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#sorry its like 5 am and i havent slept and wanna vent so. here inam
polaraffect
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3 months
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current state of politics really got me swerving wildly between "yes I want to present as a man" and "oh god is this even worth it maybe I'm not even really trans" and it's bringing me to my limit
#damien.txt
#sorry its like 5 am and i havent slept and wanna vent so. here inam
#i really do be having a wild time bc ill have like. weeks at a time where ill be like. wait a second. what if im not trans actually
#okay well. never in a 'im 100% not trans' way but in a 'maybe i shouldnt transition' way
#and then ill have a day where i wake up and go. oh. i think that feeling is just coming from fear about. the current state of trans issues
#because oh my FUCKING GOD am i scared like 24/7 bc of that shit
#and so like. then im like. maybe i really am like. actually transmasc. fr. bc i like. literally have been feeling it my whole life.
#and then i wake up a couple weeks later back at the beginning like hmm....... but..... what if....
#and im so tired of not knowing!! it's fucking exhausting questioning what the fuck is happening w me every 2 seconds
#and im being dramatic abt it but idk. i think its a symptom of neurodivergence or something bc im like. so so scared abt being trans atm
#at a level that is. certainly unhealthy.
#and it really feels like something that is inhibiting me from doing things in life which is like. upsetting y'know!
#but at the same time. the concept of going thru life as my birth gender is... bad. sort of inconceivable at this point.
#and this is particularly hard bc like. really going back and forth on making decisions abt taking T. bc when i get in these spirals
#abt maybe not being trans. i get the urge to not take it. but like. i cant fluctuate w a medicine like that that much!
#but at the same time when i go back to being like oh yeah transmasc... my brain is like cool. take T again. so. fuck me i guess.
#idk man. im just like. i just want to live my life without being perceived by others actually
#my true gender is no one's business <3 thanks
#i am. tired.
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