#the halo thing was a mistake that shouldnt have happened

[manyregerts]

Okay like. I get some of yall were probably really excited to hear about the arcs. I understand that. But if you pretend that that hadnt been implied? The arcs are like 100x better. There are shaky moments, sure, but zatanna's arc wouldve been amazing if people hadnt expected it to solely focus on her. Like they were wrong to market it that way, and she and rocket both definitely deserve more screen time and dedication to their characters, but even rocket's arc isnt that bad if you dont expect her to be the focus.

It's literally just world building and splitting up POVs like any other show.

Anyway I really enjoyed 4x20 and the fact that no one is making jokes abt the funny weed number is a travesty. an alien shit his pants and zod formed a musical troupe. A teenager had one of the most heartbreaking breaking points about grief and depression, that was well nuanced for, again, a superhero cartoon. All in 23 minutes.

#please chill on the negativity #the halo thing was a mistake that shouldnt have happened #but honestly? thats the only thing i can personally (personally) think of #thats been like. bad. #and even that was a genuine mistake WHICH does not make it any less bad but at least it wasnt intentional yknow #yall are impatient waiting for wally and also older now plus the show is incredibly different from s1 #nostalgia isnt carrying it anymore #its not a perfect show and grandon shouldnt be on a pedestal like cmon guys why do we do this with every cartoon #yj spoilers #long post #young justice phantoms #young justice #dont crucify me

[brujaspeak]

So how do i feel? I feel like I'm never gonna get it right. I'm 30 and all I ever wanted was to be in love and be married and have two kids. But now i feel like that will never happen which is why i force myself to believe I dont want it. It's easier to tell myself and everyone that i dont want to be married and i dont believe in love and that i hate kids because honestly it hurts me to know that no one willingly wants to have that with me. It's become worse now that i'm 30 and oddly enough its become worse since i found out gilbert is married. It's one of those feelings when people tell you something but you dont believe them or trust them so you push it away. He said he wanted to marry me but i didnt buy into it. I really believe my craziness led to the relationship failing. I tried to push him away, i wanted something new. I was done feeling the pain of infidelity. but the thought of "what if i forgave him" what if i trusted him?" maybe i couldve been married right now. Instead I am not married, killing more babies, no potential of anything happening... I'm in the same situation all over again, I dont trust the person im with, and im tired of feeling the pain of infidelity. I dont know if i believe you about not having sex with her, a part of me may believe it would be easier if it was just a fuck...instead of an emotional connection. The problem with you is you showed me that im not special, im not a catch, im just another girl, im not a prize or a dream come true... im not something to chase and im not someone to think twice about... in that moment you thought it was over and that was it, i was not an afterthought and i was not a "maybe i should call her?" "maybe i should eat my pride and fix this first?" Instead i was just a "i guess its over". and you did what you did. Ive felt this before and i hate the feeling. I hate feeling like love isnt real and i hate feeling like everyone will hurt you. thats all ive known. the truth is i dont want to marry someone that already has a strike against them. I dont want to have a baby with someone that was too much of a coward to feel his own saddness and eat his pride to call me and fix it. I cant ever trust someone that could keep a lie from me, who can hide texts from me, and say he forgot about everything that he surely does remember. Maybe later in life I will look back and realize how dumb it is to think love shouldnt make mistakes. but right now i know when i love someone im not cabale of cheating or lieing. I wasnt in love with gilbert when we happened. I hadnt been in love with gilbert since 2013 when he left me in corpus. I cried for months, i dated andrew to kill the lonliness and i went back to gilbert to prove to him he made a mistake leaving me. Unfortunatly, those are not reasons to be with someone and i could not fool myself any longer. Ryan, I really did like you. I saw you as the purest thing ever. I hyped you up and made you out to be something your not. Its my fault for making you to be a savior and an unrealistic idea in my head. Its chessy but the whole natasha thing was you falling from heaven. you lost your angel wings and that halo i thought you wore. You became just like gilbert, capable of hurting me, capable of lies, and capable of hiding the truth or omiting the truth in both your cases. what do i do? this is what i feel but what do i do? do i leave? do i stay? all i know is to hold on until theres an obvious sign. I cant let go of people. I dont know how to move on from a bad situation. so maybe i am capable of forgiveness? but the truth is i dont want to have to forgive something like this! Why should i have to? why is this always the test thrown my way? I should be allowed to say no, i dont want to be with someone capable of any form of cheating. I am putting my foot down unknowingly, thats probaly why i cant forgive you or forget. bacause i dont want to have to do so. what if i married you, i would always know there was a moment your mind wandered and your heart was not with me. I'm too much of a sap that i could not live knowing my husband or father of my child could be with someone else. unrealistic, sure... will i ever find what im describing im looking for, unlikely...but thats just where i am right now.