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Someday

I already miss Hui so much and I can’t tell how much I’ve been missing Jinho all this time, so here is a fanfiction inspired by their song ‘Someday’ which always makes me cry. Hope you enjoy it!

I should admit that I was also influenced by the movie ‘The Vow’ so if you find any similarities, that is the reason why.

Pairing: Hui x OC/reader

Genre: ANGST, romance

Word count: 3,793

I knew something was missing. I always felt like people are hiding something from me. But I could never find out. Everything was alright. But my heart was aching. And I only later realized why.

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‘We should get going’ He said.

‘Jinho, look I really appreciate how you want me to help fit in, but I guess I need time. I just recently moved here.’

And just like other times he said nothing but nodded all-knowingly. He was always way too patient. He never nagged, he never disagreed. It was weird. He was the only person I’ve known from my childhood. But still when we had these conversations it felt like I didn’t know him that well.

‘Are you ready then?’ he asked.

‘Look, thank you for doing this for me, but you don’t have to try so hard. After all it is my life. It’s my problem if I don’t make new friends. And I know this sounds selfish, but I have you. And that’s all I need.’

And he did the same thing again. A huge sigh, no answer just an all-knowing nod in response. I was really getting annoyed by it. But I knew how hard he tried to help me, how he was cancelling all his other programs just to spend more time with me. So, I never complained.

Usually we tried to discover new places in the neighborhood. We both liked those little pubs were smaller not-yet well-known bands and musicians were performing live. We spent most of those nights in the pub called ‘The Black Hall’. Jinho seemed to be very close with the owner and the place itself had a very nice atmosphere. On days when I didn’t feel like going anywhere but Jinho kept on saying we should go out we usually went there. And now we were heading there again. That place was special. It was very calming and I was never frustrated there. My safe place indeed. As we entered Jinho was welcomed by many people. He was a regular there. And even though a lot of people seemed to recognize me and greet me, I couldn’t seem to remember their faces.

‘Hey man nice to see you.’ The owner said to Jinho. And then he turned to me. ‘Good to see you too. It’s been a long time, glad you are here.’

‘Your place is still the best in town.’ I said shyly.

The owner was way too nice with me everytime we met. It was really confusing. If I didn’t know he had a girlfriend, I would think he was flirting with me. He always offered us free drinks and tried to talk as much as possible. Even if other customers were around, it felt like we were special to him. But I didn’t really understand why.

‘Guys. Can I leave you here for a second?’ Jinho asked. ‘I’ll be back in a second.’

‘Sure. I’ll keep an eye on her don’t worry.’ The owner answered.

I was so ashamed, I knew that we’ve met already several times but I kept on forgetting his name. Recently I couldn’t remember a lot of things. And even though he wasn’t foreign anymore I was getting stressed about the fact that Jinho left me with him.

‘Hey Hui can you please help me with the boxes in the storage? We’ve just received a new order.’ One of the waiters asked him.

Hui. So that’s his name. I shouldn’t forget it in case I don’t want to end up in awkward situations. Hui. Hui. Hui. But why does his name sound so familiar?

‘Can you just wait a bit? We have a special guest tonight.’ He answered.

‘Oh.’

And now the waiter showed up out of the nowhere. He also greeted me by my name which was very shocking. I don’t remember ever meeting him.

‘Is she still-‘ He asked Hui.

‘Yeah.’ Hui answered with a sad look on his face.

‘What am I still? Sorry but I heard you are talking about me.’

‘Oh nothing. He just wanted to know whether you are still new in town.’

‘I see.’

Is this something to be disappointed about? What is such a big deal about that. I moved here only few weeks ago. The situation was getting a bit weird, but thankfully Jinho has just returned.

‘Here I am what did I miss?’

‘I will kill him one day.’ Hui said.

‘Did he do it again?’ Jinho asked.

‘We even asked him not to… I don’t know what is so hard to understand about that… whatever.’ Hui answered bit tempered and disappointed.

When I looked at him, I could have been scared. What could that waiter do to deserve death? But I felt like he was just so stressed about something he must have carried a really hard weight on his shoulders. He seemed to be in despair. Sometimes when we visited him in The Black Hall the place seemed so lively and energetic but times when I secretly looked at him I saw a very lost man. He was always smiling around his guests and friends but I guess he was hurt inside.

‘Hey calm down. It will be alright. We both know it will be alright. Why don’t you sing for us instead?’

‘Should I?’ Hui asked back and they were both staring at me.

‘I mean of course if this is what makes you happy.’ I answered.

Who am I to decide? Also, it was getting weird. Since when are they so close with Jinho? And is this guy also a singer? We’ve been here several times but I’ve never seen him performing. As he was slowly moving to the stage I was somehow getting excited and nervous. My body reacted like I was one of the biggest fans of this guy. But I’ve never heard him singing.

‘Hi everyone. Hmm. How do I even start this? This is quite strange to stand here after all the things that happened months ago…’ He said a bit unstable. But he continued. ‘There are some special guests here with us today, and there is a song I wrote just recently. I hope you’ll like it.’

My heart I can’t hear it now

Even the sound of my heartbeat is like a lie

I wanna stop and turn back

Even if it ends in tears

Hope is sweet

But it’s only an outer layer that fear made

Even if it’s despair

That’s waiting for me

I wanna be the one to decide

Who am I? I can’t see

The reflection in the mirror

My face looks so unfamiliar

Who am I

Cry, I can feel it

Even one tear drop tells me how I feel

I can tell you why, I know

Pain and sadness and scars

Are reasons why I am alive

I don’t want to lose my mind

I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. I was totally drawn to him. It was the most beautiful and intimate performance I’ve ever seen yet it almost broke my heart. Watching him on stage fighting alone and crying out for help through this song, it was so painful.

‘Jinho, can we go please?’

‘Yeah, but is something wrong?’

‘No. I just rather go now.’

‘I just say bye and we can.

‘Please Jinho… Let us go.’ And I was begging him.

‘Okay.’

We went home but I couldn’t say anything. I asked Jinho to stay with me just for a while until I calm down but I couldn’t. I couldn’t explain what was going on. I hated myself for it, but I just couldn’t.

‘She must be a monster to let him alone when he is clearly in pain.’

‘Who are you talking about?’ He asked a bit surprised.

‘Hui’s girlfriend. You said he has one. It’s so obvious that he needs her. He is suffering. Why is she not next to him? What an awful girlfriend does that?’

‘Look…’ Jinho started.

‘No. Don’t even try to defend her. Even tough I’ve never met her, this is my opinion and I am not sorry about it.’

‘I just wanted to say, she is not awful. The thing is you just don’t know the whole story.’

‘Even so, he needs someone to rely on. His sad face makes my heart ache.’

‘Do you like him?’

‘What is this all of a sudden? He has a girlfriend. Of course not. I am not that type even if he deserves a way better girlfriend.’

‘I see. Do you feel a bit better now?’ Jinho asked still a bit worried.

‘Yeah. I’ll be okay. I don’t know what’s gotten into me. And sorry to make you leave without even saying goodbye. I just felt the urge to leave.’

‘Hey. No worries. You are still new here. Anyone can get anxious sometimes. Its totally okay, considering all the things that happened to you.’

‘Wait. What? What do you mean? What happened?’

‘I meant the move. It must have been exhausting. I’ll be going then.’

‘Thank you for everything Jinho. Thanks for all the efforts. I don’t think I deserve you in my life, but I am forever grateful to have you next to me. I just wanted you to know. Good night!’

‘Good night’

When I closed the door behind him, I looked out of the window just to see him leave. It was dark on the streets and it seemed to be colder than before. Jinho was slowly walking, his steps were like moving heavy mountains. He let his head down. I felt like going after him. I was such a bad friend recently. Because of the move I was in focus he was helping me continuously but I couldn’t see that he was facing hardships as well.

Suddenly a guy appeared in front of him. From far I couldn’t see him well but he seemed somehow familiar. He was just a bit taller than Jinho. He raised Jinho’s face to make him look into his eyes. He must have asked something. Because the next thing I could see was Jinho shaking his head and then burying it into the man’s chest like a small kid. And the man pulled him closer to hug him to comfort him. Jinho’s body was shaking he must have been crying and I also felt tears growing in my eyes.

Then I saw the man looking at the sky. As they were standing under one of the street lamps I could finally see his face. And no wonder why his face was so familiar. It was The Black Hall’s owner, Hui. And when I recognized him I suddenly fell on my knees and started to cry. I didn’t understand and couldn’t explain but again I felt an unbearable pain in my chest.

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‘Are you sure you want to go there? We can go anywhere else.’ Jinho asked.

‘Yeah, I want to go to The Black Hall.’

For some reason, after that night we only went to that specific place. Jinho always asked back whether I am okay with it but it was always me who wanted to go there. Mainly because of Hui. I wanted to hear him singing, I wanted to see him smiling at his customers, I wanted to be close to him. And also because of Jinho. He seemed so relaxed when we were there. For some reason I even felt like he was happy to see me getting closer to Hui. But I might have been seeing visions.

Slowly but surely, I was getting used to the new place and new faces. I became a regular too. And somehow Hui seemed to become happier too.

‘Who is this man? You changed totally. I am so happy to see this bright side of yours.’ I said one night.

‘Well, it couldn’t have been possible without a precious someone.’

‘I am so glad to hear. I knew there was something going on between you two. But seemingly she finally changed her mind. So good to see you this happy.’

‘She?’ Hui asked back a little bit confused.

‘Yeah, your girlfriend. You are together again, aren’t you?’ And now I was a little confused too.

‘Oh… her.’

He was smiling. But it was bitter-sweet.

‘I am so sorry. I shouldn’t have brought it up. This is not my business.’

‘No, no its fine. It’s just hard sometimes you know. She traveled somewhere far and I miss her a lot.’

‘But at least you keep in touch, right?’ I asked trying to lighten the topic.

‘I see her a lot recently. But I guess it just makes me miss her more.’

‘But you said she is abroad.’

‘Oh yeah, I mean via videochat. It’s not like she keeps on appearing in the pub everyday. If that would happen I should have been happy, right?’

‘Seeing how much you miss her… I guess yeah. I would be happy to see her. I hope she’ll return soon. You deserve to be happy.’

‘Sometimes I lose hope you know. She might not return.’

‘What? She’s such a fool if she is not coming back to you. She’ll regret it forever.’

And I realized I said too much. It could have sounded controversial. I don’t want to take advantage of this situation. Just recently I really got to like him, but this is not the right timing. I couldn’t do this to him, to that girl, not even to myself.

‘I am sorry, I shouldn’t have said that. I didn’t want to interfere.’ I said.

‘I guess I know how you meant. Sorry to interrupt but do you know by any chance where is Jinho?’

‘I guess I saw him around the stage last time.’

‘Perfect.’

‘Hui, what are you doing?’

‘You should never give up on love, right?’ He asked.

‘I don’t know, maybe not. I’ve never fallen in love before.’

And even if it took just a second, I saw that smile on his face.

‘What is so funny about it? Is it a sin?’

‘Yeah sure. You’ve never been in love.’ He said doubting me.

‘I am telling you! Laugh if that makes you feel better.’

‘No sorry… It was just hard to believe that a girl like you was never in love before.’

‘Why?’

‘Who wouldn’t want to be with you?’

‘Ehm, that’s very nice from you, but… why are we talking about this?’

‘If you’d have someone precious to you would you fight for him? To make him happy, to see him smile, to know he is alright? Would you want to spend the rest of your days with him?’

‘I guess. I am sorry Hui but this conversation gets out of hand. Are you trying to say something?’

‘Oh Jinho. You are here. It’s time.’ He said to Jinho.

‘Are you sure?’

‘Now or never. I have to try.’

I was getting confused. We were talking about his girlfriend and he was sad. Now he seems to be all excited and hoping like his girlfriend is just about to enter the door and fall in his arms. Although it was good to see him being cheerful, somehow, I felt jealous. Since I know him this girl is nowhere to be seen and she is just playing with him as she wants. He deserved so much better.

‘Jinho, do you know what is going on?’

‘I guess he is fighting for someone precious to him.’

‘That chick again. Make sure to keep her away from me, if she wants to be alive.’

‘Calm down okay? Look I wanted to wait with this, but I think I should tell you now.’

‘Hello everyone.’ Hui greeted the audience from the stage.

‘What do you want to tell me Jinho?’

‘Listen to him first then I’ll tell you later.’

‘It was 3 months ago when something terrible happened. Without any warning signs my girlfriend collapsed here.’

‘WHAT?’ I looked at Jinho askingly. But he didn’t react.

‘After the check-ups the doctors said it is nothing serious. And I believed them. But it seems to be more serious than they thought.’

‘Is she then in foreign hospital outside the country?’ I asked Jinho again. My voice trembled. I was so shocked. But again, he didn’t answer.

‘Today I prepared a song with the title: Someday. First of all, I want to thank my best friend for staying next to me in these hard times, without him I guess I wouldn’t be able to stand here. Please give a round of applause to my brother Jinho.’

‘MY BROTHER?’ I was completely taken a back.

‘And now for days when we will be able to laugh together again please give lots of love to the next song: Someday. I hope the girl I wrote this about will also like it.’

But I didn’t care about the song anymore. They were the only ones I trusted but they betrayed me. Even if Hui didn’t know Jinho must have known how hard it was to get familiar with the new environment and new faces. How could he?

Someday Something we dreamed of

It will spread out in front of you

I have to walk more for that day.

Not afraid to be together

I stopped in front of the door. As I heard him singing I had to stop. I was slowly going back to my seat. I sat back next to Jinho and I didn’t ask, I didn’t say anything.

I’ll remember today when I was tired

Precious memories

My precious memories. I remembered them.

With you guys who believed more than anyone else

Someday I’ll laugh again

Dreams to be embroidered on the sky

The day after day will shine

When our heart is added

Our dreams that have been precious

If you believe, it will happen someday

The stars embroidered in the sky

Shine our way

No longer wandering

Shining star shining on the sky

Our dreams we have

Precious dreams

It will all happen.

It will all come true

When our heart is added

Someday

I couldn’t look at them. My body was trembling, I was crying like never before. For three months I despised a girl for making Hui upset, sad and lonely. I really hated her for doing this. And in this period I never doubted Jinho’s way too patient nods, and Hui’s bitter smiles. I didn’t notice anything. I didn’t even realize I was the one making them upset all this time.

The girl I hated was myself. And now I hated her even more. I hated her for being slow. I hated her for being such a bad friend. And I hated her for being the worst fiancée. I hated her for being weak and collapsing. I hated myself for everything I was. I hated the fact that they were hopelessly fighting for me without me knowing. I hate that we lost three months of being together.

Suddenly I felt a hand gently stroking my back.

‘I guess you know what I wanted to tell you. I am so sorry I couldn’t tell you earlier. We just didn’t want to scare you.’ Jinho said with teary eyes.

‘Why did you let me hurt you, why did you try so selflessly? Why?’

‘Because he is my brother, and you are my best friend. You would have done it for me as well.’

He wrapped his arms around me, but then we heard a familiar voice from above.

‘Hey, is everything alright?’ Hui asked.

And in that second, I started to cry again. His voice meant something else this time. Homecoming. Or a warm hug on a cold winter day. Being able to recognize his voice and know that it is his voice was something I was so grateful about.

‘I guess you two have some things to discuss, I’ll leave then.’ Jinho said.

‘Bro, thank you. Again.’ Hui said with a sincere smile.

As Jinho left it was just Hui and me. And I couldn’t stop crying. I was crying in his arms until everyone left. When I finally calmed down we were the only ones at the place. He was holding my hands and smiling at me with that beautiful smile of his. How could I even forget this?

‘Welcome home babe.’

‘How did you know? How could you not give up?’

‘Do you remember when you said I should open this place?’

And I nodded. Some of the memories were still blurry but I kept on remembering them.

‘You said then, if you were a stranger just passing by you might not enter this place. But then I told you that it will have live performances.’

‘And I said if only you perform too. But back then I never heard you singing.’

‘It was my first time singing in front of you. But you wanted to visualize how the pub is going to work in the future, so I started singing.’

‘If I was a stranger just passing by and listening to your voice, I would become a regular. And who knows maybe I would fall in love. This is what I said, after your performance.’

‘And this is how I knew. I had to trust you, I had to wait and hope that you’ll be able to fall in love one more time. ‘

‘As long as it’s you I would fall in love over and over again. Your voice saved me. Us.’

For a minute, we were just staring at each other. I could get enough of this beautiful view. His innocent, happy eyes, those perfect lips, beautiful teeth and amazing hair. There was nothing on him I didn’t like.

‘I am so glad to have you back.’ he said and he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.

‘I don’t want to lose you again.’

‘You will never lose me.’

‘But I want to make a promise, a promise that nothing can erase.’

‘Do I understand correctly?’

‘Let’s not wait any longer. I want to marry you as soon as possible.’

‘If you are not ready we can wait. I am not running anywhere.’ He said pleasantly.

‘You waited three months, I don’t want to keep you waiting.’

Finally, he was smiling. He was smiling honestly. As he leaned closer and kissed me gently I could feel that he was still smiling. And I couldn’t have been happier. Having his arms around me, getting lost in his touch I realized what I was missing in the past months. I knew something was missing. My aching heart was telling me all the time. But maybe this pain was what indicated that there was someone waiting for me. The one I could live with happily together. Someday.

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