#the absolute devstation and deconstruction of your life and yet you survived the tidal wave

[godofsmallthings]

evermore is the most fucked up beautiful little song in this entire world

#the fact that it's the album closer too... #where's that post about how taylor explores contradictory feelings #because this pain will be for evermore but it also won't be #it's the way you can see her self-acceptance and confidence literally develop over her entire body of work #that brash loud confidence of being a kid with your dreams at your fingertips #masking your insecurity #that complete loss of it as you lose your girlhood and your world spins off its axis #the trying to be clean from it but it's empty words because you won't let yourself go through it first #the absolute devstation and deconstruction of your life and yet you survived the tidal wave #you're doing better than you ever were #but better than ever doesn't mean good #but you keep feeling and growing compassion for your past self #and the pain will stick with your forever but you find joy in the sadness now. and you know you have the strength to endure it #(i'm so excited for the perspective midnights will add to this) #vi is typing...