #because depression is the best #and im tired of being alive #i hate the holidays #i miss her so much and i shouldn't #and i just want to stop loving her #its been a year get over it #amd id love to but i cant no matter how hard i try #i still break down and sob over the dumbest shit #because of her #i still wake up and expect her to be sleeping on call with me #its like my brain remembers everything and fills in the empty space and i just hear her little snores #and her cats fucking around in her room #her shifting in her sleep #two years #for two years she was my entire world #what am i supposed to do without her #im happy she seems happy #its all i ever want for her #to be happy #i just miss when it was me that made her happy #because i was happy too...