#socializing and doing great academically and here i am someone who hasn't been anywhere except home and campus ever since uni started and

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i'm trying so hard not to have a complete meltdown

#caution very very sad and emotional tags #pls ignore if you're having a good day #dear tumblr tags #why is it that even after working myself to death trying to do everything it's still never enough somehow i always feel like i'm lacking #be it socially emotionally or even academically :/// i'm literally so exhausted from constantly feeling this way #its like everyone around me is doing so fucking well even the friends who said they were having a hard time coping are going out and #socializing and doing great academically and here i am someone who hasn't been anywhere except home and campus ever since uni started and #will barely have time to go out until december becuz deadlines are starting and even when im done in dec im going to be so so drained that #i won't wanna go out anywhere and will just wanna stay in bed and read fanfic lmaoo #i hate everyone and everything and i hate that all that makes me feel so inadequate and im so emotionally exhasutedd #i hate feeling like i'm not enough and that im not doing my best and i hate falling asleep crying becuz of it all #i'm juggling so many things at once and i feel as though im just fucking it all up #im 19 and i feel like i will collapse with the weight i feel im just so tired #how does being enough feel like? #hais #anyways #gots lots to do tmr #and i have to wake up at 6 fucking am #just gotta push thru ig.