#so i carry an emotional support knife around as i watch my silly modern families and scroll and tikkytok

[matamisin]

Against my own will, I haven't seen the afternoon in a week

#I CANT KICK THIS JET LAG AUGSHSKDBX #it was so easy adjusting when i was at the philippines like two days max i was already good #HERE THO??? I AM A SLEEPY GIRL #once the clock strikes 2 PM i blink and suddenly im all swaddled up in bed and its fucking 10 PM AAJSJDHDJ #i wont lie i only like it bc that means i get to see sunrises 🤭🤭🤭 #BUT I CANST STAY LIKE THIS #EVERYONE ELSE HAS ADJUSTED LIKE NORMAL AND IM OVER HERE BEING A NIGHT OWL LOL #im gonna try to draw tonight ehehehe might as well #the only thing about being the only one up at night is im trying to vibe downstairs by myself right?? #and its a vibe dont get me wrong #however i am what the young people call extremely paranoid #so i carry an emotional support knife around as i watch my silly modern families and scroll and tikkytok #if i at least had my 3 big akitas with me id feel a little bit less ummmm like i need to be on guard #but they go up to bed with my parents every night 😞😞🥲 #i tried drawing last night and i doodled a genya but that was all i could muster :( #so maybe DS isnt the best thing for my art block right now 🤔🤔 #but idk if im feeling SDV 😩 #once i fall for 2 ✌️ sibling-like characters that would die for each other and are like a gold mine for angst i am GONE from everything else #its funny cause ive liked DS for about 3 years but when i first got into it i just COULD NOT get into making fanart #and even tho i loved the charas i was like nahhh none of them are hiting the right chord for me to full on hyperfixate and build my own aus #but i got back into it a bit ago cause i was like alright if the world insists i read the manga thru for the 4th time WHO AM I TO SAY NO LOL #AND SUDDENLY THE SHINAZUGAWAS CAPTURED MY HEART AND THEYVE BEEN ON MY MIND EVER SINCE #HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO BLIND TILL MY 4TH REREAD #🤔🤔 hmm maybe its cause we finally got to see genya in action with the 3rd season #they did him so right bros i LOVE HIM HE IS MY SON #anyways thats all for now #gonna go get comfy and make my nest on the couch to try to draw again >:)