#sorry abt this mess this is yhe fourth time im trying to answer this ask bc tumblr just loves me so much

[brieflygorgeouss]

rant: when you talked about a fruit basket of gratitude in your reply i immediately remembered that one evak fic where they visited an art gallery in rome and saw the "boy with a basket of fruit" painting and then i thought about the painting and now i want to forget all this shit here and go to rome or paris or amsterdam or vienna and visit museums and go to cool cafés and NOT have to worry about my current situation ugh. let me live without time and work and future pressing down on me!! -wea.

i feel you abt wanting to go somewhere far away to a different city and trying to figure myself out over there all over again!! i am worried about the future too, especially since i do not know what to do with it at all, it’s frightening when i let myself get too much into my head...hopefully everything somehow works out for the both of us baby :(

#asks #anon #worried english anon #ive never been to paris or amsterdam but rome and vienna are breathtakingly beautiful #vienna esp is so dear to me when i go there again i will truly be happy again #and abt the future yeah its stressing me af too #like i have decided already that i am leaving china next month and not coming back in february bc i am unhappy here and i dont want to live #a life like this #but now everybody is asking me so what are you gonna do instead?? and im like idk?!!! i have no idea!!! #so see staying here for the next 1.5years would just be so much easier even if i know i would be unhappy #and my heart is telling me mot to stay but everything else is so uncertain and im just so overwhelmed #i dont know what to do about my guture at all #its so frightening honestly im so scared of making some big mistake why cant someone just tell me what to do! #sorry abt this mess this is yhe fourth time im trying to answer this ask bc tumblr just loves me so much