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#so i can have a poppydog again
camellia-thea
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7 months
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i made the mistake of opening the jellycat website.
they have a jack russell now. it has one black spot across its back like jazzy.
#tags turned into a ramble-y vent be warned
#mistakes were made
#i do not have the money nor the emotional capacity for yearning
#there are so many that are super cute
#like the quinn fox and sigmund seal and all the octopi and they have a new spider plush!!!
#i am in so much pain and i have nothing that stops it and i just. want to not be dealing with anything i am right now
#i tried lifting my tea earlier and i started to cry because of how painful and exhausting it was.
#enough so that i didn't finish it which is an indicator of how i am going
#feeling a bit better now -- i am not as fatigued but. still in so much pain and sitting upright is tiring.
#but it really really doesn't help the emotional stuff going on
#i desperately want jellycat to make a black and white border collie too
#so i can have a poppydog again
#i miss her so fucking much
#she was my good girl and i miss her.
#i miss jazzy right now too. i want her here with me and i want her to cuddle me and stick her nose in my teacup
#i just. feel bad.
#i hate feeling out of control like this and yet i. cannot fucking accept help
#and i'm such a hypocrite with it but i just. i can't. i don't know what i need
#i want someone to take care of me but i don't know how to ask or be vulnerable. i physically need someone to wrestle me into care
#i don't even know what i'm saying.
#i have so many things in my head and just. saying them aloud feels scary. even typing this into vague nonspecific existence. i don't know.
#i don't know.
#i feel out of control and i hate it.
#but. i just. need to feel out of control safely i guess?
#someone else take it and just.
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