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#sigh. I'm tired man ๐ i just started new mood stabilizers and I'm anxious as fuck
daz4i
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10 months
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when ww said "this is not my life, I'm no survivor, i only happened to survive"
#he gets it he really does.
#hate when ppl call me resilient or are proud of me for surviving shit. girl i did not do anything to be here now. in fact quite the contrary
#i am permanently in survival mode and I'm trying so hard to turn it off. but mostly in 1 direction and not the one most ppl hope
#sigh. I'm tired man ๐ i just started new mood stabilizers and I'm anxious as fuck
#(well. not new. i was on them before when i was a teen. can't remember why i stopped tho)
#the whole trying new pills is depressing bc well. there's p much nothing left for me to try
#i had a call with her this week. i mentioned it i think. but most of it was trying to figure out if there's meds i never tried out there
#the only other one we considered to maybe replace my current antidepressant is very new to the market aka she doesn't know what it does yet
#so. instead of replacing. adding stabilizers and hope they don't make things even worse (but lbr they probably will)
#I'm very close to giving up yet again. idk what there even is to give up on anymore. my life is nothing with a side of void
#but giving up is the only thing i know how to do. I'm too anxious to do anything else. i don't know how to do anything else
#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really wanna cut rn but i already have some wounds on my hands and arms + I'm in enough pain as is so what's the use
#vent
#i should sleep. idk if i can. I've been trying all day and failed. I'm so tired
#i wish i didn't wake up man ๐ i wish i died. tonight
#suicide //
#not really but implied ig
#self harm mention //
#ask to tag
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