#the fact that im incapable to stand up for myself and to set boundaries

[woestruckalex]

sometimes i wonder weather my trauma actually shapes me as a person.. i used to think that i was capable of acting like a normal functioning adult but these days ive been noticing a lot of flaws that could be explained by my childhood

#like the fact that im so indecisive and the fact that i always let ppl choose what they want and follow along #the fact that im incapable to stand up for myself and to set boundaries #and the fact that im a people pleaser #it's all bc my mom is a fucking tyran and the only thing i could ever do was to follow orders and do exactly as she pleased otherwise i - #-would get the beating lf my life #every aspect of my personality always ended up oppressed and crushed to death and trampled on #also the fact that im so inexperienced and that i don't know how real life works can be explained by the fact that i am literally never- #-allowed to leave the house #i really need to work on myself #i need to break free #and i need to go out more #diary