#the demons won. evil prevails. this is the bad ending.

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If writing were breath, I imagine my lungs would implode

“ If you surround yourself in love you're bound to go great places, and though my life has been one of rich soils and silver platters I have found that a life of rich hatred is no life at all. Real royalty is found in the heart not the crown nor jewels.” - Katerine Von Roy

“ We're sparkling stars in a vast eternity of pitch black shadow shining even though the world wants our lights to go dim and our candles to be snuffed by dark waters.” - Katerine Von Roy

"The ashes of ones soul is often created in the fire of another's hatred, the fire of another more often than not will burn another to ash if not contained. I have found you have to control the fire raging inside of you, or everyone around you will suffer the consequences of you striking a match to feel the flame.” - Asbury Hobkins

“ I don't understand why we have to pick up our guns and fight, but our lives are on the line, and when peace isn't an option, bask in chaos to make peace the only damn option available.” - Asbury Hobkins

 "If dreams are the very foundation on which we stand then tell me why it is nightmares rule over this land. Light can not prevail without darkness, shadows can't exist without the sun, dreams can't soar without nightmare so tell me why you ignore the foundation of dreams?” - Algonul

“ I will destroy faith and hope with my existence alone.” - Algonul

“ I have dipped my fingers in a river of blood, and just because the man I drowned hurt me so, it gave me no reason to bury him with my pain. But I didn't bury my pain, it only rose from it's coffin and burst from my chest.” - Valarie Forbes

“ If you fear for your life, it's often you'll take another to regain your sense of safety.” - Valarie Forbes

“ I am a beast shackled by nuthin' more than my fucking rage. It beats inside my chest day after day, month after month, year after year, it is an ugly beast, but when did I ever say I was anything but a god damn monstrosity?” - Bernard

“ You wanna be a hero? Kill yourself and spare yourself of the pain I'll inflict ya. The only thing you can change, is how you fucking die." - Bernard

“ I'm in no ways a good man nor am I rich in heart all the money in the world couldn't save me from the sins at my back.” - Sam Dellwotfire

“ "Of all the bullet wounds I've inflicted the ones I shot into my heart are the most painful. I have learned peace is simply an intermission, it's between chaos and sorrow, and I imagine this pocket of peace will never last.” - Novella Delemonte 

“ "Bravery ain't not bein' scared, bravery is bein' frightened down ta your very core, feelin' that fear in your bones, and doin' the right damn thing despite the cold shiver of fear runnin' up your spine. I have found that despite the fear in my old heart, I'm runnin' inta the battlefield regardless.” - Walter Hemmington

“ Life is a battlefield, it's a good thing I'm a damn soldier.” - Walter Hemmington

"The weight of a thousand moons weight down on my heart, but I've found a single sun, can make that weight as light as a feather. Emma is my only guiding light, the singular star in the night sky, the sun on a cloudy day, and somehow I've found warmth when all I ever was, was cold.” - Jen Dallinvritz

“ The world tries to keep me down, but I just fly higher, the sun may be in view, but a flame can't burn fire.” - Jen Dallinvritz

“ The pain I feel is nothing compared to the peace I've found.” - Jen Dallinvritz

“ I've been basked in horrors, covered in shadows and told ta be a monster because it's what orcs do. But just because it's what we were made ta be, don't mean we can't re-write our definition.” - Ashgarn

“ You can call me a monster for my heritage, but if you look a lil deeper you'll find that I'm not like other orcs. I'm just an orc in a human's world.” - Ashgarn

“ I have claws meant only for beasts, but you need not be covered in fur and own claws to be a beast. Most of the beasts I've slain are mortals draped in the fur of a wolf. I will gladly graze on the grass of their hunting grounds to be the wolf in sheep's clothing that puts them down once and for all.” - Vivian Swain

“ I shalt redeem us in our final hour, bathe in the darkness only to drown the monsters around me. I'm the last thing you'll see, in the blink of an eye your life will flash before your eyes, and it's final moments will flash before mine as you've seen so many times with the innocent blood you've spilt.” - Vivian Swain

“ To get acceptance I've found you have to go through the struggle of accepting who you are. There'll be nights you can't find any shred of light, nights you scream into your pillow and bat your fists against the wall in frustration. But it's worth it in the end, it is. If you can call yourself beautifully you, than you've succeeded in life.” - Martha Vendowister

“ If you're different, welcome to the club, here we accept everyone no matter what gender they are, no matter who they love or the battle they fight. You can fight depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and if you've won that battle, you're strong as fuck, don't let anyone tell you ya aren't. Because you wake up tired just to fight the same demons that left you tired the night before, and that, is true bravery.” - Martha Vendowister

“ I find that life is worth it despite the scars in my heart, just because my heart aches doesn't mean it's not whole. Just because my mind is scarred, doesn't mean it can't bring me tranquility.” - Octavia Blackroad

"I'm curling back from the recoil of damage done and shots fired into the anomaly of my own heart. It's as vast as the oceans, and I drown in it's depths more often that not. I'm a mystery to even myself, I can't figure out the emotions in my own heart, and I fear I'll be gone and forgotten before the sun rises on the horizon.” - Stefania Saines

“ "You could live your whole life in a cage without once realizing it, or you could find the door was open all along if you just believed in yourself. The only cage you're in is one of doubt, if you doubt everything you can be, there's no key to the cell you've locked yourself in except for belief.” - Avirine Winning

“ You can't make a perception of me reality when it's just a deluded fantasy of your mind.” - Avirine Winning

“ How is it that I've dipped my fingers in the ashes of my family tree and all I find is old rotted bark and a hollow trunk? I find the flame of corruption and sin tore the dying tree asunder, rotted the families history in the most sinful of deeds.” - Merida Calico 

“ I've been in the trenches my whole life, but never was I the one hiding, always was I the one pulling the damn trigger.” - Merida Calico 

“ I've slaughtered innocent men and women, my lips taste of death and a desire to be loved.” - Merida Calico

“ I've been fightin' all my life, ain't no peace ever found in world war me, but I've found as long as I hold my head high, and soldier on, I'll breakout of the heart of darkness and find the light I seek.” - Alec Crabill

“ I've been through every fight imaginable, fought drug lord's in Bangladesh, rescued women and children from odds you don't wanna face unless you got a damn death wish. But here I am, beckoned by death yet bathed in life.” - Alec Crabill

“ I've been faced with many battles, the loss of my mother, ones fought with words and gunshot lullabies and serenades of violence and bloodshed. But here I am, singing a melody of love despite the hatred drowning out everything else.” - Jade Falls

“ I look into his eyes, I see pain, I see love and I see the world. He's everything I've ever wished to have, and here he is, loving me deeper than the ocean.” - Jade Falls

“ I once believed my parents house was a cell with no key, and yet my sister Emily, and her wonderful wife Lacey didn't need no key. They blasted a hole through the walls and broke me the fuck out.” - Alice Everest

“ The world ain't gone cold, we've just forgotten how to start a damn flame and ignite a spark. So live damn it, live." - Alice Everest

“ "I have been so consumed by shadow I imagine I've grown an appetite for it. I have found in the coldest of nights, I dance upon star dust and twirl through the ashes of planets I once called home.” - Night Sparrows

“ All I have are bad thoughts soaked in bad intentions. I often wonder how it is I ever survived when my mind wishes me to die. I fight, I scratch, I tear. And yet still I find only shadows.” - Night Sparrows

“ I dance in the blood of myself and bleed dry the girl I was.” - Violincia Bloodwort

"Here I am, choking on the numbness I feel, singing gunshot lullabies and serenades of nothingness. I in of myself, am a vacancy of everything my mother thought I'd be.” - Varkos Shevelwix 

“ I'm not quite righteous, not quite cruel I'm the grey area in-between. Somedays I'm colder than ice, others I wish naught to harm even a fly. I'm a duality of good and evil and I ponder on which shall win the war I wage with myself." - Varkos Shevelwix

“ Here I stand, in the ruins of Atlantis, swimming through the tide of lost life and spilt blood.” - Lawrence Gallagher 

“ That man ain't human, far as I'm concerned if you don't got no humanity you're a beast, and here, we put down beasts who god damn bite.” - Lawrence Gallagher 

"Ya know, I've learned the world don't much got sympathy for the living, and the living don't much got sympathy for the dead. We disrespect those that have passed, and destroy their legacy with rifles loaded with cruel remarks.” - Benedict Collins

“ It takes a lot 'a bravery ta accept yourself, let alone trust another ta accept you.” - Benedict Collins

"I ain't no saint, I've fought everything I ain't and I imagine somewhere along this broken path I found who I am. I've tasted one too many lips against mine, let too many cigarettes burn my lungs ta ash, but who said ya oughta be a saint to make it in the world huh?” - Becky Winters

“ Life is a constant struggle, but you don't succumb to it's damn riptide.” - Becky Winters

"All my life I imagine I've been told to be who I'm not, I find it impossible to find yourself if all your life all you've ever been was a spectacle of someone else.” - Sarkelus Johnnson

“ Karma is bound to catch up with me eventually, a man such as myself can't outrun her, only delay the inevitable.” - Sarkelus Johnnson

“ Oh how I wish I was strong. I could lift a blade, but I could not bring it down.” - Ashel

“ I don't believe in blood spilt for a good purpose. If it was so holy then it wouldn't be a damning offense.” - Ashel

“ We all lose ourselves at some point, but if you lose who you were, journey to find who you oughta be.” - Dory Villsworth

“ Life ain't darkness and darkness ain't life. It's just part of it. So get your shit together and move the fuck on with life. Don't let your past be an anchor, and don't be a ship at the bottom of the ocean.” - Dory Villsworth

"Most would rather drown in a blood soaked lie than choke on the truth.” - Simon Rossburg

“ I'm the monster this world needs, Mike Wazowski in a world full 'a Randalls.” - Simon Rossburg

“ Ya oughta sin ta win sometimes, that's just the cold bitter truth, and if ya can't swallow it, you're gonna damn well choke on it and die in the process 'a accepting it.” - Simon Rossburg

“ I ain't a part of my scars, they're a part of me. Sure, they hurt like Hell, but let 'em hurt, what's important is I let 'em fuckin' heal." - Carl Schillerstrom

“ This world would like to kick us down on the constant, but screw that, I'm not going down without a damn fight. I've been fighting all my life, what's another punch thrown huh? What's another damn bruise? I got plenty, yours won't hurt as bad as other's.” - Malilah Vivenwoker

"I'll weave this pain of mine into gold and these scars into strength.” - Kerrissa Vivenwoker

“ I've learned the world don't care about you, unless you care about yourself. Because you'll get nowhere if you feel sorry for yourself, you have to rise up and be your own armor sometimes. Sure, it may be rusted, but who said rusted armor can't stop a sword?” - Kerrissa Vivenwoker 

"Life has made me a gentle soul, though it was rough with me, I remain the softest spoken love in the air.” - Madison Rose

“ Love is a wonderful thing, it can make someone who's fallen to pieces whole. Someone who's fallen climb, and someone who feels nothings worth worth a million gold coins.” - Madison Rose

"I carry on despite the daggers in my back, you may bleed, but don't let your scars steal every drop of blood you have.” - Sabrina

“ Life will prosper as long as you let yourself grow. You're a flower, not a weed. Remember that. You aren't poisoning your own petals, you're watching them fall, and not picking them back up. So bloom, and remember, even the smallest seed, can become the most beautiful flower." - Sabrina

“ Oh mother dear I know you yearn to see me use this power of mine for good, oh sister dear how you wish I'd protect you from the heat of this world's hate, but all three of us burned. And dying changes a woman.” - Autumn Wolfmoon

“ I see their father in everything they do, their smile, their spunk attitude, sometimes I feel I'm haunted by Dominic's memory, but then I remember even ghosts can be friendly.” - Martha Honeycomb 

“ Oh how Delilah makes my heart soar. My beautiful Amish girl. She lives life so simply, she cherishes every little moment, and I cherish every little moment I have with her. She's showed me just how amazing life can be.” - Laura Hollinger

“ My life's been dark, it's been crummy, but ya know what? I rose in spite of that. I won't let my scars define me, I'll define my damn scars.” - Laura Hollinger

“ Life has been a rather interestin' ride, once I believed I had ta choose between my old lifestyle, and dis new one dat had found me. But I found dat I have ta combine da both of them, because they're both a part of me, and I imagine neither side will leave my heart. If you are faced with choosin' who you were, and who ya are, I advise you combine the two, and become the beauty you are ta be." - Delilah Miller

"Black rain pitter patters against my heart and soul, I imagine it drowned the noble man I was, and out rose the wicked and corrupt creature of the storm inside my bones.” - Theodora Crimsonburn

“ I imagine my daughters can't look up to me. Despite how I protect them so, I forgot to protect my heart, and I imagine that's why I lost it.” - Theodora Crimsonburn

“ "If it is only human to sin, tell me why it is I am labeled monster. In all of my monstrosity I find I am only human, and oh, isn't that the most terrifying thing of all? My lack of humanity, yet despite all that, being human?” - Quentin Satchel 

“ Redemption was never an option, because I was born on the edge of Hell, but stepped on other's backs to reach Heaven.” - Quentin Satchel

“ Every life taken to me is just.. another Tuesday. It's a chore, one I fulfill only to get back to my task at hand.” - Quentin Satchel 

"My memory is a peculiar place, forgotten are the scars of my past, but wonderous are the joys in this life of mine.” - Joe Paquil

“ I have found this world will kick you around some before it gives you peace of mind, but don't let the kicking kill ya. As a bull rider wouldn't let the tussle kill him, you won't let the fight for the reward kill you.” - Joe Paquil 

“ Cold waters can only freeze you if you jump in. And if you're pushed, you fight to get out.” - Joe Paquil

“ Life can be a struggle, God... how I know how difficult it can be. But in the end, you'll realize struggle is a part of life, and it's only a small part of it. You may get kicked down on the constant, but one day you'll rise, and you're gonna do it with a frikkin' smile! Okay?” - Sandra Crumbs

“ "Oh I imagine the echoes of gunfire and sin ring in my ears, and all I ever was is consumed by a sinful melody, it's chorus one of broken bones, and it's bridge one of spilt blood.” - Nestor Bevelricks 

“ Ya know, I asked God where the hell he went, and the only answer I got was a cool breeze in the midnight air.” - Nestor Bevelricks 

"I've found the difference between a loving God and a cruel one is your perception of cruelty." - Nestor Bevelricks

“ She is da beauty ta my beast. Da rose ta my thorn. And da plant in me garden 'a weeds. All it takes is one flower ta make a garden bootiful.” - Stephen Vail

“ I 'ave learned doe my anger is strong, I am stronger.” - Stephen Vail

“ Amber is da moother I never 'ad, though I've heard of the woman who gave me life, and from what I can see, Amber is everythin' she'd eva' wish ta raise. Thorne, despite 'er damn struggles wif' 'er mental illness, takes care of those around 'er. And Jesse? Despite 'er fear, she stays fokin' brave as a captain sailin' straight inta da eye of da hurricane.” - Stephen Vail

“ I wasn't born with this killer body. I had to fight for it. I had to pay for it. It was fucking expensive. But you know what? I'd give away all the money in the world to be myself.” - Emanuel Trueblood

“ Only the dead 'ave seen the end of war I imagine, they got peace, we have ta carry war on our shoulders every damn day. The weight of it is impossible ta lift, and yet ya do it anyways.” - Deandra Phoenix

“ Ain't who I were. Not no more. Just a coffin, I imagine. Lower me down, bury me underneath America's soil and remember I once stained it crimson, but blood seeps through the dirt and is often forgotten.” - Deandra Phoenix

“ The hauntings of war echo on the cool night air. The fire reminds me of the sparks of my revolver, the night sky reminds me of the starless nights spent on the battlefield, and the dirt reminds me of the bodies buried. Everything is a reminder of war. Once you've fought it, you can't ever stop fighting it.” - Deandra Phoenix 

"Life don't gotta be perfect, just lived to it's fullest extent. And besides, if you live your life to it's fullest, isn't that perfect despite the struggles?” - Brandon Killovitch

“ She saved my life.. and I imagine I saved hers. She used to be a train-wreck, but, so did I. But together, we fought each other's battles, she still has that wild side, but it makes her her, and I accept everything she is, because she's beautiful and I'm in love with everything she was, everything she is, and everything she'll become.” - Brandon Killovitch

"I'm nothing short of sinful, just a bonfire with kerosene swallowing everything around her whole, burning down the fields of her innocence in one fell swoop.” - Kareath Calico

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 SourceURL:https://www.ourcatholicprayers.com/the-litany-of-saint-michael.html The Litany of Saint Michael:For Help From A Powerful Source

In these days when it seems like everything’s corrupt, both in the church and society at large, this litany of St. Michael, printed below, is a great prayer for spiritual combat against Satan and his fellow demons!

It is more important now than ever to remember that God is still in charge; and that in the end His Goodness will triumph over whatever evil he permits us to endure in the name of respecting our free will to choose Him.

God has not left us in the Catholic faith without resources to grow in holiness, no matter how errant some of His clergy may be these days!

In addition to His vital sacraments of the Eucharist and Penance, each of us has a Guardian Angel to help guide us through the minefields of evil and misfortune in our day-to-day lives and this prayer (also available as a podcast) can help us remember that!

We also have another angel to help us, one of the best fighters we could have, Saint Michael the Archangel, honored in this litany below. It can be prayed alone or in a group setting.

(In a church service or other such setting, the group responds to a leader with the italicized words below. Each response in the Litany of St. Michael is repeated after each line until a change appears.)

Lord, have mercy. Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy. Christ, have mercy. Lord, have mercy. Lord, have mercy. Christ, hear us. Christ, hear us. Christ, graciously hear us. Christ, graciously hear us. God, the Father of heaven, have mercy on us. (repeat after each line) God, the Son, the Redeemer of the world, God, the Holy Spirit, Holy Trinity, one God, Holy Mary, Queen of Angels, pray for us. (repeat after each line) Saint Michael, Saint Michael, abundant font of divine wisdom, Saint Michael, most perfect adorer of the Divine Word, Saint Michael, whom God crowned with honor and glory, Saint Michael, most powerful Prince of the heavenly host, Saint Michael, standard-bearer of the Most Holy Trinity, Saint Michael, guardian of Paradise, Saint Michael, guide and consoler of the People of God, Saint Michael, splendor and fortitude of the Church Militant, Saint Michael, honor and joy of the Church Triumphant, Saint Michael, light of the Angels, Saint Michael, protection of orthodox people, Saint Michael, strength of those who fight under the standard of the Cross, Saint Michael, light and hope of souls near death, Saint Michael, our most sure aid, Saint Michael, help in our adversities, Saint Michael, herald of the everlasting judgment, Saint Michael, consoler of souls languishing in purgatory, Saint Michael, receiver of the souls of the elect after death, Saint Michael, our prince, Saint Michael, our defender, Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world, Spare us O Lord. Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world, Graciously hear us O Lord. Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world, Have mercy on us. Pray for us Saint Michael the Archangel That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

Let us pray. O Lord Jesus Christ, may your continual blessing sanctify us, and grant us through the intercession of Saint Michael the wisdom that teaches us to lay up our treasure in Heaven and choose eternal goods over those of this world. Thou, who lives and reigns forever. Amen

(Keep in mind as well that The Prayer to St. Michael, also available as a podcast, is a great shorter prayer to recite to yourself after Mass. It used to be recited publicly then. You can also pray it at any other time you think it might be appropriate.)

The word angel itself derives from the Greek word angelos which means messenger. As such, we see numerous instances in scripture in which angels give people various messages from God. One of the most well-known of these is the angel Gabriel’s announcement to Mary that she was to be the Mother of God (Luke 1:26-38).

Whereas we human beings are a composite of soul and body, angels were created by God to be pure spirits. Unlike us, they have higher intellects in that they can process thoughts and reactions to various things simultaneously, rather than as we do, a step at a time. They seek to bring out either our Good (as in the good angels, including our Guardian angels) or our ruin (as in the demonic, the fallen angels).

St. Michael is considered to be the guardian angel and protector of the Catholic Church. As Joan Carroll Cruz put it in her book Angels and Devils, published by Tan Books, Christian tradition recognizes St. Michael’s four important functions: “1) to fight against Satan; 2) to rescue the souls of the faithful from the power of the devil, especially at the hour of death; 3) to attend the dying and accompany them to judgment; 4) to be the champion of God’s people, the Israelites in the Old Law, the Christians in the New Testament, and to serve as the Patron of the Church”

St. Michael was the one who led the fight to vanquish Lucifer when he, in his deadly pride and envy, along with a third of the angels, rebelled against serving God. Scripture makes reference to this in Chapter 14 of the book of Isaiah, and in Chapter 12 of the book of Revelation.

St. Michael and the rest of the angels won a decisive victory and Lucifer and the bad angels were cast into hell as Satan and his hideous demons, having lost all their beauty. Michael’s very name gives testimony to this in his famous war cry Micha’el (“Who is like God” in Hebrew) that he uttered going into battle.

In Chapter 12 of the book of Revelation this great event is described thus: “And there was a great battle in heaven. Michael and his Angels were battling with the dragon, and the dragon was fighting, and so were his angels. But they did not prevail, and a place for them was no longer found in heaven. And he was thrown out, that great dragon, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, who seduces the whole world. And he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were cast down with him” (Rev. 12: 7-9).

Saint Michael’s wonderful contributions for our salvation didn’t stop with this decisive battle, however. As we read in this litany, he has been quite active in helping us in our earthly journey towards heaven both in this life and in our afterlife as well.

As the 15th century saint Lawrence Justinian once said “Let all acknowledge St. Michael as their protector and be devoted to him, for he cannot despise those who pray to him…But he guards them through life, directs them on their way and conducts them to their eternal home.”

For those many souls who die avoiding Hell but not quite ready for heaven, Saint Michael, as mentioned in the litany “has received the care of consoling and helping the souls in Purgatory.” This is according to one of the church’s preeminent theologians and Doctors St. Alphonsus Liguori (1696-1787).

Although not mentioned by name, Saint Michael is also considered to be the one who escorted the Israelites out of Egypt in the book of Exodus; and to have defeated Sennachrib’s Assyrian army when they tried to capture Jerusalem in the 8th century BC (2 Kings 9:35)!

In the early years of Christianity he was known as a great healer, as well. In the 4th century AD, the emperor Constantine, attributing victories over his enemies to St. Michael’s protection, built a great church near Constantinople named Michelion which he dedicated to St. Michael. Many sick and infirm were said to have been cured there through St. Michael’s intercession.  

St. Michael is said also to have offered significant support to St. Joan of Arc in her battles to save France from English invaders in the 15th century, and later, for those forces that beat back the Turkish armies at the Battle of Lepanto in 1571 and kept Europe from being conquered by the Muslims then.

In this time of such great turmoil and uncertainty in the church, this is an especially good time to appeal to St. Michael for his help in prayer. St. Francis de Sales once wrote something quite relevant today about this great saint and angel: “Veneration of St. Michael is the great remedy against despising the rights of God, against insubordination, skepticism and infidelity”

Don’t be afraid to include this prayer, and others like it such as the Guardian Angel Prayer and the shorter St. Michael Prayer also on our website as well, in your prayer “arsenal” for assistance when the going gets rough. It never hurts to keep in touch with St. Michael, as well as with your Guardian Angel in prayer, or in your own heartfelt thoughts and words as well!

#catholic #st michael #prayer #litany

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3/28/2019

Just a cut Just a scratch "Whats that mark?" "It was the cat." Just an excuse Just a lie "Whats with all the bracelets?" "Just a fashion, Why?" Just a tear Just a scream "Why are you crying?" "Just a bad dream." But its not just a cut Or a tear Or a lie Its always "Just one more.." Until you die. -- What is more deadly? a gun or a thought? a gun gives you the opportunity but a thought pulls the trigger. -- there's a demon living inside my head, but she answers to my name she tells me stories late at night that mess with my brain. when I stand in front of a mirror she laughs at what I wear the freckles sprinkled across my face and the way I tie my hair. Do the people on the bus fight these demons too? The kind that make you doubt yourself and tell you what to do? Maybe that's why they never talk because their screaming in my head why hate someone else when you can just hate yourself instead? -- I don't think they realize how sleepless nights can effect you or how overthinking slowly kills you I don't think they know how it can turn thoughts into ones you wish weren't yours. -- If you haven't noticed the scars on my hips or the fake smile on my lips or the fake laugh I've adopted or the way I don't care about the things I used to love.  Don't you dare stand at my grave and cry.  How can you care for someone that you don't even know? -- Who needs enemies when you've got yourself? -- Mirror mirror on the wall was I always meant to fall? Roses white and dying light silvers sweet forgiving bite she'll ask "why?" and I'll rot beneath the ground. -- If my heart stopped beating today, would you miss me tomorrow? -- They announced it on a Monday In our schools old sweaty hall That a girl I had math with wasn't coming back at all.  You could hear the silent questions She was perfect, wasn’t she? What demons was she fighting. Were we all to blind to see? I sat in math that Monday beside her now abandoned desk while our teacher warned us not to fail Our fast approaching test. I remember she once whispered That she was envious of me because my parents knew the work it took Just to get a simple ‘B’ I wish I’d noticed earlier Or had the decency to ask because her world must’ve been crumbling Under her ‘perfect student’ mask. And I wonder if on that Sunday, It was the last thought in her brain That the only ‘A+’ she could give was the blood type in her veins. -- Behind my smile is a hurting heart behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.  Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am… ….Isn’t me. -- She stood on the bridge In silence and fear for the demons of darkness had driven her here. They cut her heart right out of her chest making her believe that the demons knew best They were always there sometimes just out of sight waiting in the background till the time was right.  These demons were destructive knocking down the life she knew hating everything about her.  These demons can't be seen but they're far from fairy tales.  They live inside your mind.  Their evilness prevails.   So on the bridge she stood about to end the fight then she stopped and thought I'll fight them one more night -- Here on my arm lies a mark that I made. When I was so low, I cut with a blade to punish my body for being a mess, though here is my testament, I must confess... that seeing these scars left on my arms, legs, and chest makes me realize I was in a place of no rest; I feel guilty inside for leaving this token. Now I will see and remember that I was so broken. But seeing these scars helps me see that I survived so much trauma and now I am free. So I ask you now to stand with me and fight, to show all these demons what they're doing is not right. You won the battle of good versus bad. You are still alive and are no longer sad. Here on my arm lies a mark of survival. I got through my hate and beat my self-rival. -- Until it affects someone we love, we don't even know it's there. It's really not our problem, So why should we care. The statistics are quite shocking, one in four they say will suffer from depression In their lives one day. There's not much stigma anymore for this serious mental flaw. But no one knows where it will strike, It's just the luck of the draw. No one would choose to live with it, and some don't even try. I see my daughter suffering and all she can do is cry. Most people turn the other cheek, they've been doing it for years. But I must face the pain I see, In my daughter's tears. -- She took a deep breath. She counted to three, a picture in her head Of who they wanted me to be. They wanted her to be normal, happy and kind. They never thought That this girl would be blind. Not blind by the meaning, but blind in the heart. Blinded by darkness, blinded by dark. She walks around lifeless, her heart beating but dead. A walking corpse, she is lost inside her head. Things have no meaning, at least not anymore. She was not how she was, how she was once before. She is one of the living but one of the dead. A part of her is missing; She hangs on by a thread. She hung her head low, took one final bow. She stepped off the edge saying one final vow. "I will not change who I am. As hard as any of you try, this is me giving up; This is one last goodbye." -- You don't understand ,you never do. I try to explain, but I can't get through to you. I tell you the truth that I feel so depressed, but you say I'm okay. I thought you would know best. So I sit in my room, locked in my personal hell, while you pretend it's all good and I do as well. But I'm not okay, and my friends know that, too, but you can't seem to see what is right in front of you. You say it's a phase, blame my friends for it all, but you don't understand that this is not their fault. I can't live like this. I can't live this life, and as much as I tried, I can't end it with a knife. I know you've been through this, that you ached so much more, but I can't help but wonder don't you know me at all!? I thought you would get it, why I'm acting this way, but you don't listen to what I have to say. You just ignore me, pretend I'm alright. I want this to end. I feel like I might... but I'm not as strong as I'd like to be, so I'll act all normal while I wait patiently for my time to come and I hope that it's soon. My friends understand; I wish you could, too. But you don't understand, and I know it's not fair, but sometimes I feel like you don't even care. I feel all alone, but I know that's not true. I have all my friends, but I wish I had you. I know with my friends I'll make it through this, even though it feels like my life's falling to bits. You don't understand. You never do, but I hope with their help I can make it through. -- You know.. It's funny, even own Parents can't tell I'm depressed ..Hell! They can't tell that I'm suicidal.  Being Depressed is like drowning. You're drowning, but yet you can see everyone around you breathing.   -- roses are red violets are blue sugar is sweet and perhaps so are you but the roses have wilted, the violets are dead the sugar bowl's empty, and your wrists are stained red the sun isn't shining, the sky isn't clear there's no silver lining cause you're no longer here.  Rain keeps on pouring, there's no end in sight your laying there frozen, so far from the light your beauty's unreal, your smile's the sun but time cant be turned nor your actions undone the words that you wrote that only I read "I love you so much; please don't cry when I'm dead" a bond that we formed, a love that ran deep a pain that we shared; a friend I could keep.  I wanted to hold you, wipe the tears from your eyes be there the moment you said your goodbyes I want to forget but most times I don't. I want to let go, but I know that I won't. Tears on my face, memories burned in my head the roses have wilted, the violets are dead (I want to die) Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart. -- No one notices your T e a r s No one notices your S a d n e s s No one notices your P a i n s But everyone notices your M i s t a k e s -- It hurts.. but it's okay I'm used to it -- It's scary what a smile can hide. -- One day I’ll be dead and i hope that day is someday soon because I don't think I can hold onto this reality when I so desperately want to live in a world without pain.