#specifically having for task to really decipher wtf is going on my screen

[tenrose]

I can't with these fucking headaches every month and in between I want to get rid of that shitty pill 😭

#misc #it's been only four months #thank god I have an appointment tuesday #and let's hope the next one is better #like ok it's true my cramps are a bit less painful #but i have ten new problems instead 😭 #and those headaches are worse #the light is burning my eyes and frying my brain #im already a bit photosensitive because of my eyesight problems and the fact that i work on computer all day long #specifically having for task to really decipher wtf is going on my screen #basically everything i shouldn't be doing #not to mention my phone addiction #so i already had this kind of specific flashy headaches before #especially during summers #but now I'm having this for the entire week I'm stopping my tablet #and this month i even had some during the rest of the cycle #so yeah my body is really agaisnt this one #my hormones are already trash on their own thanks #speaking of which #i have had very bad acne for the past weei #so instead of adjusting my body is doing the exact opposite #i mean it's not the end of the world #I know finding the right Pill might take a while #but like waiting 3 - 4 months in between to see the effects seems so long now 😭 #i really went from i haven't seen a gynecologist in 10 years because of medical anxiety #(is that even a real thing??? because i can tell you that I suffer a specific kind of anxiety for any medical appointment different than #my other social and generalized anxiety if that makes sense) #to give me that fucking appointment now i know to drop that bitch #ok i didn't let me touch me except for breast check up last time and this time i'm on my period so too bad it won't be this time either #but hey if i takes me ten Pill test to find the right one I might be comfortable enough lmao