#sorry for dumping this. i am floundering rn

[tezerenotameiki]

#venting in tags bc i cant figure out how to read more on mobile #god i feel so stupid for crying over this cause this always happens 75% of my appointments cant canceled or noshowed last minute #but i just feel so overwhelmed! with my own medical appointments and then dad has stage 2/3 cancer and might be ok but might not #and im scared but mom thinks he’s lying (which he probably could be!) and then he’s gone right back to manipulative shit! #stomping all over whatever boundaries/ground rules i tried to set when we fought ~2 months ago and he told me to go fuck myself and #blew up my phone and told me he was never speaking to me again! #and how tf do i enforce boundaries when he’s talking about chemo and shit??????? #and now i know i need to start over with a brand new therapist bc my current one is totally unreliable #but it’s like the past two years of opening up is all down the drain #and i dont even know what to do anymore. bro i’m so tired and my head hurts so much lol #sorry for dumping this. i am floundering rn