#shes so expensive.... sobbing

[minibunz]

Soooo I got my prescription for testosterone but I have so much anxiety. Idk why I’m so scared, I’ve been thinking about this for 8 years but suddenly I feel I’m afraid of making the wrong choice

#it doesn’t help that I started immediately getting shit from one of my sisters bc she was like “well who’s paying for it” #and like yeah I’m using insurance why tf would I not??? but we’re all on the same plan so she’s bitching about it idk why??? #and I’m like yeah I’m trying to use it bc my auto injectors are expensive but /IM/ still the one paying th copay not mom #fuck I wanted to be happy but I just sobbed when I got home bc I felt so distraught and started feeling lost again

[bigolgay]

GUYSGUYSGUYSGUYS I FOUND A TIKTOK THATS SO FOR ME I CANNOT HANDLE IT I JUST JIGGED AROUND MY KITCHEN SK HAPPILY BECAUS EOH MY GOD

IVE ALWAYS HATED IT BUT NOW PRETTY PERSON SAYS IT CUTE SO NOW I DONT HATE AND OMG IM SO HAPPY HEHEHEHEHEH

I’ve watched it so many times now.

I’m literally acting like she said it directly to my face. I’m straight blushing bro what the hell.

Heheheheheh they think I’m cute and adorable and I’m gonna be riding off this high for the next 3 months. Be ready.

#like not to get sad #but I hate smiling in pictures because of it because it looks so silly to me #(silly face and closed mouth smiler right here folks💪💪💪) #and like I’m over 16 so I don’t get free dental care anymore and braces are… oh so expensive #so I was like kind of accepting I’d be stuck with it forever #BUT SHE THINKS ITS CUTE #THIS YEAR HAS BEEN WILD #FOR LIKE THINGS THAT USED TO BIG INSECURITIES OF MINE AND THEN TK FOND OUT THAT SOME PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKE????? WHAT. #anyway #I’m gonna keep watching this now #this is probably the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me ever and she didn’t even say it to me #(although yesterday someone said that stars reflected off of the water reminds them of me and that was… good lawd. my heart😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨) #im gonna sob #actually no #I’m gonna sit on my kitchen floor and rewatch this video and blush to myself🫣🥲 #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[nomaishuttle]

the way i balance staying true to my tumblrina nature while also having a job and bills and rent is that at work while cleaning a room ill think of something id like to post and then repeat it over and over in my head and refine it until it sounds right and then i either post it as soon as i get a second to Or i forget it bc i think of anew post to make. and they always get 0 notes but its ok

#not a lot to post abt in a retirement home. its like yep this room is exactly the same as it was last week and the week before as well. #2day we mughtve had a missing resident idk. i also fink i saw her like 2 seconds b4 she went missing so im sure they found her #i was just sitting in the lunch room Seething and Coping ( iwas 40 minutes behind and had just found out i had an extra room on top of that #btw i didnt get out until 4:30. my shift ends at 330 but my ride leaves at 4 and due to The crisis my boss said i can stay clocked in until #4 so that i can do liberty and get overtime et cetera. whats hard is sometimes when i say et cetera i want you to read it as et cetera but #other times i want you to read it as E.T. cetera. but what can you do. #anyways where was i. right i was in the lunchroom oh also my ride didnt leave without me bc marians my bestie. anyways. i was in the break #room idk why i keep calling it the lunchroom im not a highschooler. its a breakroom we just sometimes eat lunch in there when im not outsid #or hiding in Closet <3333333333 #aaaanyways what was i talking abt. a good thing abt desktop tumblr is that i can read through all the tags so far #mobile its like a whole debacle basically. idr how but its like. whatever ider what i was talking about hold on #oh right. so i was in the break room and there was a nurse in there and on the walkie (they all have walkies. brenda also has one) i heard #someone go Sooo 245 wasnt in her room and she wasnt in the cafeteria :worried: im gonna look around 2nd but keep an eye out.. #and then like a minute later that nurse got up and quickly left idk if she got a different message bc i was listening to starstruck by sorr #and trying to figure out how expensive (indian restaurant) is. the answer is very ughhh i just wanted butter chicken and garlic naan and #rice and that wouldve been THIRTY DOLLARSSS :sobbed: it is very very good food though #i caint get it anyway my check hasnt come in. Tee be honest i might go ahead and order it anyway once my check does come in i rly rly want #butter chicken rn. if in being honest. #also the nurse was playing like a kids cooking channel youtube video rly loudly and the guy in it was obnoxious and i was having such a bad #day i was just sitting there hunched over in a corner forehead against the counter it was diree guys. #the way i made 'yeah i overheard on one of the nurses walkies that they couldnt find a resident for a couple minutes' into a 10 paragraph #debacle. this is what i mean when i say i have to be a tumblrina do you know how dire it would be if i had a social life and went outside #somebody would be like hey how has your day been! and id make it into a 15 hour long historical reenactment. lord

[maironsbigboobs]

My mum's friend is so annoying "oh it would help you find a job if you could drive" yes but are you going to pay for the lessons?

#i appreciate that she just wants to give advice but she has not looked for a job since 1997 #and driving lessons are so expensive /sob

[mosaicbroken]

You can't imagine how I feel right now

#im just crying #im not rich so hoing abroad was always too expensive for me and now shes coming to my country for the first time #im just sobbing #i hope ill get tickets

[alexalbongf]

anyway... fucjing look at HER

#shes so gorgeous..... #sob #a formula e porsche.... in lego.... #unforch tis too expensive

[gabi-theladylover]

Silly Kengan Oc moment :333

#drawing #oc art #kengan #kengan oc #how she became a member of the worm: #Shen once went to her little bar and became her friend #Then Shen's “birthday” came and Ei gave him a Boat Some fishing gear and the most expensive Japanese fishing rod #Shen loved the gift so much that he immediately called Yan just to tell him #“YAN MOVE THIS GIRL TO THE SECOND HIGHEST RANK. IMMEDIATELY.” #all while sobbing slightly #this is all a joke btw #I have no idea how the Worm works tbh #so I just made this up :3 #btw she's a gyaru and she's pretty sly and clever #my glorbos #banging art :3

[akascow]

biggest regret was letting my mom give my lagoona blue doll to my little cousin she did not deserve her😤😤

#im so serious yall #her dolls are extremely rare or expensive SHE WAS A FIRST GEN LIKE WHYD I DO THAT #peer pressure at its worst fr #im still upset about it #just looked it up the one i had sells for like 66-100$ now *sobs*

[demonsfate]

i’m so mad i’ve grown such a soft spot for alisa

#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc) #// i initially HATED her!!! #// but now?? i'm rly liking herrr #// like she's one of my Mains now!!!! #// and i only have like 5 mains in tk!!! #// tbh she's still written so poorly in tk6 #// but in other medias - such blood vengeance and tk7 - she's better #// especially in blood vengeance - i like the idea of her being a lil weirdo it makes her better #// which is funny bc i hated bv - alisa was literally one of the most enjoyable parts of it #// i prefer when she has more robotic designs such as in tag 2 and tk7 #// if she's gonna be a robot... make her a robot dammit!!! #// i'm even at the point where i want a... Merch of her #// but her merch is expensive SOBS

[noxtivagus]

music boxes r cool

#🌙.rambles #.... i want >< #a friend is getting christmas gifts i think n she asked apollo n i earlier to pick a Song n listed some down #in the past i wld stalk the square enix store moping in self-pity knowing i can't buy any of it but at least that made me #deduce at once that she's planning maybe to give one...? 🥺 #so instead of doing school assignments here i am distracted again c: i'll get it done it's friday nyways i'll catch up on sleep tmrrw :3 #THAT SAID THOUGH . I GOT EMOTIONAL IMMEDIATELY AFTER SEARCHING UP SOME VIDEOS AAAA #night in the brume.... NIGHT IN THE BRUME 😭😭 yk i love music. music makes me emotional. very. #goddamn looking at the sqex store n. if i could i'd just love to buy all of these (not smart. too expensive). BUT JUST. IMAGINE #if i could i'd just love to buy all of these (not smart. too expensive) #THE ELPIS FLOWER I FREAKED OUT WHEN I FIRST SAW IT ? MY BOY HERMES #me remembering i'm a square enix kid FR i don't know anything abt chrono w the story or wtvr but i love the ost vvv much !!!! #final fantasy my beloved.... i don't have to expound on that anymore HKDFAJSDLKF >.> & then kingdom hearts my childhood ! 🫶🏼 #& yk i used to have a lot of random pics on my ipad when i was a kid sob n looking back recently i found a 2b pic from. way back in 2017 #i Did not know it was her back then hell i didn't even know of nier but. omg i've always been into pretty girls! #that aside i've always been interested in nier ever since i really got to know it. the ost is one of my favs too. #probably gna be my 2nd fav series tied with final fantasy c: #the plushes r so cool i want them all 🥺 looking through the sqex store yeah #i want all the art books oh dear n everything music related 🥹🤍 #in the future if ever my aunt decided to go to one again. apollo n i could tag along to one of those final fantasy orchestras #i would ascend to heaven. i'd probably cry a lot though. funny to imagine. i wonder if ever sometime in the unknown future #wait remembering oh my god wasn't fullmetal alchemist serialized by sqex. fma's one of my childhood stuff to >< #i nearly finished the whole manga bcs my aunt had them in her bookshelves 🥺 #imagine having those wine glasses w the ascian sigils holy shit that'd be so badass #the lunar tear necklace 🥹 UWAH ONE OF MY ONLINE FRIENDS HAS THE FFXV RING OF THE LUCII #the sephiroth bracelet looks so cool making me rmb my interest too w gemstones >< i love my own bracelet here that's moonstone #the lunafreya necklace.... FUCK I WANT IT SO BAD i rmb looking at it years ago n. dream necklace sob it's so pretty ! moon ! #NO WAIT I CAN'T FIND IT BUT ISN'T THERE ALSO AN HAURCHEFANT NECKLACE 😭😭 NOOOOOOO #not that i can get it anytime soon smh it's so expensive T_T but maybe some day far from now 🫶🏼 #I WANT THE MUSIC BOXES SO BAD THOUGH GODDAMN nightinthebrume themeoflove chronocross nier . SM SO MUCH MORE

[kawaiijellymonster]

legit hate being poor so much

#I have 0 words for how upset being poor makes me like poverty trauma is a real thing and it is shoved in my face so much at my school #bc my school is mostly richer ppl and so like my roommate when to Israel and she plays expensive sports and then she went to cali #and i've been working full time since the day after I got home from college and my mom reminded me that I have no money #when I was like 'i kinda wanna get another ear piercing from claires' #like the disparity here that i'm struggling for cash so hard and can barely even think about doing dumb fun teenager shit while my roommate #is out doing all that shit just makes me want to start sobbing and never stop