#she has good taste in music! but the thought of music being rec'd to me

[chucapybara]

sometimes i think of that one quote. a quote, was it? i'm certain it was a post, really, perhaps here or elsewhere—but it was something about how we are a medley of all the people we have ever met, and how we come to carry a little piece of everyone that comes in and out of our life, whether to stay or merely in passing. we bear a mirror shard of memory from each person we have ever loved, hated, called a friend, so on.

and i remembered something.

when i was younger (i'm not so old so as to be saying that, but it's true that i was younger then), and i was all over roleplaying with people online and meeting new names—in what were probably not the best spaces, i found out later on—i had a thing i would ask. nothing much, really, a harmless question yet one that for one reason or another i would find myself bringing up under the pretense of getting to know someone a little better, but still a question.

it was about their favourite song, i think. that, or maybe a song they perceive to be about themselves, but maybe it was more of the former.

either way, i'd gotten a plethora of answers, the songs of which i could not remember the titles of but could still remember in vague recollections, and in the off and rare chance i still come across the artists who performed those songs i still think of those now-nameless people i had once called friend.

hey. i still carry a piece of you. to one: i hope you're doing well; to another, i hope that you finished college. the other shapeless—i hope you found a promotion at work. another: i hope love worked out well for you.

i'd left a lot of people walking forward, or perhaps inevitably it was them whose paths divulged from mine, but hey, i still think of you. i know you liked this thing, and i know you were really fond of this one anime. and i don't really think i have the heart to think negative in any sense of these ghosts from years passed, but i still remember.

i hope you're taking care. i hope you're well. i still remember.

#🌑 chuca rambles #oh i teared up a bit writing this #took a bit of a break to write this because i've had one of my classmates rec me two artists this academic year #and i ended up really liking them #she has good taste in music! but the thought of music being rec'd to me #seeing the kinds of songs that this person or one another person likes #it says a lot about them #i just. argh #i've thought about it time and time again and i just have so much love #it drives me nuts #of course i'm still very much capable of hate and anger—i've hurt many people that way as anyone might have in their lives #but when i think about love and the intensity of it #it just sweeps over me like a tide #wow #yeah #ahsndlakhn #OK BACK TO WRITING FINALS SHIT ✍️✍️✍️